The Struggle of a Child
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The water that used to be my playmate now scares me. As soon as I saw him I ran as far away as possible. If I can, I don't have anything to do with water at the moment. The water is now such a frightening specter to me that I have to keep my distance when I look at it from afar. My fear was so deep as if the water wanted to finish me off that I was so traumatized to see it.
Our next mother who was washing was so astonished to see me suddenly dodging, like a frightened person.
"Liyan, why are you avoiding?" asked my mother with curious eyes.
"Sister! That woman is so scary. Let's see his eyes!" My sister whispered near me. He who had seemed enthusiastic about wanting to take a bath, suddenly paused his intention.
"Why run here?" ask me to investigate.
"He's still washing, brother." My sister moved closer to me and made me want to fall.
"Gtfff !" I smiled, closing my mouth with my hands. My sister's behavior today is so heart-pounding. Whynot? He who had looked confident and refused to want me to be with but turned out he was shrinking instead.
"But, you said, you dare to bathe yourself," I saw my pursed sister, like an invisible spearhead.
"Hhm!" My sister immediately glanced at me with a slumber. "Sister sucks!" My sister hit me on the shoulder slowly. His pouty face looks because of holding back the shame mixed with fear of being stuck sweetly looking at me.
"Your face don't make it like that!" I smiled seeing him. "It's not the first time, I'm washing here." I am getting excited to see my sister.
"I know! But, I hope not to see her again here, sister." My sister looked annoyed until she threw down the soap she was holding in the air quietly.
"Let's! Do you want to take a shower ?" ask our mother who rinsed the last clothes.
I am still funny to see my sister, reflexes shook her head as a signal telling her to take a shower immediately to answer my mother's question.
It's not easy being, like my sister. Little and innocent sister who has been in the mother's residence is still in a state of breastfeeding. The little boy who still needs someone's affection is lost in time. My little sister, she used to think that her mother was alive and that one day, her mother would come to see her. False hope that he continues to fertilize so that it makes him frustrated with reality. This is what makes him unable to accept the presence of our mother. She did not want to know that the mother in front of her was the surrogate mother for her.
"Wait especially. Come on quick !" my insistence on my sister.
The face of my sister's rejection was even clearer when she glanced at me and I saw her, even my mother also knew my sister's expression from her face that was terporeh. However, our mother continued to just be quiet she did not flinch with anything she had known. He still persuaded my sister to take a shower.
"Ana, wait a minute?! Why are you still standing there?" ask mommy to connect me while dabbing the empty bucket. "The Maghreb and mosquitoes will soon be here" my mother said gently. "And you, Liyan! What are you doing here too?" tanyakanya. "Do you want to take a shower?" My mother-in-law looked at me by investigating.
The anxiety still stuck on my sister's face with a myriad of questions piling up in her head. He walked back and forth, like an old man with a big problem.
"Hm! Ana take a shower there! Don't move - mandir!" I'm so nervous to see you.
That's what my sister can do. Every time he's always silent when it comes to our mother. That is, my brother never considered my father's new wife a part of his life. He thought my father's wife was just a stranger who stopped by for a while so my sister was so reluctant to get closer. For the time being, my sister was only silent after hearing my exclamation. He did not respond, even he considered it an unprofitable voice.
My brother's attitude was my biggest challenge. Her stubbornness sometimes drains my emotions to change her.
"Sir, please, take a shower now! Go to night." I took the soap that was located on the ground. "Don't squat there. Stand up!" I kept urging him to wake up.
"Yeah!" call my sister with a face. He was lazy to take a shower.
"So, you're gonna take a shower. Now why lazy ?" I asked with a slumber.
My brother's intelligence is sometimes beyond my ability. The seduction he let out seemed to ignite my pity in seeing it. Don't know why? Every time she seduced me with a bent face made me remember my mother. This made my soul fragile, especially when I heard her voice pleading with hope.
"Sister! Wait for the mother to leave" whispered my sister hoping that I would support her.
"Liyan, Anna!" I shouted, my mother connected us from the inside. "Are you still there?" ask her with a vague tone of voice.
The bathroom wall that stands upright circularly inhibits the sound that comes out so that the sound that is heard is not so clear.
"Mother is ready. Now you take a quick shower! Do you want to wait or not?" ask mommy to keep us open the door.
Actually I'd love to answer that question. The word I want to say is just one is, 'yes Mother! We want to wait.' However, the word cannot be said because my sister does not like him very much. But instead, I looked at him while saying that in my heart.
Our mother, who had come out of the bathroom, was waiting for my sister to come in. I who stood between them was very surprised to see my sister's reaction by reflexively following her orders.
"lapsus. Your bathwater's been drained." My mother connected me to the clothes that were in the bucket. "Mother, weighed it quite a lot." Separating pants and clothes. "Mother is afraid that your sister will not take a clean bath" she told me by looking at my sister who did not say a word.
"Yes Mom. Thank you," my sister replied as she walked and carried the towel and soap she held.
My eyeballs immediately saw him turn. What I heard felt like a dream. I slowly slapped my cheek to wake myself from a deep sleep.
"Augh!" I screamed because my slap hurt. "That means I don't dream" I muttered while gawking.
I just smiled faintly seeing my sister return my mother's conversation. While my sister has closed the bathroom door. Her voice was not heard again until she was inside the bathroom. Maybe he just heard it or not at all?! That's what broke out in my heart when I saw my sister walking.
While I was standing outside on the grounds of waiting for him to stay in the middle of the talk of mother continued our investigation.
"Liyan, why are you coming with your sister? You better just go inside. It was a very cold day. Maybe it'll rain soon?!" We pointed at the house and saw the dark sky.
"Yes, Mom. But, I want to wash my face and shine my body." I replied politely.
While my sister who was in the bathroom shouted at me. "Yaw! Don't leave me" cried my sister, who heard me and my mother talking outside.
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