The Struggle of a Child
Miserably

I just silently stared blankly when I heard Widia's words. Immediately my confidence was lost and the joy on my pale face was now nowhere to be seen.

My little lips that looked so curvy are now flat again. I felt embarrassed to have brought my weak little body to school.

My enthusiasm for learning made me so sad and wanting to feel, I took my step home and hid from the eyes that looked at me.

Small grunts continued to occur inside the weak. Tears of shame are now beginning to grow in my eyes with the grasp of my weak little fingers.

My friend Widia kept looking at me with pity as if, she said I should just go home and not be too confident to follow the lesson until it is finished.

"Liyan you better go home." Widia's Proposal. Stand beside me.

My little ears were so embarrassed to hear Widia that I couldn't look at her.

I can only be quiet and silent in response to Widia.

"Eh! Widia why ? It hurt?" Ask my friend Fikri. Walked saw.

Widia and I did not dare to look at Fikri who asked about me. I was standing there embarrassed for a while, Widia looked so guilty for talking like that about me.

"Why are you guys quiet?" Ask Fikri again inquisitive. Glancing at me and Widia.

Instantly Widia turned her head around, mastering the circumstances to answer Fikri's question. "Who's sick?" Reply Widia as if asking Fikri that question and divert her suspicions. "Some one is sick here." Widia with a flat face.

Fikri nodded as a sign that he believed Widia's words and then left.

While I still remain the same silent and ashamed and sad.

"Liyan if you're still sick better just go home now before the bell rings." Widia's Advice. "I'm afraid that you're passing out because we're flag ceremony today." Next staring.

"So, I won't fall Widia." Reply with a flat face. Put bag.

"But you're pale." Connect Widia.

Today, I was so shackled by what Widia said that I could not lift my face to look at Widia.

"Then let's get out." Bring Widia. Walked.

"Come on!" Greet me. Walked along with Widia out.

To cover up my shortcomings today. I was forced to walk upright so that it looked like a fine person. I was also forced to pull my lips with a smile and change my lethargic face cheerfully even though, a pallor enveloped my face at this moment.

My gonad steps that look like a helpless person I set up instantly, so that I look like a normal walking person.

My tiny body that started to feel cold now I tried to hold it so as not to make me drop and droop down.

"Liyan you can walk." By Widia. Walk beside me.

"Capable." Reply firmly.

Widia looked at me intently after hearing my words. He looked a little suspicious of what I said if I could after I saw it in the tail of my eye.

I was immediately afraid that the worst thing that happened to me would happen today. The suspicion that was seen on Widia's innocent face seemed to make me want to tell the truth.

"Widia, we'll be testing soon." I said to divert Widia's suspicions.

"She, said the mother, we'll be testing soon." Widia looked at me. Sit over.

"When ?" Ask me back. Seeing others walk.

"I don't know Liyan." Answer's straightforward.

We also immediately met with a face full of question marks about the test to be carried out.

"I don't know Liyan.Maybe in a moment." Welcome Widia. Seeing me. "Why? Ask Widia back.

"That's okay.I haven't been in school for a long time. So, I'm scared." I said with a worried face.

"You learn." Sindir Widia's.

"Yes but I don't know what I learned." I said back with a smirked face.

As soon as Widia took her eyes off me and silently heard what I said, her face looked a little sad. I stared straight down at the ground with a blank look.

"Liyan if you don't know, I'll tell you." Widia Timpal. Staring at me.

Hearing Widia's words for a moment I was moved. A little happiness was present for me which made my spirit return.

"Where could you possibly love me later." I sat with a doubtful face.

"Why do you say that." Cetus Widia's.

"If we test, it will be supervised by the teacher." Reply with a flat face.

Widia finally sat back and looked at the people who were walking in the spacious school yard with a thinking face.

"Liyan but pity you if you don't know." Reply back.

Instantly I remembered the words of my mother and father that the sick person was given relief.

"But if a sick person is at a tenderness." My word.

Ahaha! Widia's laughter broke.

"Liyan you know where she came from, she was another child." He said with a grin.

"Which kid is it?" Ask me want to know.

"The boy whose teacher is good." Celtap Widia.

Instantly I pulled my cherry face back.

"But our teacher is good." Continue me. Staring Widia.

I remembered my father that our teacher was known to my father as if my mind had triggered something about me.

"You've had a long time off." Widia Gerrutu.

I was still silent in my mind, remembering about my teacher Widia said.

"Widia if I don't get the test, I'm like where." I looked up at Widia.

Widia just shook her eyes and turned her eyes back to look straight ahead.

"Liyan." Widia. "Say, stay in class if you don't know." Staring at me softly with a low look.

My face seemed sad as soon as sadness enveloped my heart and filled my chaotic mind.

"Widia, I don't want to stay in class." My greeting with light.

"Liyan that's why you don't get sick again so you can learn." He said flatly. Stare at me flatly.

Hearing Widia's words I felt like she was mocking me. I was so embarrassed and devastated to see my situation.

"That's why if you're sick get treatment fast." Widia's advice looks at me with a grin.

I shut up and closed my lips to make a sound. I went back to diving in my sadness, which was drawing more and more into despair for myself.

"Widia, I won't be sick again." Continue with confidence.

