The Struggle of a Child
The Desire My Father Rejected
I sat down cross-legged and finished my breakfast. A moment of contemplation in my unstable condition. I slowly turned my empty mind. Immediately I was interested in my wishes today. I walked over to my father who was out of the kitchen.
My father who I saw was preparing to go make a living. Now I approached wanting permission on my wish that I did not know if my father would grant. I saw my father who was so serious with his grip not so aware that I was standing behind him.
My father was so sizzling to see his pants that had started to tear. My heart was so sad to see the details of the clear keristal fell unravelled. My father was so stoic to this day he still looks flexible. The test of life that continues to test him never discouraged him to continue
" Dad!" My voice is so slow.
My father, who was holding his pants, was so surprised that the pants he was holding almost fell down quickly my father immediately caught him.
" Shy!" My father turned his head slowly. " What's up? You want some snacks?" My father said flatly.
" So, yeah!" I said a little carefully looking at my father.
" What do you want to call me." My father wants to know.
"Liyan is school today, yeah." I said by giving myself up while looking down. For a moment my father shook his head and turned his head straight ahead I looked at him with my head down.
My father was still standing straight. His rough breathing was so loud. " Liyan, you said you wanted to go to school! My father was very stressed. His body was still staring straight ahead.
" You're sick again. Last night your body was still hot and shivering. Can you go to school? I don't want you to be a burden there." My father said curiously.
" Dad, Liyan is fine, kok. Today Liyan's better, Dad, it's not hot anymore." I said insisting.
" Liyan, I don't want to listen to anything. Don't be stubborn. If you suddenly relapse again your high heat will make them burdened." My father said firmly.
I'm not as smart as my sister who can seduce my father in an instant. Now I have to rack my brain to find out how I can go to school.
I was so tired of seeing myself at home for a month. I want to go out even if it's just for a little while. Expel my saturation which has made me like a fool. My only days have been spent looking at the empty walls of the house, the ceiling and the clock of the walls that keep spinning at a moderate pace.
" Dad, Liyan promised. Liyan won't be sick, kok." I who stood still near my father convinced my father with all I could. " He, Liyan's father will take care of Liyan's health at school." I said with a face full of hope.
" No! Dad said no, no, no, no, Liyan! Don't keep whining at me because I won't grant you a wish."
My father continued to insist on staying firm with his stance.
I was even more frustrated because seeing what I was doing was not getting any results. Now only
I left my father with a little disappointment. The walking me now passed my sister looking at me in astonishment.
My sister continued to stare with a full probing gaze without blinking she continued to stare at me sharply. Walking up to my father who had come out of the room while holding his torn pants earlier, I saw.
My sister who walked by putting on a face full of question marks stopped. "Dad, Ana went to school first, yeah." Said my sister kissing the back of my father's hand.
" Him, be careful, son. Look at the road if you want to cross." My father said firmly.
"Yes, Dad." My sister said while carrying her backpack.
"When you eat. What time is it? You have shoes on!" Said my father pointing at my brother's shoes with his mouth.
I'm sad I can't see my sister in school
with a look as a signal that my sister should eat.
"Yes, this father, Ana's coming in." My sister turned her body back to take her breakfast with the shoes that had been attached to her feet.
I saw my sister so little heavy put her foot out. By turning his lips to the front with a pouting face.
" Sister, sister's favorite mother, where? There's no way she's going anymore." My sister said with a little probing.
I who do not know anything just keep quiet while welding.
" Sister, didn't you tell me where my sister went?" Ask my sister back while chewing her food quickly.
I was getting overwhelmed to see my sister keep asking. Meanwhile, I was still upset to hear my father firmly criticize me for not attending school before I fully recover.
"No deck! I didn't say anything." I said flatly. While walking towards my father's room and looking inside. I was surprised that my father's room was empty.
My sister who saw my face suddenly changed. Instantly he swung his foot towards me. " Sister, what's the matter?" Ask who is standing next to me.
I was the one who gasped for a moment when I saw him who until now had not gone to school.
" There's nothing! You haven't gone to school." With a little bit of a dirty face." Come on, go to school!" I pushed my sister's body to the door.
My annoyed sister saw me for pushing her body against my hand until it slipped off her shoulder.
" Sister, sister what the fuck, anyway!" My sister's lyrics with a sour face.
I also pulled my lips with a frown. Seeing my sister who was upset while tidying up her school uniform. From the front door I saw my sister so upset as she walked.
I slowly turned my body in. Leaving my brother who had passed away disappeared.
My pity face was spontaneously implied to see my sister who left in a state of annoyance. My dad reminded my sister of breakfast. Has gone missing from before me.
I dragged my two feet slowly as if I was counting my footsteps. My frail body lazily wanted to move to find out where my mother was now.
I also saw my father's room whose door was still wide open. I stared back into my father's room which looked silent. A neat bed greeted me who was standing in front of my father's bedroom door.
I turned to leave my father's room, which now makes me ask about our surrogate mother.
Seriate.....