Stuck With My First Love
Tortured The Same Taste

This third dress I think is the best among the two dresses that I have worn earlier. White dress with fluffy sleeveless and ballgown models. With details of small flowers decoration in some parts of the dress. The top is a tank top model with a large rope. The back though backless but not as low as the second dress earlier.

I also came out of the dressing room. When I came out of the locker room, I saw that there was only Coco there. I didn't see Dr. Caroline. I was looking for a doctor but the doctor seemed to be out or going to the toilet.

Seeing that I was clingingy, Coco came to me instead.

“You looking for Caroline?”

“Iya..doctor where? To the toilet huh?”my many. Because I thought he went to the toilet.

“Caroline should go meeting”

“APA?”

“Why is your voice like that?”

“Ah sorry.I'm just surprised”

How is this going to go? He said the doctor wanted to find a dress for his engagement.

I've been wearing a dress for the third time. The doctor went first. Now there I'm alone with his potential fiancee. With Coco-ku. Both with Coco made my heart beat. I'm confused about what to do. The atmosphere was really very awkward. We both feel awkward.

I finally decided to go back to the dressing room. Suddenly Coco held back my steps by holding onto my wrist.

“Where are you going?”

“I want to change clothes”

“Let me see this dress first. Caroline asked me to make sure of this dress before we go home”

I let go of Coco's handrails on my arm.

“Good. Just a minute”

To be honest, my heart rippled violently as Coco held onto my arm earlier. My heart is also beating uncontrollably. Because it's the first time he's touched me after our meeting last week. Since we met at her sister's house.

Actually I'm embarrassed. Shameful with the look of Coco's eyes that saw me wearing the dress that the doctor had chosen earlier. He asked me to turn around. I also according.

I saw him nod his head.

“Good. This is it”

Finally after three tries, Coco got what she wanted. The dress that her future fiance will wear. When I got back from the dressing room, I saw Coco had paid for the dress. The boutique salesperson who accompanied me, took the dress to the cashier and put the dress in a bag.

Coco walked towards me.

“Come.I'll take home”

“Ga try..I can ride go*ar kok”

“Why? Can't I take you home?”

“Not so”

“Just relax, Caroline asked me to drive you”

What exactly am I expecting? Do I wish he would drive me home? Conscious Vi..Your story is long over..No more my name in his heart..He's also soon to be engaged..Stupid me..

“Consider this as a thank you for helping us both”

“Baik”

I finally agreed to take Coco back to the boarding house. He opened the car door for me and protected my head from being hit. Then he walked towards the driver's steering door.

The unexpected happened while I was wearing my seatbelt. He who had entered the car, then put the bag containing the dress he bought earlier to the back. Into the middle of the car. I, who was busy wearing a seatbelt, was shocked to death as I raised my head. The position of his body that approached me because his left hand holding the bag actually made his head right in front of me. At that moment, unconsciously our eyes looked at each other very closely. I can see her pretty irises. The eyes I've always missed.

But then I quickly regained consciousness, and turned my gaze forward. Towards the street. I'm not strong if I have to look at Coco for a long time.

My heart? It felt like he wanted to take a look at the handsome face of Coco that was in front of my eyes.

Coco's already starting the car. We are both silent. Makes the atmosphere very awkward. All the way we were silent without a word I could say to the man I loved so much who was sitting right next to me. When I saw the scene in the car window beside me, I could see the shadow of Coco's face reflected there. Shown back in my memory, the good times when we were together. Memories are painful because they cannot be repeated. Even though Coco is back, we are no longer together. Although the taste I have for her remains neatly preserved in the recesses of my heart.

Unknowingly, my tears trickled when I remembered all the reality that was now plastered in front of me. The man next to me will soon be engaged and will marry the girl he likes. I slowly wiped these tears. I don't want Coco to see my fragility. It is my sorrow that must deliver itself from my heart.

I finally broke the silence. Because I'm also curious about the story of Coco and the doctor.

“Hemm”

Coco's thumping voice that I used to protest, I heard it again after a long time. Why does his voice sound sweet in my ears? Ahhe.. I'm crazy, apparently..

“You want to ask what?”he asked while glancing at me at a glance made my guts immediately shrill to ask Coco.

“Ga so..forget it”

“What's up? Just ask”

“Kalo you don't want to answer also ga papa”

“I'll answer”

“Ehmm.it..Have you and the doctor known you for a long time?”

Sassy! You sassy Vi! Why would I ask something that is none of my business? I immediately cursed my words just now. What exactly am I thinking?

I saw Coco expressionless, still focused on driving the car.

“Since in China"

Maybe the doctor is the girl who used to be betrothed to her mother.

"I should be thanking you. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have known Caroline. And we won't be able to get engaged”

His words were so piercing right in my heart. It feels very painful. His words of gratitude just sounded insinuating to me. I didn't even dare look at Coco.

If you knew Co. I still love you so much. Even now staring at you is painful for me.

“I heard you were also dating Aldi”he was cold

Hah..where does Coco know about Aldi?

“Where do you know?”

“What is it important now?”

“Of course not”I replied limp while lowering my head

I know our relationship is long over. Ever since I chose to leave him six years ago. I don't have to explain anything to Coco. So did he. Because now we're just two people who've had the same past. Ever loved each other. Long ago.

But still this feeling is so torturous. He's so close to me. But his heart was so far from my reach.

We both fell silent. We were immersed in each of our thoughts. I dare not speak to him. Maybe because of the quiet atmosphere, Coco finally chose to turn on the radio in the car.

I know radio in Solo really likes to play nostalgic songs. But somehow every time I was with him, the song that played on the radio, always hit my heart. Like that time. The song Too Love by Rossa sounded very heart-wrenching. Because the truth is, I really love Coco too much. In my first love.

Don't come near me or don't come to me again

I'm getting tortured for not having you

I try to make the day with your replacement

But my heart is always on your side again

Why did all this happen to me

God forgive this

Who can never get away from the idea of him

But what is this power

If I really love him too much

But my heart is always on your side again

Why did all this happen to me

And always, because of that song, I could only stare at the car window beside me. While rubbing the droplets of tears dripping on my cheek.