The Struggle of a Child
My Eye Water
My tears that poured down my cheeks made my little fingers wipe them away. So sad sobs are still visible on my innocent face. The hue of my face that was now flushed looked at the clothes I was wearing softly.
" uh! You, you little whiny boy!" Staring at me cynically. " Already! Shut up. Don't cry any more soon, your father's coming home!" With a glance he looked at me and left me alone in the room.
Huhuhoo!
My crying is getting unstoppable. My vocal cords now feel heavy and hoarse. The pieces of my inner destruction of her hardening against me now feel slashing in my innocent heart. My finger grip is now getting weaker.
A room that feels quiet like there is no meaning to life anymore. It makes me feel depressed today.
"Liyan!" Shouted my mother calling me. It was as if by force I had to get out of the room immediately which bears witness to what happened today to me.
The tears that were spilling over were now soaking the floor of my room.
"Liyan, let alone let's get out quickly!" Snapped mom to me from behind the curtains of my room while poking her.
Soon I might wipe my tears with a zigzag. Step out slowly while looking down.
"See that! The clothes you wear are clean! Yeah, right? So, that la smell, the one you're wearing. Not shower yet changed." With a high voice. My mother looked at me who was walking sharply.
I just kept walking without seeing her at all. My gaze continued to look down with my heavy cries.
" You don't cry, your father's coming home soon. There will be more noise in this house, because of you! He's tired out there!" My mother said to me with a raise. His eyes were so sharp he looked at me without blinking. His face now looked like a burning fire burning everything.
" Where was your shirt?! Quickly put it there! To the dirty laundry place, let's wash your dad tomorrow!" Strangled my mother with firmness and her face filled with anger.
I am now walking dragging my sick weak body. Approaching the kitchen where the clothes were dirty, with a blank look I put my dirty clothes in the bucket.
I looked so lifeless as I walked staggered with emptiness. All the consequences of my crying were still heard. My red eyes are still clearly visible.
" It's!" My close mother walked up to me and looked at me cynically.
Without a good education he did his wish without looking at me. Today I look more like a neglected fool.
"Liyan!" My mother called me after she saw the clock. "You ate that, right? While sweeping the living room.
Eemm! I just nodded my head slowly and lowered my head. I who look sad still leaning against the wall of my father's room silently sculpt.
" So, you've taken your medicine?" Ask her to want to know.
"It's over!" I answered softly with a slightly trembling voice.
"Good! Why are you standing there?!" I looked at him a little bit guilty. "Sit you, sit down! Don't stand up later you faint." With great discernment.
I immediately dragged my body to sit down. My eyes were still so closed that they covered what I saw. My heart still felt so slashed that I couldn't shake my cry even though, I was already silent in sight.
Instantly I was on the floor daydreaming with an empty look. My mind remembered the incident, which happened to me in the blink of an eye. No wind no rain, suddenly my mother scolded me so badly. Without a fatal mistake.
He who is still sweeping looks from the tail of my eyes so calm. Like he didn't feel guilty, let alone made a mistake. That was what was seen from his calm face.
My sitting is daydreaming. Suddenly jolted in shock by my spoiled sister.
" Sister, what else?" My sister hit me on the shoulder.
I shook my head giving an answer and took a quick look at it.
" Sister, brother why ?" Ask my sister to know. "Sister's favorite mother! He was again I saw. Tumben he's diligent." My sister's ejek trying to tease me.
I just kept quiet and threw occasional glances at my sister.
" Oh, it's brother! I haven't opened my shoes! He'll be angry." He opened his shoes and put them in his shoes.
" Sister, are you home?" Ask my sister while walking towards my place.
I was tired of seeing my sister keep asking me questions. My face that looked sad now changed pias and slightly pursed my Little lips.
" Sister why be quiet, brother is sick?" Putting the back of his hand on my forehead.
Spontaneously I brushed it off just like that.
I wanted to tell my sister to leave in front of me. But, that's impossible I thought. My sister doesn't know what happened to me today so I can't possibly scold her and tell her to leave. I'm scared to do that too. I'm afraid he'll complain to my father, which makes me even more frustrated. So, once again I am the one who succumbed for the sake of peace for myself.
" Neither deck!" I said straightforwardly.
" Why are you quiet?" Ask my sister back to protest.
I don't think I might have told my sister what happened to me today. I was worried about my brother complaining to my father. It could happen again when an even bigger storm hits me.
In this position I was again required to be silent. For the peace of this house. There were no words I said to answer all the questions my enthusiastic sister wanted to know everything.
I just stared at my sister who asked me to challenge myself. The more days I feel depressed. Can't speak out loud to defend myself.
" Sister is okay? Deck!" While looking at my sister who had a curious face. " You go over there get changed!" My love to my little brother who's a bungle.
"Huh! In a moment, brother, I'm not going anywhere anyway." Shift his body by straightening his nerves.
" Sister, we'll be testing soon." Said my sister putting her bag a little away from her while looking at me. " He, brother must heal quickly." Return to see me expectantly.
" When's the deck?" Curiously.
" You know, when? But that said, our teacher will soon be testing tips." Looking straight ahead with a flat face and a blank stare.
Instantly my sister saw me who was so sad, silent like a confused person.
" Sister, don't know the deck!" With resignation. " Sister said to Dad that you want to go to school. But I forbid." I said with a face that lost hope.
My sister saw me clingy and silent. With a face that still could not believe he kept looking at me. " Masa, she's brother! Dad forbid Brother to go to school?!" My sister still doesn't believe me.
I just nodded my head justifying my sister's unreasonable question she thought.
Seriate....