Not the Perfect Wife
69. I can't
Fazilah and Hafidz had reached the top of the hill, Hafidz was treating the wound on Fazilah's face, he was also compressing it with ice cubes. While the man was busy treating the former's face, the woman secretly noticed Hafidz's face, with their distance very close, making Fazilah unable to breathe.
The old face is now different from the current one. As Hafidz once said, that he had plastic surgery, but for what reason, until this moment Fazilah did not know.
"Don't look at me like that, you'll fall in love" said Hafidz, making Fazilah wrong.
"What the hell, who saw you" said Fazilah.
Hafidz smiled looking at the misbehaved Fazilah, it made the woman even more adorable in her eyes.
"Why the hell, do you have to play around like that? It's dangerous."
"What danger? Not really, I know what's dangerous and what's not."
"Why did you do something like that? You're bored, so make trouble?"
"I'm upset to know, your people keep following me."
"Where do you know they're my people?"
"That's why they've always been following me, trying to help me, when there are others who need me more."
"I did it because I didn't want to happen to you."
Suddenly the atmosphere was quiet, the two of them looked forward to the view of the city during the day.
"I'm sorry" said Fazilah.
"I'm sorry for what?"
"I'm sorry to accuse you of being a no-no first, Nuri has told you everything about what happened to you especially to you."
"You met Nuri?"
"Yes, she's Hisham's sister-in-law."
"The man who will be your husband?" Fazilah nodded in confirming.
"I met him yesterday."
"I'm also sorry, because I can't tell you the same story, I promised Nuri I wouldn't tell anyone about it and I don't want to burden you with my family's problems either."
"Why the hell, you've always been bod*h, I won't feel burdened about your problems, we're used to sharing first."
"Fa, can't we get back together? I always dreamed of building a house with you."
"Honestly, I still love you a lot, but I can't just cancel this wedding. There's a responsibility I still have to do, I can't possibly humiliate my mother in front of the Hisham family. Even though I never loved her, I'm sure someday it'll grow on its own."
"Then what about our feelings?"
"You're a good man, you can definitely find a much better woman than I am."
"If I could, it would have happened a long time ago, I look forward to today, Fa. I don't want to lose you, whatever I do to get you."
"We can't be together anymore, I can't possibly hurt and humiliate you by canceling this marriage. Their families are also good people, I'm not a bad person who can hurt them."
"Then what about me? Don't I mean anything to you?"
"It's not like that, it's just that I think it might be a sign from God, if we are not a match. We used to be separated because of dishonesty and now we are also separated by circumstances. I'm afraid if it's too pushy then we'll hurt each other one day .. sorry."
Hafidz no longer said, he only looked at Fazilah who was looking at the scene in front of him. His heart was so wounded, because the woman he loved did not want to defend their love, but he could not blame Fazilah, he also contributed to their problems.
'I'll try, Fa. If I had just given up, not anymore, I would have tried to get you before the word was said, ' Inner Hafidz
"I want to ask you something" said Fazilah.
"Just ask."
"What made you have to have surgery first?"
Hafidz stared intently at Fazilah, wondering why this woman suddenly asked that?
"If you don't want to answer, don't pay."
"My house used to have a fire, almost my whole body was burned, so I had to undergo surgery, Nuri was also the one who financed everything at that time."
"How's dad?"
"Dad was dead after the surgery, and then complications occurred" he died."
"Nuri helped you so much back then, why didn't you love her?"
"Because the heart could not be forced, I felt more and more indebted to him and I decided to do anything for him except love. But, when I recovered, she had already moved overseas, her parents gave a letter from Nuri to me, she said, which contains an apology for everything that happened to me during this time and he also asked for treatment given to me not as a debt, not as a debt, because he took it as a form of apology for what he did to me."
"Aren't you asking, where did Nuri go?"
"I've asked her parents where Nuri moved to, but they don't want to answer, I'm sure it must be Nuri's own desire."
"I'm sorry, I should have been by your side at the time, but instead I left you, when you were in trouble."
"Don't think too much about it, it's all gone."
*****
At midnight Yasna could not sleep, so he woke Emran.
"Mas, get up" said Yasna, shaking Emran's body.
"What's up, honey?" emran asked with rubbing his eyes, he was still very sleepy because he was too tired earlier on the beach.
"I can't sleep, Mom."
Yasna's habits have not changed, he often wakes up in the middle of the night, if he thinks of something.
"What's wrong? You think of something?" ask Emran.
"All of a sudden I can't sleep."
"Keep what?"
"Just tell me, I'm the one who's horrified."
"What story?"
"Any story, such as Mas's activities in the office is also not pa-pa."
Emran began to tell about his activities in the office, also about the people around him. Just a few minutes later, Emran said, someone knocked on their bedroom door.
"Sister!" call someone from outside the room.
"It looks like Celina, Mas."
"Looks like that, I'll open it first."
Emran opened the door and it was true that there was Celina who was panicking.
"What's up, cell?"
"Sister, Revan has a fever, how is this?
"Aren't you taking fever-lowering drugs for your kids?"
"I didn't bring it."
"Attent." Emran called Yasna. "Darling, the heat-lowering drug has afrin does it still exist?"
"Who's sick, Mom?"
"Revan."
"If it's for Revan, I'm afraid it doesn't fit, Mas. Revan's still a year, while Afrin's four. Mending just take him to the hospital" Yasna suggested.
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