The Struggle of a Child
The regret of lies

"Sorry you're too late. I already know." I stared at the wall of the room, which was heard by my father.

Both balls of my eyes stared at the wall of the room that was a barrier between me and my father. The resigned face was now leaning against the mute empty air. I never imagined that my father would find out someday. A completely innocent ball is now debated by my father and mother who have dared to hit my tiny body.

The noise from my father's voice was heard clearly blaming myself. " Liyan, you know what, son! I don't like being lied to the most" my father screeched from behind a wall. "Now you dare lie to me. If only I hadn't heard the talk of you and your sister. Maybe this secret I'll never know," my father's frown grew. "You are... !" My father seems to be getting upset. "... Now get out of your room," snapped my father standing in front of our door.

As I know that my father hates lies, especially about his two daughters. "You dare protect your guilty friend, huh?" My father's tone of voice is getting louder. "Father never hurt you, let alone throw a ball into your body!" rancau.

The room that used to be a tranquilizer for me and my sister is now getting gripping. The screeching and snapping of my father was hard and high as if tore down the walls of our room. My father cannot be invited to make peace at this time. I knew my father was very sensitive when he heard bad news about his daughter outside.

I can only stand frozen. My lips that still looked pale were now tightly sealed frozen a thousand languages. My fingers were getting shaky and cold. This feeling grew increasingly violent and screamed inwardly complaining to my mother who had not asked for help.

"Now I must be angry," I murmured with both of my pale lips trembling.

The fear of my father's anger was growing on me. No one can defend me, even protect me from my father's emotions . My mother is gone now all I have left is my courage.

I look upon the heavens of our house and declare them to Allah, the Creator. He's the only place to lean and where I complain. No one can help me now.

It's my wisdom to hide it from my father. I haven't rested in days from Tania and Ecy's reproach. Now it's not over, I'm faced again with my father.

My sister who was fishing for my carelessness asked about the incident of throwing the ball as if thrown into a corner after hearing my father's loud screech.

His face was frozen, like there was no life. He was also increasingly looking for a gap to be able to avoid this incident. I panicked that there was no sound I could open to defend myself. I was as much as possible looking for a way to avoid my father's loud voice. I went up to the bed to pick up the blanket and cover both of my ears firmly. I who could not hear the loud screams grew even more frustrated.

"Liyan, why shut up?" my father asked me to fill the room.

"Sir, why is Dad so angry?" ask my sister who is standing in the corner of the wall. "I'm sorry, Brother. Has asked that to Brother," cried my sister who seemed to calm herself.

"Ana, you're not wrong, brother," I said quietly. "But little brother is disappointed." I looked at my sister. "If only you hadn't asked that. Dad's not gonna be this bad!" I looked down and lamented what had happened.

"Sister, anyway. Dad's always watching us" my sister said.

"Yes, you're right. Dad never didn't know what was happening to us outside" I said, looking into the curtains of my room.

"But why are you silent, brother ?" ask sister.

"Yes yes, Brother." I got out of bed and walked slowly to find out. Not so long ago I was standing right by the curtain. Suddenly I heard the voice of the person who spoke quietly. I clearly heard it. "You must not shout that loud to your son" he said. "You're the father of your two daughters. You know, if your son Liyan can't hear loud screams" he said.

I also curiously wanted to know who was talking. I slowly pulled the curtain of my room and let out a little head looking at the person who was talking.

"Father and Mother" I murmured slowly.

"Who's Brother ?" ask sister. Suddenly standing behind me.

"Sssstttt ! Don't noise. I'll see us later" I said, turning my head slightly back to see my sister. "That's Mom and Dad" I said.

"Mmm, Dad." My sister immediately turned her body behind me.

"I was upset. He was a child who could keep a secret. Lie again" my father said.

"Yes, I know. But 'right, you can't just scold her in such a voice, '" my mother told me to stand straight in front of my father. "He's not fully healed yet." My mother still stood up to remind my father.

My father felt guilty after hearing what my mother said. He walked back to the bench to calm his anger. I closed the room curtains in a hurry. "Sttt!" I told my sister to shut her mouth.

"Dad is sitting there" I whispered slowly pointing to the bench .

"So where's Brother's beloved mother ?" ask my sister curious.

"Of course." I raised both my shoulders.

I went back to the bed we used to sit in when we were in the study and playroom. "Belk!" I slowly climbed into the bed and sat down.

"Yes, sister" said my sister who followed me sitting down as well.

"Why do you always know what happens to us outside?" ask me while staring blankly straight at the floor.

"I don't know either" my sister replied briefly. "Don't know what? I don't go to school anymore." Brother remembered. "Dad, I can tell" he said.

"That's because Dad was looking for you at school" I said.

"Yes," welcome my sister. "Dad always finds out about us outside, brother." My sister's kind of stuck. "That's what an example would be, Brother." My sister glanced at me.

My sister and I were both silent. My empty gaze looking straight ahead slowly walked to see the blanket located that I had used to cover myself from my father's loud voice.

For a moment my heart was calm because it didn't hear my father's voice anymore. However, suddenly that calmness was piqued back after my father called me back.

"Yeahyaan!" shouted my father.

I who was lulled, immediately aghast and turned my gaze towards my sister. "Dad!" I said to my sister.

My sister panicked. He also looks confused. "Sister, you must be scolding Brother again?!" my sister said guess.

My eyes seemed to confirm what my sister said. My little hand came back cold and my weak little body trembled again. There's not much I can do to avoid my father. His frustration grew longer and more.

"Liyan!!! Don't even try to lock up in the room!" jerit dad. "Now you two are out!" pinta my father wishes me and my brother out soon.

"I'm afraid Brother." My sister's getting away.

