Stuck With My First Love
Should Surrender?

Upon returning from my hometown, I became more silent. I often daydream. So sometimes it makes the head nurse and senior nurse at the hospital angry with me. When he met Aldi, he seemed to be able to read my change of attitude.

“Why you? Now more bengong. Think what?”ask Aldi

I didn't tell Aldi that I met Dedi and Daniel at Anti's wedding. But somehow, Aldi seems to have a sixth sense.

“Yesterday at wedding Anti what happened?” ask Aldi

“Ga is.common. Ilham continued to get angry because I misnamed Anti. She's now my sister-in-law, so I have to call “kak Anti”. But I'm not ordinary. Almost eight years I was the same Anti. Continuously suddenly I was told to call “kak Anti”. It feels weird to me”

“Who did you meet there? Temen Coco maybe?”ask Aldi

“You mean? Dedi with Daniel?”

“Iya”

“Ehmm.iya, I met them. But just jerk doang”, I replied

“You must be talking about Coco, right? How's he doing now? Will he return to Indonesia?”ask Aldi

Honestly, Aldi's face at that time was very different from usual. Because for five years of our closeness, I never talked about Coco. I am between sad, confused and scared. All feelings are mixed.

“She.he said he wanted to marry”I replied slowly

Aldi looked straight at me. It only makes me smile. Hiding my sadness at hearing the news. Aldi then grabbed my hand.

“What do you want Al?”I was confused when Aldi suddenly grabbed my hand. I kept trying to let go of Aldi's grasp.

“Until when will you wait for him? Look.now he's getting married. Do you still wish you could be with him? Why don't you let me make you happy?” ask Aldi

Aldi's words made my heart ache. My tears are getting more and more urgent. Aldi wiped my tears and looked at me softly.

“Don't hurt yourself like this Vi..You deserve to be happy..And I will definitely make you happy, as long as you give me a chance”

But am I really never going to be with Coco? Are we really not fools at all? Do I have to accept Aldi? And what about my heart? Can I start again to love Aldi?

I was really confused by my own feelings. My soul and body are not in rhythm. My mind says I have to move on from Coco and try to live with Aldi. But my little heart still loves Coco so much. He's the only man I've loved all along.

I know I've been very unfair to Aldi. He was the one who was with me for five years. Accompanying me. Be my shade when I am sad and agitated with all my troubles. He always comforts me. Makes me forget all my problems for a moment. He who sincerely loves me and loves me long ago. Since our High School.

Because I could not be sure of my own feelings, I finally asked Aldi to think about the continuation of our relationship.

I finally managed to complete my Ners profession program after two years. Aldi also successfully completed professional education and passed the certification or competency exam of professional education students (UKMPPD). Aldi finally internships or internships at dr.Soetomo Hospital Surabaya. How did he get in there? I don't know either. Chika and Lala speculate that Aldi's family must have something to do with Aldi's apprentice there.

After getting my Ners degree, I worked at the hospital for a while. But then I opted out of the hospital because I had received uncomfortable treatment from several senior nurses. All because I was considered to get special treatment from the obstetrician I was following. Many rumors and gossip say that I was the cause of the breakdown of Dr. Ramon's engagement. Though I am at all

don't know anything about Dr. Ramon's relationship. He is one of the favorite obstetricians at RS. Fancy young doctor, according to most 2nd floor nurses RS.

Why am I always considered a bully of other people's relationships? What's my fault if men approach me and are nice to me? Am I not the one who approached them, but the one who approached me? What's my fault if they like me? What's wrong if I'm good to them too?

I had not finished thinking with the thoughts of my seniors. Even “scandal” between me and doctor Ramon to the ears of the head nurse and even to the board of directors of RS. Although Aldi's uncle, one of the board of directors, tried to defend me, but because I felt the work environment was not conducive anymore, then I decided to resign from there.

Aldi actually forced me to move to Surabaya, and would help me to work at dr.Soetomo Hospital, but I refused. I'm an only child. I can't leave my parents behind. I know Aldi must be very disappointed with my decision, but this is my life, I will decide what kind of life I want to live.

I ended up applying at a clinic located in downtown Solo. The newly established clinic. I was also hesitant at first to sign up, but I finally convinced myself that success does not always have to start from RS. Who knows, in this clinic, I could be more useful.

After waiting for a week, I was finally accepted to work in a new clinic belonging to a beautiful young Chinese doctor named Doctor Caroline. The name is good, right? The guy is also very nice.

After being accepted there, I also invited Chika and Lala to register there. I thought it would be nice if the two of them could also work in the same place as me. Because they were my best friends all along.

Earnings while working in the clinic is certainly not as much as my income when in the hospital. I learned a lot in the clinic. Dealing with many patients. Interact with a variety of human characters. It made me learn a lot about life.

The time I have can also be more flexible. More loose. But all I enjoy. Chika and Lala sometimes complain, for what we have trouble learning the Ners profession program if it turns out we only work in a small clinic like now. But I always told them, all to be grateful for. Whatever it is, there must be a purpose for God to allow us to work there.

So we have to be grateful and learn to accept the reality. Because there must be a purpose behind every path of life that we go through. As I experienced.