Stuck With My First Love
Meet Anti

For years I have always been looking for him. Finding Vivi. But with the little information I have, I have a hard time finding it.

I majored in Architecture at one of the top universities in Shanghai. During college, I just went to college without ever playing with my college friends. Although I have many female friends, but I am not interested in relationships with other women at all. Because in my heart, there's only Vivi. I believe one day we will meet again.

When I was in college last semester, Mom once asked me to meet her best friend's daughter. The girl I was once betrothed to. Girls who are still in high school equivalent if in Indonesia. A girl who is still very childish is more suitable to be my sister. We met a few times. But I never noticed the girl. Because in my heart there is only one Vivi. Until I finally told the girl that I loved another girl.

"I hope this is our last meeting"

"Why Co? We have been in a relationship for a long time" said the girl

"I only met you because my mom kept forcing me to meet you. But I don't want you to expect more from me"

"Why indeed?"

"There's someone I love"

"Who?"

"My girlfriend in High School"

"You said you haven't seen each other in a long time. Are you sure she still remembers you?"

"I'm sure he still loves me and I'm sure I'll definitely meet him"

"You're too confident. He could be married now. You've been separated all along. She may have met another man and married him"

"Whatever you say. But I don't want to continue this relationship. Because I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with a kid like you"

"Why do you keep calling me a kid? I'll soon be a grown woman"

"Why are you so stubborn? I told you I love other girls. You better find another guy"

"I don't want to. Because I like you. And I'll get your heart"

A very stubborn girl. Makes me overwhelmed. Finally I firmly told my mother that I did not want to continue the relationship with the little boy. My mother finally followed my wishes.

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After graduation, I was accepted to work at a leading Architecture firm in Shanghai. I also still often go back and forth between Indonesia and China to find Vivi's whereabouts.

And finally the moment arrived. At Anti's wedding, I saw Vivi for the first time in five years. I'm so happy to see my Vivi. I see she's getting pretty and mature. She looks so graceful wearing a bridemaids dress accompanying Anti.

I just saw it from far away. I didn't get out of my car. I was afraid that if she saw me, she would run away and I would lose her again for the second time.

Kufoto he's from far away. I felt happy, seeing her smile and laughing with her friends. Even though I saw him change a little. He didn't seem as happy as he did back in High School. When we were together.

Dedi and Daniel were also present at Anti's wedding.

“You didn't sign in Co?”ask Dedi to me over the phone

“No. I'm here just”

“Vivi is here.You don't want to see him?” ask Dedi

“I don't think it's the right time”

“I'm asking for help, if you meet him, try asking him how he is. Where is he now” I told Dedi

“Alik” replied Dedi

“And if he asks me how I am, just answer that I am happy in China. Tell me too that I'm getting married. About what his reaction will be” I said

I saw in the distance that Dedi and Daniel were talking to him. Daniel also took the initiative to record their conversation, so I could hear his voice.

“How are you doing now Vi? Long time yes we did not meet” said Dedi

“Iya.ya..how many years has it been? four years? five years?” ask Daniel

“Five years”kata Vivi

“Wah..old also yes?”reply Daniel

“I'm fine”he said again

The three of them talked until they finally talked about me.

“How to.coco Newspaper?” ask Vivi

“Coco yes? I heard he was happy in China” said Dedi

“Iya.he is at home there” Daniel added

“Do you guys never exchange news? You were his girlfriend?” ask Dedi pretending not to know

“Oya, last I heard that Coco is getting married” said Dedi

“Iya.I also got the news” Daniel said

“You have no problem with that Vi?”ask Dedi

“Thank God he was happy there. Say hello to her, Vivi said

“I met Anti first ya”he said goodbye to Dedi and Daniel

“Can I ask for your phone number Vi?”ask Dedi

“Sorry yes, anytime we chat again”he said then leave Dedi and Daniel.

After Vivi left, Daniel called me.

