Not the Perfect Wife
30. Flavored
On the way, Yasna shed her tears. The further away from Emran's house, the more her tears became. He decided to go to the lake, there was no way he would go to school in this situation.
This lake is a place that Yasna visited when his heart was hurt, now it seems that history is back, the difference was that he had a legitimate relationship with Zahran and now he has no relationship with Emran. But still it feels really painful.
Yasna sent a message to Nadin, if today he was absent first by reasoning his leg back hurt. He shed his tears in this place, eager to contact Fazilah. However, Fazilah must be working, he does not want to interfere with his work.
While Emran drives Afrin to school, in the parking lot he does not see Yasna's motorbike, he decides to look for her.
"Nad, is Yasna here yet?" ask Emran.
"He's still a permit today" replied Nadin.
"So he left this morning!" callah Emran.
"So early this morning he said he wanted to come, but half an hour ago he sent a message, he said suddenly his leg hurt, so he couldn't come" Nadin said.
"Thank you, I'll go back first. Assalamualaikum," pamit Emran.
"Waalaikumsalam" said Nadin. "Are they having problems?"
Emran returned to his car. Several times he contacted Yasna, but there was no answer. In fact he wanted to see Yasna. However, he had a meeting this morning. He decided to meet Yasna later in the day.
While at the lake, Yasna thinks what should she tell her mother later? His mother was so hopeful that his relationship with Emran could reach a guarantee. Not wanting to be sad for too long, he decided to go home. His mother must have gone to the store so he didn't have to lie.
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"Assalamualaik."
"Waalaikumsalam" Yasna said after opening the door. "Outside, Mas. There's no one in the house."
Emran sits on the patio chair, while Yasna takes a drink for her guests.
"Please, Mom." Yasna put a glass of tea on the table.
"Thank you" Emran said.
"Mas, not to the office?" ask Yasna.
"A lunch break. I should have asked, didn't you say you were going to teach this morning? But why aren't you present?" ask Emran.
"Suddenly my legs ached, so I decided to go home" Yasna replied lying.
"I'm disappointed to hear your answer" said Emran lethargic.
"Why, Mas?" ask Yasna.
"I wish you'd said you were jealous of Tisya, but you weren't. I thought, Do you have the same taste as me? I'm so jealous when people talk about your past, when you're not with him. While you who see me with Tisya look ordinary," said Emran.
"If Mas is in doubt, then don't continue this relationship" Yasna said without looking at Emran.
"So you really don't have feelings for me?" ask Emran.
"We didn't do anything? I've asked him to come out, but Tisya is a very stubborn person, he won't leave if his wish has not been fulfilled" Emran said.
"Then you just let it go? You're not a kid who can't do anything, are you? I'm sorry if my words are harsh, if you can't be firm with that woman, then how are you going to be my priest later? I need a man who is firm and has a strong stand, what if when we are married the woman wants you to accompany her, you must have followed her on the grounds that she was a stubborn person or perhaps a sense of humanity," Yasna let out all her frustration at Emran.
"I'm sorry, but really, I never intended to do anything with her let alone hurt you" Emran said.
"Mas, maybe we should rethink the plan-of-the-plan
"No. I know, I made a mistake, but I don't want to lose you. I'm just upset about what happened today, I don't mean doubt you, I just want to see you jealous and angry" Emran said.
"I don't have the right to be angry, we don't-
"Who said? You deserve to be angry, if you can't be angry, at least say what you feel, so we both know and don't hurt each other, that's our commitment, right!" exclaim Emran.
Yasna was silent, she did not know what to do now, one side she did not want to get hurt again, on the other hand, he has fallen in love with Emran and more importantly, he has been very affectionate with Afrin and Aydin, although Aydin has not received it. But Yasna loved him.
"Look, we should not meet first, so that we know how much we want to have each other and miss each other if we really feel it, we have to fight each other, we have to fight each other, but if there is not the slightest sense of longing, maybe we are not destined to be together" said Emran.
Yasna was sad to hear what Emran said, she did not want to get hurt, but she also did not want to lose Emran. It seems greedy this time.
"It's better that way." Finally that sentence came out of Yasna's mouth.
Though Yasna really wanted to say if he did not want to part with the man who was beside him. However, his tongue felt too faint to say it.
Emran is disappointed to hear Yasna's answer. He could not impose his will on others, much less about feelings.
"I have to go back to the office, it's time for me to come back" Emran said.
"Mas hasn't had lunch yet, it's best to eat first" Yasna said.
"No need, the longer I stay, the more I don't want to part. I'll go first, assalamualaikum." Emran leaves without waiting for Yasna's word.
"Waalaikumsalam," muttered Yasna.
Why is Yasna feeling guilty? Shouldn't he be angry at this time? why is Emran angry with her? It's not Yasna's intention to play with a relationship, she just doesn't want to get hurt, that's all.
In the afternoon Yasna decided to go to the house of Fazilah, he wanted to tell a story with his best friend.
"Na, I don't mean to blame you, but try to get rid of the fear you feel. We never know what's going to happen, maybe you'll go back to feeling heartache, isn't that human? happy and sad everyone must feel it if all you want is pleasure, then who will feel sad?" fazilah said after hearing Yasna's story.
Yasna digested what Fazilah said and it is true, every human must feel it including himself.
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