I was silent and frozen, and it felt like thunderstorms and lightning struck my weak body today, making my face reddened and embarrassed and sad as soon as my weak body flew to a place full of mud.

"Your father was a paddle-bearer. Paddle pedicab bearer where there's money." Sindir Widia is back.

Hearing Widia's innuendo made me so stunned. I who was sitting next to him felt so devastated.

I who was small and innocent considered everything to be easily passed.

It was not long before we sat together on the edge of a rock located just below the tree looking at each other.

"Liyan you're angry ya." Widia looked at me with a guilty face.

"Relgan." Answer me.

Hearing my answer immediately Widia looked happy and laughed a little. He who had looked frozen like ice was now relaxed again.

I was happy too and laughed just like Widia. I forgot all my sadness created by Widia's mocking and insinuating words.

We also look getting along and warm again as if there were no painful actions.

Widia and I forgot everything that happened.

"Liyan, we're gonna line up soon." Widia said with a flat face.

"So I'll take the line where ya." I said with doubt.

"Ahead of me." Connect Widia.

I just silently looked at Widia in response to her suggestion that I agree with her.

Not long after we sat down and told stories, the bell rang indicating all students to take the ceremonial line.

Widia and I immediately moved and took the line neatly. I saw from every corner of the school the students were so enthusiastically taking the line.

We both immediately took our own positions. I stood up to take a position in front of Widia's opinion. While Widia took a position not far from behind me.

I who was not well today stood upright in front while looking straight ahead. The clamped voice of the ceremonial leader was so loud that all the disciples followed his instructions in an orderly manner.

In the middle of the flag ceremony that we carried out today. Suddenly I started to feel strange things about myself that made me so nervous. My tiny body that just looked fine now feels more and more drop and makes me want to hit the ground. My sight of the firefly made my vision unclear.

At once I thought of my father and myself as well as my school and my friends. As much as possible I strengthened myself to stay afloat in the middle of the unfinished ceremony.

"Liyan, you got nothing, don't you." Widia's whisper in my ear. Stand beside me. "If you can't just back off let me go forward." Pinta Widia's.

The heat of the sun shining down on the earth made my pale face even more lethargic. My weak legs want to come off.

"It's okay." My whisper was back in Widia's ear.

I turned my body slowly and carefully dragged my weak legs.

"Ha! Why is Liyan going backwards?" Ask my other friend.

"Liyan you're sick?" Ask Fikri. Stand not far from me.

Spontaneously I stopped my steps and turned my head to look at her. Looking at her face and hearing what she said earlier, I just kept quiet while nodding slowly in response if I confirmed her question.

I again stood at the back with my weak little body and my pale face.

"Liyan you just sit there." Friend said.

"Yes." Sahutku with the voice of my unwell people.

"Liyan, you just sit down, don't stand up, it's a long ceremony, you'll faint." Meraka says. Seeing me.

Instantly I also eliminated my strong ego to stay afloat standing after the ceremony.

"All right." Greet me quietly with a little down.

Instantly I dragged my weak feet to walk in search of a place where I could sit. Slowly I stepped up, suddenly I stopped my steps. "But I'm afraid I'll get mad at the teacher if I get caught sitting down." I said with a frightened face and a trembling body.

"No Liyan." They say. "Teachers won't know." Stared at. "You're sick, and if a teacher sees you and asks why you're sitting, you say you're sick." Follow my friend who is standing right next to me.

"Liyan, you don't have to be afraid that we'll help you." Continue them back.

I did as they told me. I slowly dragged my weak feet back to walk up to the flower tree under which was a small pile of cement.

I sat down and pulled a little to stretch my weak muscles.

It felt like the longer I sat, the sadder I was to see those who were so healthy I became, the more envious I became.

The hope that I kept inside me was now falling apart. Instantly my wishful thinking that was so sure of my healing disappeared instantly.

"Liyan are you still strong." Ask Septiani. Walk slowly towards me. "If you can't just say it, let me take you to class." Further. Staring at me.

Seeing Septiani's sympathy towards me by offering her sincere helping hand made my heart touched.

"I can still afford it." Reply slowly. Septiani.

Septiani left me and went back to the line to join my other friends.

My strength trying to fight my pain today is no longer there. The longer I got the less powerful I was to stay afloat waiting for the ceremony to finish.

Widia who was standing in my position just now looked so wise. In the weakness that breaks the joy makes me like an abandoned child.

I really want to go back to the classroom, seen from the look of my eyes that continue to spin looking at the page that we often pass.

Spontaneous my mind reawakened. I turned my eyes back and heard the ceremony we were doing.

No matter how long I sat and listened, I tried to spread my eyeballs to see those who would be finished in a moment.

Looking at my eyes, I turned to neutralize my pan for my good teacher, he said.

My father once said that my teacher was good and that he knew him well. Thought.

As soon as the ceremony ended. It's time I had to drag my feet back into class. I was so excited to get up from my seat.

"Liyan come!" Septiani. Swung his hand into the air. Walked.

"Yes." Answer me by nodding. Wakes up.

Septiani turned back and disappeared from before me. I who try to stand up straight look harder and harder to try.

"Liyan you can." Widia. Approaching me.

"It can." My answer. Walked.

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