Stuck With My First Love
How Can I Not Love You

The race finally began. One by one the contest participants of each class called the committee to then start walking on the red carpet. Moving like a professional model. Participants are called according to the order of the draw during technical meetings.

Coco and I got the final order. What apes! From 30 classes ranging from class X to class XII we are last. Dancing from the morning. Go forward even the last one. Fortunately my makeup artist is already a pro, so my makeup does not fade even though it is near noon.

One by one the participants who had walked on the red carpet then headed to the hall to take part in the Obstacle Course session and the Q&A session with the jury. So that in the waiting room there are fewer participants. While waiting to be called, I was completely unsettled. Several times seen the wall clock in the waiting room. I feel like the clockwork of the day is moving very slowly. My feet and hands were so nervous they were shaking.

Maybe because he was uncomfortable seeing me so nervous, he finally asked me to talk.

“Why you? Nervous?” he asked while pointing at my trembling feet and hands

I answered while forcing her to smile.

“Hehehe.iya. I'm really nervous. I have PD”

I asked him, I asked him,

“How do you think I look today?”

She with her cool expression just glanced at me and lightly replied

“Regular aja”

I swear to God, I want to hit this kid's head! Really bummer! Iii.gemesss...

I need support. Need motivation. But he's even like that. Makes me more pessimistic. I was wrong, too, asked a guy like Coco.

“You're not so happy, are you? I need support though. Yes even though I am not beautiful like other participants, lying a little why the hell? You even answer that. Try being my partner Arsy. He will be more supportive than you. Surely he can encourage me” my protest at length because it has been very upset.

At that time I was really angry with him. I didn't mind the other participants looking at me because my voice was quite loud. He likes to spark my emotions. You evil Coco!

We finally kept quiet with each other. I was so lazy to ask him to talk. He also seemed to be more interested in reading than talking to me. Be both of us silent while waiting to be called.

Finally my turn came. I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. I zipped my jacket slowly and then I took my jacket off. I put it on the chair I was sitting in.

He also stood up from his seat and placed the book he had read earlier in the occupied seat. He tidied up the suit he was wearing. Tidy up her hair by looking at the large long mirror provided in the waiting room.

I also tidied up my dress. Then straighten my hair and look at my makeup. My heart is beating faster. I'm really nervous. I feel like my footsteps are heavy.

I saw him glancing at me and then walking beside me.

“Participants number 30 get ready” said one of the committee in charge of calling the participants.

“Baik”

Coco opened the waiting room door. We walked slowly to the red carpet. I can't hide my nerves and nerves. Suddenly he looked at me with his arm directed at me. Gesticulating me to hold his arm. I put my hand on her arm in shame. Then we walked along.

“Not to be nervous. You..beautiful today”he said to me suddenly without looking at me. Makes me reflexively look at him.

His words just now really made me happy. I can't hide my happiness hearing her praise. I smiled to myself after hearing her praise. We sauntered on the red carpet that had been held along the school hallway from the classes then stopped in front of the hall.

I see students from class X to class XII all spill over along the red carpet. They stand on the left right of the carpet. Sometimes I hear voices praising me or praising Coco's good looks that day.

“Woooowww.beautiful”told some guys

“Cowoknya very handsome”said some girls

I look at him occasionally. She smiles. I came to smile. In my heart I told myself that even if I didn't win, I didn't have a problem.

I can see my classmates gathered into one giving us encouragement. I saw Anti throw her thumb at me. I could only nod my head gesturing and smile at my friends.

Arriving at the school hall, we were welcome to enter by the committee.

“You hand in hand until when de?”ask one of the organizers to me and Coco.

Apparently we're still holding hands. Reflex I let go of my hand grip on his arm. We were completely unconscious still holding hands.

“Sorry kak”

The committee sister just smiled at our behavior. Makes me really embarrassed.