"Sir, Brother is also afraid. But if we don't get out. Later Dad gets angry," I said to my sister. "You're not gonna give Dad some pocket money." I saw my sister sitting next to me.

"Relgan." My sister shook her head.

"Liyan, Iris. Come on out," urged my mother to connect me from behind the wall. "Don't hide in your room." My contact mother kept pressing until I was still listening.

"The woman is sister. Just keep telling me to come out" my sister grumbled with a sour face.

"Ssttt! Ana can't talk like that! That's an old man. I never taught you to say that to us." I looked at my sister in pias.

"Betaka!" my sister shouted furiously. His face was so red that it looked at me and wide eyes filled his face. "I know... ." My sister was silent as my attention was distracted by my father's shouting which called out loud from outside.

"Glorica!" My father screamed back. Explain it now with Dad. Why did you get to throw the ball with your friend?" my father asked from the outside.

"Already, let Liyan rest for a while. He's just coming home from school" my mom said, cooling my dad's heart.

"Ana, you can't be like that! That mother is our mother too" I said advising my sister. "Hardless. Don't let Dad hear it" I continued to look at my sister as she stepped out of the room with full courage.

"Dad is the same big brother! You've always defended him" my sister murmured hatefully.

"Ana !" I came back to a standstill and looked towards my sister while releasing the curtain I was holding. "Please stop, Brother! Don't continue. Brother is afraid that if Father hears it we will both be punished," I pleaded.

"Liyan, what are you two doing in this room! Your father was screaming. You didn't hear it!" My mother and I suddenly opened the curtains of our room.

"Jeah... ." I was immediately shocked and quietly closed my lips tightly.

"I-yes Ma'am," I said nervously and looked at the tip of her leg standing up.

"Let's get out now !" My mother opened the curtain wide and stood quietly waiting for us to walk out while looking at me and my sister with very sharp eyes.

"It's all because of you" my mother whispered sharply to my ear as I walked.

I also walked with my sister while glancing at her. The look in his eyes that followed my path was so sharp with a cynical face. Hate is now stained on the face of half the baby.

The more out of the room I felt more doused by ice water that poured out of the top.

"Liyan!" My dad's staring at me.

"I-yeah Dad," I answered frozen down like a statue.

"It's you too!" My father also called my brother out by prying. "Dad deliberately made you one school with your brother. So you can take care of your brother!" my father explained. Highlight my father's eyes it feels can not be seen at this time. I who stood like, the statue saw it and occasionally glanced at my sister who joined the sculpting like me.

"Why don't you know? If you have a friend who doesn't like you," attack my father.

"Dad... . Dad knows. If you and I are not in one class" replied my sister slowly.

"But you're not a school?! How could you not know," my father's lips returned.

"Dad, don't get mad at Ana" I said. "It's true, Dad. We are not a class. Anyway Ana's class with my class is quite far away, Dad," I said in a bitter tone.

"Away whatever. You guys keep meeting at school" my dad said, not wanting to know.

I who stood glancing at my sister who did not accept the blame by my father grew more anxious. His face is now filled with hatred for being dragged down by my case. "Which father may I always look after, Brother," said my sister. "I'm still a kid. It should have been Brother who took care of me, not me who took care of it, Brother," said my sister disliked.

"So, because you're the smallest. You don't have any responsibility to look after your brother, do you?" My mother connected me from behind.

My sister fell silent and hated to hear it. I looked at him more and more in panic. "Yes, yes" said my sister.

"Yes!!! I never taught you to say that," my father insisted. "Don't try to fight! You're a little girl." My father said it with care. "Father so, sorry to have spoiled you," said my father while breathing harshly.

My sister's fingers are getting stronger. I slightly raised my head hoping that my sister would budge. I slowly moved closer to my sister. "DWell... ."

"Liyan!!! My father called.

"Yes, Dad." I immediately took my eyes off my sister and saw my father. Where's your friend's house?" ask dad.

The deg!

Gluey!

My heart felt like it was going to escape while I was immediately stunned and my breath wanted to stop. I also gulped while glancing at my sister with nanar.

"In-there, Dad," I answered stammered.

"Where is it? Tell me the obvious," my father said urgently.

"I don't know, Dad," I replied.

"Your classmates! You don't know his house ?!" my mother said, asking with great emphasis.

"Mmmm!" I nodded while looking down.

"It's amazing you! All you asked didn't know, huh!" My mother-in-law snorted annoyed.

"My father took a deep breath looking at me who still wanted to cover it up. "You are a good boy" said my father. "Have been treated that way by your friend. You're still protecting her." My father looked at me with a face with a million secrets. "And you're Ana. From now on, I'll take responsibility for your brother in school, "please ask my father with great emphasis.

My sister raised her head in shock at my father's request. "Keeping Brother ?!" my sister muttered in astonishment. Glanced.

After hearing my father's request. I was getting more and more stunned by my sister. The two of us who met looked at him increasingly did not understand. "Dad, how do you keep up, brother?" ask sister.

"Then you don't know!" my mother said. "Ana, you have to pay attention, your brother," my father said.

"No, Dad! Ana can't keep up, Brother," refused my sister bowing her head straight away.

The longer it feels the harder it is to trick my father. My father was very observant in taking care of his children. He never let up the slightest bit in paying attention to us. So, I need to get better at stepping and moving.

"Don't forget it, Liyan!" My father demanded me back. "Tell Dad that he hurt you again" my dad stepped up from his seat.

"Where are you going?" ask my mother who is still standing.

"I want to sleep! I'm tired of my two daughters." My father threw his gaze straight at the door of the room.

"Dad could not, Dad's request was canceled," my sister complained to see my father leave.

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