“You heard, right?”ask Daniel

“You think how he reacted when he heard I was getting married”you were curious.

Because my place is far away from where they talk. So I didn't see clearly, neither did his facial expression

his reaction at that time.

“It looks like he was very surprised to hear the news” Daniel said

“Why don't you come here now?”ask Daniel

“No. I can't”

At last until Anti's wedding party was over, I didn't meet her at all. He walked next to my car. I wanted to open the door of my car, and I pulled him into the car. I wanted to hug him at that moment. But I didn't do that.

I chose to meet Anti.

"Anti" I said to Anti, who was just chatting with her family.

"Coco?"

The anti who had not expected my arrival looked very shocked. We talked both.

"Congratulations An. You are finally married to Ilham's sister"

"Thank you Co"

"An. I came all the way here because I wanted to ask for your help."

"My help?"

"Yes, I'm asking you to please give me information about Vivi. Where is he now?"

At first Anti refused to give me any information about Vivi's whereabouts.

“Sorry Co. I can't give you any information about Vivi” said Anti

“Please Anti. I've been looking for Vivi” for a long time

“Five years I've been looking for him. Imagine? A fiver? I looked for him everywhere like crazy”my words have been blurring my emotions all along

“You also lied to Dedi and Daniel during this”kataku

“But I promised Vivi.please understand Co”, said Anti

“We have been separated for too long by circumstances. I believe he must have suffered like me”I tried to convince Anti.

“Please Anti..I love Vivi” so much

“Let him decide later. At least let us meet my”

"So you know why Vivi moved out and left you five years ago?"anti Tanya

"Yes, I already know. My mom told me everything. Therefore, let me meet Vivi.I miss her a lot An.."

"Sorry Co.I can't.I promised Vivi I won't tell anyone where she is"

"Even me? I love Vivi so much, An.you must know that, we love each other"

Me and Anti had a long fight. Until finally Anti was also destroyed after seeing my seriousness in loving Vivi.

From Anti I know Vivi's address. He moved to Solo, his father's hometown. Anti didn't give me Vivi's new number. I can only give up.

I also went back to China. I'm getting excited this time.

Back and forth Indonesia China I went through. In the hope of meeting him soon. It's not as easy as I thought.

The address Anti gave was her parents' address. While Vivi chose to post during college. And her parents don't know her boarding address, because Vivi never told them. They are still in a Solo residency. Hence Vivi's parents also do not feel the need to know where her daughter costs.

I almost desperately searched Vivi's boarding house in Solo.

Until finally I read his CV – among the pile of applicants who applied to work at the new clinic founded Caroline, boyfriend and prospective wife Rafael my brother.

“Why Co? Smile after reading the CV of my prospective clinic nurse. Is there anything beautiful?”ask Caroline

I showed Vivi's CV to Caroline. He read the name that was written there.

“Viviane Mikaylafayza Princess. Ummm..Beautiful too? Your taste is good too. Uh wait.why am I as familiar with this name huh?”

I smile.

“She Viviku”ucapku while continuing to look at the CV in my hand.

“Really? So she's Vivi? Vivimu Co's? The girl you've been looking for?”

I nodded without letting go of my eyes on the CV.

“Finally.you met too. Congratulations Co. I'm happy for you” said Caroline makes me very happy, finally fate brought her closer to me.

“I'll call him now” Caroline said excitedly

“Are you going to meet him now?”

I doubt. If I appeared suddenly in front of him, would he recognize me? Will he accept me again? Or will he leave me?

“Why Silent Co?”caroline asked, who broke my daydream.

“I'm confused. Will he leave me again after meeting me?”

Caroline sat next to me and patted me on the shoulder.

“Then we find a way so that you can meet without him being able to dodge”

I don't know what Caroline had in mind when she said it all. But I agree with him. I can't be rash and have to make a careful plan so that we can meet more naturally. Without him being able to escape.