Stuck With My First Love
Jealousy (1)

At the beginning of our closeness, what I feel is that I am happy if I am near it. He was very warm to me too. When he's close to another girl, I don't like it. And when another guy is close to me he doesn't seem to like it either.

It was often my experience, when he was with Tiwi. Honestly, I don't like it, seeing their closeness. My heart feels irritated every Tiwi teases him. Every time they talked together, I would choose to avoid. I chose to do something else, rather than join their chatter.

Once upon a time, it happened during the PMR exploration. We are in the same post, post 1. In that post there were 5 people including me and Coco. On the sidelines waiting for exploration participants, we both joked together. Suddenly Tiwi who should be in post 2, namely the river post, came.

“Co, you help pos 2 dong.you can swim. Cook the post 2 girls all and no one can swim ?” whinek Tiwi

At once I turned around, as if not listening to Tiwi. I tried to tidy up the bidai and mitela lying on the ground. I honestly don't like Tiwi very much. Maybe because I was jealous, there was another girl who was familiar with him. Although his attitude is not as sweet as when with me, but he is also never indifferent to Tiwi. And that makes me even more jealous.

At first he did not want to, but Tiwi continued to whine until he finally agreed to move post as well.

“Come on Co..help us..mau yes? yes?” rengek Tiwi with his powerful voice.

In my heart I was very angry, but I did not show it. I chose to stay away from their conversation. Until finally, he sat down crouching in front of me.

“I moved post 2 huh? You here is okay ?” coco said softly to me

I still don't pay attention. I'm still busy arranging the existing bidai-bidai.

With the smile I forced, I replied

“Kalo I said “jangan”, you want to stay here?” my god is to him

“Ya I'm here” her reply firmly moved me

I pat her shoulder.

“Hahaha..I'm kidding.You moved. The other in post 2 pity, no one can swim” replied I tried wisely, hiding my true feelings. Although in my little heart, I want to say “You are here aj”.

“But later if all the participants have finished from post 1, and I followed to post 2, you sent me to other posts huh?” doorstep

“Ok” answers firmly

“I go first huh?”pavens

I'm nodding my head.

Finally he and Tiwi left post 1 towards post 2.

Being angry is also useless, because I asked him to leave. If I could be more assertive, “don't go”. Maybe he'll keep it in post 1 with me. But yeah, that's it.

One by one group of trainees explored the test in post 1. Almost 1 hour. As soon as the latter group finished the test, me and the friends in post 1 followed the last group towards post 2 which was the river post. I didn't go down the river, but I took a road which was a shortcut to post 2.

Arriving at post 2, I was shocked. Apparently there's a lot of people there. Friends of the visiting Scouts looked at our PMR event, gathered at post 2. They even play in the river. Including him there too. Water splashed on Tiwi and her friends. They look good playing with water.

Ana, who was with me, shouted at them.

“Woiii work.do not water toys only.”yelling Ana.

At once Coco's eyes were on me. We looked at each other too. Like he didn't think I'd get there.

“Ashik really ya who play air” I said to Tiwi and friends

“Ana, I went on to post 3 first huh?” I said to Ana

“What do you want to come here?”

“I'm here, I think more fun”

“Then I first ya?”I said to Ana

“Guys, I first yes.. don't stay in the water later in the wind you know?”I yelled at everyone and then I walked to post 3.

I chose not to stay there. Because I don't like what I just saw. He was joking with Tiwi and her friends. They splash water on each other. They look so happy and it makes me so jealous. Like there were thorns piercing my heart when I saw them like that. It hurts. I better leave them soon. I also rushed away from Post 2.

About 100 meters from post 2, suddenly my backpack was pulled from behind making my steps pause for a moment.  When I look back, I,

“Says ask for cementin, why go first?“ coco asked with a smile.

We walked to Post 3. Honestly, I'm glad he didn't forget his promise to me.

“Kirain forgot?”godaku

“Ga lah”tapnya without seeing me.

The road to Post 3 is very far away. The road is uphill. I who had been walking from post 1 started to get tired. He tried to help me by carrying my heavy-looking backpack. Even if it is just a snack and a drink.

“Pos three away too yes apparently”ucapku

“Capek? Want me to carry?”noda Coco while sitting crouching in front of me. I hit his back immediately.

“Iiihh..what the hell is Co? hahaha.”

Want to put where my face if I want to be carried Coco, can-can fainting temen see I carried Coco, hahahaha..

He also laughed at seeing me who might have seemed misbehaved. He stood up and laughed with me

“Here is your bag I brought you”Pinta Coco while pulling my backpack and carrying it.

“Hei.ga pas.ga kok”paku weight

“That's papa”

“Maacihhh”ucapku while smiling with a spoiled voice that I deliberately made up.

He even ruffled my hair.

Arriving at a slippery climb, I also had difficulty walking. Although there is a rope on the left side of the ramp, but because the road is muddy exposed to rain yesterday, the road becomes muddy and very slippery. Overwhelmed me.

He finally offered his hand to pull me. I also held on to her wrist. Slowly we walked down that hill. He led my way very carefully.

And finally, we're at post 3. The bamboo garden area.

Post 3 is the post where my best friend Anti is, along with several other senior PMR class XI. Seeing the two of us holding on, some people in post 3 cheered us on.

“Cieee..cieee”happy fellow senior PMR friends who saw us

I was embarrassed too. I hurriedly let go of my grip on his hand.

“What the hell are you guys?” ask me while being embarrassed

“The path is slippery tau..”My reason

He just smiled when he heard our friends cheering us on.

We immediately headed to the mat in post 3 and unwinded. I offered him a drink. He also drank his drink so greedily. Because indeed the terrain towards post 3 is very far and uphill.

He sat next to me. Sometimes leaning her body at me. All eyes that look as if they are ignored. That's how she is. While I was talking to Anti. Dedi was also in post 3 and had a conversation with him.

Suddenly the exploration documentation team came with a camera to photograph the activity. Without command, Bima from the documentation team pointed the camera lens at the four of us who were conversing.

Being aware of the camera, we also posed in front of the camera. As usual I raised my right finger to form the letter “V”. As commanded, it turned out that he also raised his left finger to form the same mark as me.

With a smile on the lips of the four of us, Bima looks happy with the “view” he saw. Several times he gave instructions to direct a change of style.

“free style yes!!!” shouted Bima

“1..2..3..”

“1...2…3…”

We posed in different styles.

Once, while still being photographed, as I was resting my left hand on the ground, propping my exhausted body, it turned out that his right hand was also right on top of mine. I could look at him. And he just smiled. While directing his eyes, gesturing “have seen ahead aja”, I can only smile wryly, while frowning. He was intentionally. You!!!!