Finally Coco and I walked towards the participant's seat. In front of us was a small stage where the Demonstration of Permission. Not far from the stage, sat the judges who judged the abilities of the participants.

As I sat waiting for my turn, I could see each participant trying to show his ability and cleverness in answering the jury's questions. In the Prohibition session there are singing, dancing, stand up comedy, and many more. I can see, they're all talented.

In that room only participants and judges were allowed to enter. The audience cannot enter. So that they could only peek out from the windowpanes of the hall. The shape of my school hall is similar to a theater where the audience seats move down with the stage at the bottom.

Finally it was our turn. The first one to be called was Coco. He advanced to the top of the pangung confidently.

“Participant number 30A, please introduce yourself”said Mr. Willy who is also my gym teacher

“Participant number 30A, name Marco Reynand Valencio Class X.3”Coco replied confidently.

“Today you want to display what abilities?” tanya Bu Riska, the race jury who is also an Art teacher.

“I want to show my ability to play a musical instrument bu”he replied calmly. There was no doubt in him.

“Oke.please show your abilities”said Mr. Iwan, our music teacher let him show his abilities.

With a confident step, he walked towards the piano on the right stage. He sat down on the chair and started playing the piano. The song he played was very sweet. His hands are very good at playing the piano. All the contest participants and the judges enjoyed the music show very much. At first I didn't know what song was playing. Recently I found out he was playing the song River flows in you by Yiruma. The melody is beautiful. Me and the audience who watched his performance like drugged his skill to play every note on that piano. So melodious.

Despite his extremely cool and even annoying demeanor, he who played the piano back then, was truly like a prince. His handsome face wrapped in black suit, he is also a basketball champion and piano prodigy . Makes my heart really melt.

After playing the piano, he stood up. Everyone present in the hall gave him a standing ovation. I didn't think the piano game was that good. He saluted the jury with a slight bow of his head, then took the stage.

Now it's my turn. The sister of the committee told me to get ready for the stage. I also moved out of my chair. Down the stairs to the stage. Coco and I walked up the stairs.

“Ya” spirit whispered to me when we passed.

I was able to hear her words just now. Until unconscious, the committee brother told me to immediately go down to the stage.

“Eh.iya sis, sorry”kataku to the committee brother who reprimanded me.

“Participants 30B please introduce yourself” said Bu Riska

“Emm..introduce.me.30B participants. My name..Viviane Mikaylafayza Putri”kataku with a stammering voice. Because I was nervous.

“Don't be nervous, just relax ya” said Mr. Willy encouraging me

“Good pak”

Just like before, the jury one by one gave questions. Although not as sePD Coco, but fortunately I can answer all those questions.

“You want to display what abilities?”ask sir Iwan

“I'll sing pak”

“OK.please start”Pak Willy let me start

I took a deep breath to expel my nervous and nervous feelings. That day I sang Joy Enrique's song, How Can I Not Love You. One of my favorite songs. The song is the soundtrack to the movie Anna and the King. Maybe not many people know. Because the singer is not very famous. But I like the song. The lyrics are very deep. Here are some of the lyrics of the song, though,

Cannot touch, cannot hold

Can't touch, can't hold

Cannot be together

Can't be together

Cannot love, cannot kiss

Can't love, can't smell

Cannot have each other

Can't have each other

Must be strong, and we must let go

We must be strong, and we must be willing

Cannot say what our hearts must know

Can't tell what our hearts need to know

How can I not love you?

How could I not love you?

What do I tell my heart?

What am I supposed to tell my heart?

When do I not want you here in my arms?

When do I not want you here in my arms?

How do one walks away from all of the memories?

How can one simply forget memories?

How do I not miss you when you are gone?

How can I not miss you when you're not around?

Cannot dream, Cannot share

Can't dream, can't share

Sweet and tender moments

Beautiful and fun moments

Cannot feel how we feel

Can't feel our feelings

Must pretend it's over

I have to pretend it's all over