Stuck With My First Love
The Meaning Behind That Throw

When we were in class X, we appointed friends representing the class to be 20XX prince and princess school contestants in order to commemorate the 50th anniversary of the school.

At first he refused, and instead filed for Anti as his successor. Arsy is also running.  After voting, Vivi and I were finally appointed. I was very happy when our names were announced as winners.

When I was in Junior High I was also appointed to represent the youth tourism ambassador competition school. Although not winning, but I think this kind of contest trains the confidence to appear in public. So even though I am a closed person, but by following such an event, I can show another side of myself that most people do not know.

On the day of the race, I could not hide my admiration for Vivi's beauty. She's really pretty. Fortunately, I had a book with me, so I could pretend I wasn't paying attention. Even when he came, he covered his upper body with a jacket. I think she's sick, but she's embarrassed that her dress is a little open.

From behind the book, the tail of my eye can catch his hands and feet that are always moving. I know she must be very nervous.

I actually wanted to talk to her, but I didn't dare. And when he started talking to me, I just talked to him. Makes him angry and pouty. Especially when he said, it should be his partner Arsy alone, because he thinks Arsy is more sporty and can motivate him, somehow I feel very angry to hear him say the name of another man.

Finally when it was our turn to step on the red carpet, I forced myself to take her. I pointed my arm at him, and with a shy blush he wrapped his hand around my arm.

I also encouraged myself to praise him and encourage him.

I told him, though,

“Not to be nervous. You..beautiful once today”

I said it without looking at it, because I was ashamed. I could only look at him without him noticing.

He who heard my praise smiled with great sweetness.

Apparently the dress she was wearing was open on the chest. That's why he's embarrassed. Several times I saw her who seemed to be insecure about her beautiful appearance, trying to cover her chest with her hands.

As a normal guy, of course I like to see girls dressed openly. Moreover, she was very pretty wearing that dress. Her tall body was slim, very fitting with the long dress she wore. Moreover, her slim body with perfect curves, really transformed into a princess that day.

But I honestly don't like it if other guys see him with the same look as me. If only the dress were more closed. I don't like other men enjoying their open bodies like that.

In the hall, I showed my ability to play the piano. I played an instrument called River flows in you by Yiruma. My favorite musical instrument. I love Yiruma's work. He is one of my favorite musicians. Almost all of his works I like and I master. But what I really like most is the River flows in You. That's why I played it that day. After I finished playing the song, I was proud of myself after getting a standing ovation from the judges and the contestants. Including Vivi who clapped and smiled very beautifully at me. Makes me smile. When I got off the stage and passed Vivi on the stairs, I ventured to give her some spirit.

“Passion ya” I whispered to him.

I chuckled as I watched him sculpt after I gave him some vigor, to the point that he reprimanded one of the organizers for going down immediately. My very adorable Vivi with her shocked expression back then really amused me.

That day, she showed her ability to sing. Her voice is so sweet. Makes me really fixated on her charms. Before the race, I asked my cousin's brother who is also the race committee to record Vivi's voice. At first my cousin's sister refused, even teasing me that I had a crush on Vivi. But I say, Vivi herself asked to be recorded, make mementos. Good thing my cousin believes my words. So I have Vivi's voice recording singing How can I not love you.

After the race, I want to take a photo. I asked Dedi to take this handsome picture of me, hahahaha..Because my appearance today is indeed different from ordinary days, so I want to capture this moment.

It just so happened that the place I chose took the photo, was the same one Vivi used.

But when he saw me enter the art room, he hurriedly led Anti out of the room. He said he had finished taking the photos and would return to class. Fortunately, I took a picture of him, even without permission. The pictures I took when he came out of the art room. She's very pretty, like an angel. Real pretty.

After the race we were allowed to return to class. Since I was thirsty, I stopped by the cafeteria for a bit to buy some water. Arriving in class, I was surprised to see Vivi and Arsy even fun to take pictures together. They take pictures with the same facial expression to make friends tease them, that their faces are similar.

They were photographed very close. Makes me feel very angry. I was not strong to linger in class to see the closeness of Arsy and Vivi. I finally decided to leave class. While on the doorstep, I looked back for a moment at Vivi and I stared at her sharply. Because I'm really angry. If he knew the reason for my anger..

