Stuck With My First Love
The Secret Behind Sketch Books

When we went up to XII class, I originally wanted to sit in front of Vivi, just like I used to in XI class. But because my brother was too late, I was partly sitting two rows to his right. I really want to be close to him.

Ever since we were close from grade XI to grade XII early, Vivi had never once played to my house. I never took her to my house. He played at my house for the first time because there was a biology group assignment.

I can't stop thinking about Vivi and Anti's way of thinking. Though we only work group but they insist to change clothes first before going to my house.

“Why don't you just leave anyway? Why change clothes first? I don't know the two of them (Vivi Anti)”lapku on Dedi and Daniel who invite me to wait in the cafeteria while Vivi and Anti change clothes first on the toilet.

Dedi and Daniel just shook their heads and patted me on the shoulder.

“Hei Bro, her name is also a girl.Pasti pingin looks beautiful continue”

“Try shadowin, from this morning until noon, wear uniform continuously. It must have been dry, the make up faded..gimana the hell are you Co? Same girl herself not very sensitive”ucap Daniel

Hearing Daniel's explanation made me understand a little. Because for me without the need to change clothes, Viviku is already very beautiful. The ten minutes that Vivi had promised to pass by were just like that, but the two of them had yet to show up. Makes me so impatient, I finally went to the princess toilet.

I stood in front of the door while crossing my arms in front of my chest. As soon as she opened the toilet door, Vivi looked very surprised to see me. I didn't care for him who was babbling in shock to see me who had been standing for a long time in front of the toilet door.

Out of annoyance, I finally left Vivi and the friends. I heard Vivi calling my name, but since I was upset, I walked straight to the parking lot. As soon as I got to my bike, I saw him who had changed his clothes with breathless steps walking towards me. I saw she was already very pretty with a little makeup on her face. As soon as I saw her red lips, it somehow made me want to feel those soft lips once again. And my daydreams ran out, as Vivi stared at me with a puzzled look.

“Why do you want me to like that?”ask Vivi

I could only smile seeing her confused face. We finally went to my house. Arriving home, I left Vivi alone in the living room, because I wanted to change clothes. Finished changing clothes, I saw Vivi was walking around observing the painting on display in the living room. Maybe because he was concentrating so he didn't hear me coming. And when I patted her on the shoulder from behind, Vivi jumped up in shock. It made me laugh to see her expression that was like fear.

I couldn't help but mess up her hair because she was so adorable in shock earlier. And as usual she protested every time I ruffled her hair. As soon as we arrived, we moved to the second floor. Because Dedi and Daniel want to change clothes. Finally we did our homework in the living room in front of my room.

I didn't realize, it turns out that the outfit I wear is the same as Vivi. I just picked up the shirt and jeans in my closet. Apparently Vivi also wears white clothes and jeans that are the same color as me. At school, I didn't really notice the clothes I was wearing. For to me, whatever clothes she wears, she is the most beautiful in my eyes.

While we were working on Biology group assignments, I noticed Vivi who looked at me several times. At first I pretended not to know, I just continued to do our group tasks as if focusing in front of the laptop. And I don't know what he's thinking, I see him shaking his head. I finally seduced him.

“See what?”

“Ehmm.ga.ga see nothing.I think of”.

I know very well Vivi's not good at lying. Because every time he lied, he would be stammered in answering. Finally I teased him again while bringing my body closer to see the results of his work.

I see he hasn't done much of our Biology work. I also looked towards him. This time our faces were very close. I could see his face right in front of me. My heart was beating so fast the moment I saw Vivi's beautiful eyes.

“Udah there.I'm not done yet.gangguin aja”.

He pushed my body away. Fortunately, I was still conscious. Otherwise, I might have kissed her tiny lips that were right in front of me.

Dedi and Daniel who saw us both giggled. Making Vivi scold them both. I motioned the eyes to both of them to be quiet.

Tired, we decided to work on the project the next day. Uti, the ART that has been in my family for a long time, approached the five of us. Uti is like a grandmother to me. He was always there for me when no one in my family was in this house. My Opa and Oma are out of town. So did my mom, dad and my sisters. Be me in a house this big.

Uti does know Vivi, because I was once caught Uti was looking at Vivi's face on my phone screen. Vivi who was shocked to see Uti who already knew her, looked at me full of question marks. And when Uti was back in the dining room, Vivi asked me.

“Heei Co..kok Uti can know me?”

I was confused as to what to answer Vivi's question. Fortunately, I remember, when we were on our final tour, the five of us (Me, Vivi, Anti, Dedi and Daniel) had a picture together.

“Ehhmmm.that's.because I have a photo of us five time study tour to Italy”ucap Coco.

“Oo.pantsan”

He who hears my answer seems to believe only in my answer. Dedi and Daniel who knew all the truth, looked at me while holding back his laughter. Suddenly, Daniel invites Vivi and Anti into my room.

At first I didn't care, because there was nothing in my room. But I was surprised when my sketchbook was still lying on the study table. Soon I snatched the book and hid it behind my body.

Vivi's facial expression suddenly changed, seeing me hiding this sketchbook. He also immediately took Anti out of my room. He seems to be very angry with me. Dedi and Daniel laughed and saw me almost get caught.

Because in the sketchbook, stored a secret that I have not dared to reveal. There's the face of the girl I've loved so much since I first got to high school. The sketch of Vivi's face I painted myself.

I know Vivi was very angry with me, because during the meal in the dining room, Vivi was just stirring her food. He also eats very little. He didn't even touch the meat rendang, which I deliberately asked Uti to make Vivi's favorite food.

On the way home, Vivi remained silent. Not as usual. I finally invited him to stop by a minimarket on the side of the road. I know he likes ice cream ma**um. That's why I wanted to buy him ice cream to ease his anger. And when I wanted to apologize for the sketchbook, he said he didn't want to talk about it anymore. I'm glad he's not angry anymore. And I promised myself that when the time came I would tell Vivi the truth behind the sketchbook. Someday.