The Desired Angel of Heaven
Chapter 231 S2 (Wounded But Bloodless)

Khaira is left oblivious to the fact that Ivan has abandoned her for a child she had in the past. He can't do anything. The test this time left him completely devastated.

He pressed his chest that was painful. Sad feeling runs to the heart. He felt disappointed at Ivan's cruel accusations against him. His affection for Bryan was strong, but Ivan doubted it. Khaira is convinced that Claudia is pushing Bryan's wheelchair, as there is no one else between them.

The recollection of Cladia's words telling her a big secret that Ivan never revealed to her made Khaira feel slumped into the deepest hole. After three years of marriage between him and Ivan, he learns that there is a secret that Ivan is hiding from him.

“Yes, Allah strengthen Your servant through this ordeal,” Khaira patted his chest repeatedly. He tried to forget the words of Claudia that really made him fall for the umpteenth time. How not, Claudia brought a recording of the conversation that occurred between him and Sandra about the death of Abbas.

“You will never be happy with Alex,” that's what Claudia said after Ivan left for the office.

Khaira casually smiled back at Claudia. He was still busy watering the roses that began to bloom in the side garden.

“There is one secret that Alex hid in your marriage,” seeing a relaxed Khaira makes Claudia more intense, “Alex never love you.”

“You can see for yourself the treatment of Ivan mas against me,” replied Khaira casually.

“You don't know, Alex is the cause of death of your future husband,” Claudia said instantly.

With a deep feeling of hurt, Khaira rose from her slump. He immediately washed his face with water and took ablution, coinciding with Magrib's chastisement.  He was stuck on the prayer mat, realizing that there was no Ivan who always prayed when he was at home.

Khaira's tears are back in free fall. He never thought that Ivan was also the cause of Abbas' departure. A really bitter reality. It felt like the sky was falling on the head knowing the truth.

He realized that everything he experienced was by God's permission, and that it was only to God that he complained about all the pain he was experiencing. But knowing the tragic events that befell Abbas made him unable to remove the tears that returned inundated.

A faint noise rang out all the way to his room. Khaira was still reluctant to rise from his seat after performing the Isha prayer. He felt comfortable complaining all the problems he faced to the Owner of his soul.

He did not ask Ivan to return to him, he only asked to be strengthened in the trials that now afflict him. She knew, no matter how hard she tried to hold her husband, but if what she wanted to maintain was no sense, of course it would all end in vain. What's more, hearing Claudia's story makes her feelings more uncertain.

The knock on the door of the room makes Khaira end his khalwat with the owner of the power. With red eyes he went down. He was surprised to see his four brothers and his brother-in-law Valdo already sitting with tense faces in the living room.

“This is what I'm worried about. The woman was a poisonous snake,” Hasya immediately said emotionally.

“Just because you can't give Ivan a child, doesn't mean Ivan left you,” Ali made his point.

“Did Ivan say he would divorce you to marry Claudia who had given him a child?” fatih's question got Khaira stuck.

He doesn't know what to say. But from Ivan's speech last afternoon, he was sure to wait for Ivan time to realize Fatih's question just now.

“Are you willing to do everything they did to you?” Hasya looked at him with a raging feeling. He could not bear to see the sadness on his sister's face.

“I resigned mbak. Ivan probably wanted a child. And our soul mate only got here,” Khaira is still trying to defend her husband, “There was a child who tied them both up …. “

He knew the fault was not entirely with Ivan. Khaira is self-conscious, she is not a perfect woman. It was not his desire to have no children, but the fact that Ivan did have a son from his past relationship.

“Where is the promise first?” Hasya is still emotional, “He will not demand a child from you, and will take care of you unless death separates.”

Hearing Hasya's words made Khaira could no longer hold back her tears. He was sad again, realizing that Ivan was no longer by his side with a big secret that he could not possibly tell his brother. The disaster he faced now was like a fall, hit by a ladder again.

Seeing his twin who was so hit, Fatih immediately hugged Khaira trying to give strength to the twin.

“Already,” Ariq tried to remind Hasya to control her emotions.

He looked at Khaira who was still sobbing in Fatih's arms. Not feeling his tears dripping saw the unfortunate fate that befell their little sister for the umpteenth time.

“What do you want to do now? You know, you are a strong woman. We will always strengthen each other. Never feel alone. Your sorrow and your sorrow are our sorrow and suffering as well,” Ariq patted Khaira's shoulder trying to strengthen.

“We will always support whatever you want,” Ali also said slowly, “If you want to catch Junior to Japan, we will facilitate it. All for your good. You can start education or just refreshing to forget all the bad events that have happened.”

“Don't waste your tears on an irresponsible man like Ivan. Your future is long. You are still young.” Ariq said quietly as soon as Khaira started to calmly sit beside him.