When the winner was announced, we selected the jury to be the first winner. I'm so happy. Especially when the announcement of the winner, so happy, he held my hand while prancing with excitement. I can see he's very happy too.

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Two days after the prince and princess contest, I Dedi and Daniel went to see my school pension. I'm actually lazy to see a lot of people. I'm not comfortable if I have to jostle in a crowd of people.

“You are not bosen, at home continue?”ask Daniel

“Ga”my answer is short

“I'm lazy to see a lot of people. Mending me at home aj”

“Dasar ga asiakawan emang you Co”ejek Dedi

“Eh.I heard later Anti want to perform, Vivi must also come right?”daniel said, glancing at Dedi.

Hearing Vivi's name being called, made me suddenly excited to come along. I woke up from my place.

“I change clothes first if so”kataku

Dedi and Daniel laughed out loud to see me who suddenly wanted to go to the pension.

“Coco..Coco.baru denger Vivi's name was so excited..You are Co”goda Daniel to me

“Udah kesengsem really tu anak”ucap Dedi chimed

But I don't give a shit. I'm sure Vivi must have come too, because as I recall Anti did perform in retirement. I decided to join Dedi and Daniel in school.

Arriving at school, the atmosphere was already really crowded. A lot of people come and go. I looked in all directions, looking for Vivi's whereabouts but it was really hard to find her on the show.

Because Dedi and Daniel wanted to prepare before the performance, I was alone. I'm desperate not to find Vivi finally chose to go to building B, building class XII. I was daydreaming alone on the second floor stairs. Because I don't really like being in a crowd of people I don't know. I chose to be alone there.

I was shocked, while being engrossed in daydreaming, suddenly without me expecting I even met Vivi there. In my heart I am very happy to be alone with Vivi. I can guess he would want a photo in this B building, because usually this building is used as a photo spot by children at my school. I offered to take a picture too. I actually wanted to laugh but I held back. As I looked from the screen, Vivi's expression without a smile was like a dumbass. But she is beautiful. To me, she is still beautiful.

And after photographing her, replace the one who shot me. Honestly, I was confused about what kind of expression in the photo, because I rarely take photos. I finally decided to sit by the window. Though I did not smile at all, Vivi could praise me by saying I was like a photomodel.

After the photo session, I finally ventured to take her back to the field to see Dedi and Anti perform. He's the one I'm talking to. It seems he didn't expect me to take it. I wanted to feel like I pinched her cheek because she was always adorable with that dumb expression.

Since Dedi and Anti are still a long time, I invited Vivi to buy food and drinks. He bought me a lick and I bought thai tea. I just found out Vivi likes five-foot snacks like that. While waiting for the performance of Anti and Dedi, we enjoyed the food and drinks in our hands. Maybe it was because he and I rarely spoke, making the atmosphere awkward and stiff. I really wanted to ask him to talk. Several times I stole a glance towards Vivi, due to our very close standing position.

Quite a few times because the audience who watched the performance of a metal band that was performing, prancing to nudge other audiences. Because I was afraid that Vivi was nudged by the attractive audience, I had to shift Vivi's position to get closer to me and away from the crowd prancing around earlier. He was even engrossed in eating batagor in his hands without paying attention to the surrounding. Makes me shake my head at Vivi's insensitive behavior.

When Dedi performed, Vivi had a chance to invite me to chat.

“You didn't join Dedi's band? You're a pinter playing piano”

“Ga”

“Why?”ask again.

“Males”

Maybe because I just answered all I wanted, Vivi would no longer talk to me. Makes me feel sorry for my own actions.

I was made hot when Arsy met us before taekwondo. Arsy ate the lilok in Vivi's hand. Makes Vivi protest loudly. Then hit Arsy's arm. The interaction of the two managed to ignite the flames of jealousy within my heart. Makes me very angry. I could only look at the two with anger. Because I could not bear to see the intimacy of the two of them, I finally chose to go home.

“I first ya”pamitku on all

“You can't wait for Dedi to finish performing?”ask Vivi

“I still have affairs”

I finally got home first. I looked back at Vivi, who was still upset with Arsy and once again hit her arm. While Arsy just laughed just hit his arm by Vivi. It made me more upset and accelerated my pace. I felt very upset and angry seeing the interaction and familiarity of the two of them. Because I like Vivi, and I don't like it if Vivi touches another guy in front of my eyes.