Stuck With My First Love
Disillusioned

As in previous years, this year EPSP was also implemented. Me and my ex-senior PMR friends agreed to attend the EPSP and stay overnight there.

I was happy to be on the show, with Vivi who is now my girlfriend. Along the way we talked and laughed together. Since we had planned to stay, Vivi and I brought the equipment to stay. Like blankets and change of clothes.

During the retirement event, Vivi and I who were the defending champions of the prince and princess contest, even became MC months. They fucked us all out. The last one they asked me and Vivi to sing along. I sang Ed Sheeran's song Thinking Out Loud.

After singing the song, I noticed Aldi sitting in front of the two of us, with his sharp gaze constantly staring at Vivi. I also saw Vivi from earlier seeing Aldi. I admit I don't like it if Vivi keeps staring at Aldi.

I caught Vivi's strange girly saying goodbye to me going to the toilet along with Aldi getting out of her place. Because I was afraid that Vivi would meet Aldi or Aldi who met Vivi, I finally decided to follow Vivi. I followed him from behind without his knowledge.

And as I thought, Vivi did want to see Aldi. I'm really mad at Vivi because she lied to me. Out of curiosity about what Vivi wanted to say to Aldi, I also appeared to myself. I appeared beside Vivi. Vivi who saw me next to her looked very shocked. Until both of her beautiful eyeballs turned perfectly.

Because Vivi didn't talk, I finally represented her to talk to Aldi. I told Aldi that we were made. I saw disappointment on Aldi's face. I also asked Aldi to keep the promise he had said before when he met me at the hotel during the Math Olympics.

I salute Aldi who will keep his promise and congratulate us. When Aldi was about to shake Vivi's hand, I immediately took Vivi's hand. Because I don't like Vivi being touched by another man.

Finally I took Vivi away from Aldi and took her to the car. I just kept quiet and waited outside the car. I was still very angry at Vivi who had lied to me. I would hate it if Vivi lied to me.

Vivi who felt guilty towards me cried. Making the anger in my heart wear off instantly heard him cry out sorrowfully. I sat in front of him while he was crying while lowering his face.

I wiped the tears on her cheek. I forgive him too. Because I know Vivi just doesn't want me to be mad. That's why he lied to me. I told him not to lie to me anymore because I didn't like it.

At midnight, as I was sleepy, I drove Vivi to the car to sleep. He who was exhausted instantly fell asleep soundly. I went back to the field with my friends because this is the moment

last we could be together, so we used the time as best we could. We sang until 03:00 in the morning. I decided to go back to the car to sleep for a while.

Seeing him fall asleep made me sleep too. It just so happened that the night wind was quite cold so I added my blanket on her body so that she would feel warm. I woke up when I felt something touching my cheek. But I closed my eyes intentionally. The second time something touched my lips, I bit it. Apparently it was Vivi's index finger that she purposely pointed to my lips.

As I was still sleepy, I closed my eyes. I took his hand and made him a pillow. He even stroked my arm. I got up and stretched my body. I saw Vivi looking at me warmly. And when he cupped my face with both hands, I spontaneously pursed my lips and told him,

“Morning kiss”

It was always Vivi's drunken behavior because my temptation made me anxious because she looked so cute and adorable. I laughed out loud seeing my boyfriend misbehaving.

That morning, my friends and I went to a river where the water was clear. Arman's base of heretical guide, he even made us all stray. Especially if it is very far away. Along the way I kept holding Vivi's hand. Arriving at the river, I asked Dedi to take a picture of me with Vivi. Because our pose is like a prewedding photo, making friends instead discuss the issue of marriage. They thought we were going to get married first rather than the other friends. Makes me very happy because many people pray for us. Because I always imagined myself marrying Vivi, the girl I love so much. My cleavage. Half my life.

One day, my mom caught me and she was making out at home. From the look in her eyes I know that mom doesn't like to see Vivi. Especially after hearing me say Vivi is my boyfriend.

Mama is a very tough, strict, authoritarian woman. Even though the youngest child is always spoiled by parents, the fact is I never felt my mother loved me. He is always busy taking care of his business, social media and events with his friends.

Since childhood I have been used to it myself. Only Uti, the only person who loves me. Since my first brother was married, and my second brother was in college, my mom and dad were never home either, I always felt alone. It was only after getting to know Vivi that I felt that there was someone else who could accept me.

One day, while she was at home, she touched on the issue of moving to China.

“Co, later after graduation, we move to China.you don't have to bring much stuff. Just as necessary.”mama said suddenly

“Why ma? I feel comfortable here (Indonesia)”

“You went to college there..Rafael has also been there” said mom

“Do not have to move, right ma?”

“Why are you? Didn't you say that we will move to China once you graduate High School. Already do not argue” said mama annoyed

“Mama left.I want to stay here”kataku while leaving mama

“Where are you going? Sitting here.mama new talk” snapped mama while glaring, her face very angry

I sat back down upset.

“Mama and papa have chosen a girl as your soul mate. You will definitely like the choice of mama” said mama made my anger explode

“What does mom mean? I already have a girlfriend ma.. I love Vivi” I said I made mama smile cynically

“Love? Don't be silly of you..The girl is not at all worthy of being part of our family” said mama demeaning Vivi

“Besides her beautiful face.let alone her advantages? There's no, right?” my mother said it was getting my emotions

“Mama don't just talk.the girl is very good. I feel happy with her” I said

“I'm sure the girl of mama's choice must be very rich.why not just mama who married her parents” said I made mama offended.

“Jaga talksyou”yelling mommy full of anger

“Mama also do not carelessly manage my life. I'm not moving to China. Point.”kataku then leave mom alone

I don't mind my mom screaming my name. I closed the door and locked it tight.

I'm actually fed up with this family. With mama. All the things he values with matter. Papa is too busy working. He was never there for me until I felt I had no parents.

Because of their attitude, since childhood I have not had many friends. My friends turned away from me and made fun of me. Dedi and Daniel are the only friends I want to play with.