Seeing all the brothers who were by his side made Khaira overwhelmed. This is not the first time he has experienced the test of life. And he felt grateful that all his brothers never let him fall down on his own.

“From the beginning when the woman came to your house I was worried,” Hasya said quietly.

Khaira fell silent, as did his other brother. He still remembers when four months ago Ivan brought Bryan to live together for reasons of Bryan's ill health. Ivan has also facilitated Claudia by giving her all the luxuries on the grounds that she was the one who had given birth to Bryan.

Ali nodded confirming Hasya's words, “There have been many such incidents,” he said.

“I trust Ivan's love for you. But the strong desire to have children and the coincidence that he has had children in the past made Ivan obsessed,” Ariq said slowly, saying, “He wants to have someone who will inherit all the treasures he has.”

“Actually they can program baby tubes,” Valdo interrupts the conversation of his wife and in-law.

“Mas tau, if ade estimated difficult to have children?” Hasya stared at Valdo instantly, “Dr. Riska has told me that.”

“When?” now all eyes looked at Hasya with a curious look because they had just heard it this time.

“Three weeks ago we both participated in a seminar on Maternal and Child Health at the Sartika hotel. That was when dr. Riska recounts the state of ade.”

Khaira gulped bitterly. He knew this when Ivan promised to remain faithful to him even without offspring that would strengthen their marriage.

“What do you want now?” Hasya stared fixedly at Khaira.

Khaira shook her head weakly. He has not been able to decide now, everything is fast paced and out of his control.

“If you are sure and sincerely live your destiny to part with Ivan. We will take care of everything quickly,” Ali said later.

“What did he tell you before his departure?” Ariq became curious because he did not know the chronology of the incident between Ivan and his brother.

“Mas Ivan gave up this house, and probably won't be back in a long time... “ The shadow of Ivan's face when he said it made Khaira's heart re-scratched.

“Do you want to stay here?” Fatih asked quickly.

Khaira. There are so many memories in this house. It's all about the sweet and beautiful.

“I'll take care of all my clothes. Starting tomorrow I want to return home oma,” finally Khaira made the biggest decision of her life.

He did not want to look back, enough for him to be part of this house in three years' time. He decided he would never return to this house, a house that had given him pleasure, happiness and even the same pain that made him fall back in grief.

They talked until it did not feel the night getting late until the wall clock ticked 10 times. Hasya yawned many times resisting drowsiness. Looking at his brother's worried faces made a faint smile rise on Khaira's face. He was truly thankful that God gave him a very understanding brother and was always by his side when he felt down on his own.

Seeing the smile that started to rise on Khaira's face, made her brother feel a little relieved. Although they realize it is not that easy, Khaira forgets the sadness of the separation with the man who has filled her whole heart.

Upon returning to the room, Khaira's heart felt empty. No more warmth and affection will be created in this room. It's all over starting today.

Khaira unloads the cupboard containing the wedding documents she had with Ivan. He took his wedding book and Ivan's. With a feeling of sadness he began to take out a small bag to place the marriage book he had taken out. There was not much Khaira had brought, for all that was in this house was Ivan's gift.

Khaira begins to take off her wedding ring and Ivan's necklace. He did not want to take her, because it only made him sad again considering the failure of the household he lived with Ivan.

All the jewelry he put into a box that is still stored intact in the closet that is on the walk-in closet, the mobile phone Ivan gave him was united there. There was no desire for Khaira to take him. Let all be buried in this house along with his love that has grown fruitful to the husband.

Early in the morning Khaira met Bi Risma to convey her wish that would soon leave the house.

“What does the mistress not wait for the master?” although Khaira did not tell the story but, bi Risma could see all the actions of Ivan while talking to Khaira in the dining room.

He deeply regretted Ivan's rash attitude which decided everything was in an emotional state. But he can what? He is just a household assistant who is paid to take care of the household which of course his advice and opinions will not be heard by the owner of the house.

“I'm sorry bi, if while in this house makes bi Risma and other friends feel uncomfortable,” Khaira said softly.

He already felt close to the senior assistant in their home. But reality says otherwise, the closeness that exists cannot last long. He must finish everything.

Bi Risma shed tears as Khaira hugged her tightly, trying to throw away the sudden sadness present.

“They are innocent, all this a test of life. Madam must be strong,” bi Risma said bitterly.

He is very fond of his young mistress who is kind and light hands always help them if they are stricken with disaster, and always give excessive bonuses during holidays.

“We will always miss the mistress …. “

Khaira tried to wipe away the uncontrollably falling tears as she began to set foot leaving the house full of memories of the intimacy that occurred between her and Ivan.