The Struggle of a Child
My heart is sick
"Let's go in!" My mother-in-law walked in.
I also immediately moved from my seat which brought my thoughts to hover.
" You didn't shower?" By holding a towel towards our simple bath. " If you want to come, come on! Let us take a shower. Watch out for it when your dad comes home!" Warning me to be careful about my father.
" So, Mom, it's cold." Walk towards my room.
" Yes, never mind!"
His footsteps sounded softly towards our simple bathroom. The towel on her necklace was seen peering slightly from the door.
My head, which I turned, saw him leave the kitchen door. Instantly, I turned back to the front while walking towards the door of the room.
I stood at the door of the room staring down at the room that had been a friend of my sick days. It felt like this room was silent as I walked fixedly staring. It is as if people have no sign of life. The bitter pain I was experiencing made me get used to it. The desire inside me is only half of my soul.
I swung my legs slowly while looking at my hanging school bag. My mind began not to feel like it was breaking the concentration of hope. Living a series of memories of my school that I had long left behind.
The Friday I most often enjoy with all the kids. Especially considering the time of his return, much faster than usual. Makes me miss him.
I was the one who was in the room to change my clothes earlier who had smelled from the sweat that poured out of my tiny body earlier. Now I replace it with clothes that I just took from the closet that are still fresh and fragrant.
"Liyan, where are you?" My mother's screams were heard from behind the wall of my room so panicked. His footsteps were heard stepping so fast with a powerful jolt like a man who was willing to run.
" Here,Bu!" I walk out of my room wearing clothes.
" Where is it, you?!" In a flat voice he walked over to my room as he slowly pushed the curtains of my room. Her half-dusk face was now present before me with her warm face. Her panic now began to gradually disappear as soon as she saw me.
" Why are you here?!" He said he wanted to know to stand in front of me. He was so attached to watching me from head to toe that I repeatedly.
The confused me didn't understand exactly what happened to make me like a fool. Silence gawked without knowledge.
My eyes were staring at him sharply and a face full of question marks. Staring at him unblinkingly with the clothes still in my grasp. Instantly stopped wanting to wear it.
"Liyan, you get changed!" My mother looked at me with astonished eyes.
I just kept quiet. But my mind kept spinning. " Him, Bu." Answer me with a toilet.
" Aren't you taking a shower?!" Her question came back with her frown.
" I'm cold." I answered slowly and a little scared.
" If you can't take a cold shower, you can use warm water." Said my contact mother who did not want to lose to me even though it was just arguing.
I also speak a thousand languages. My eyes were staring straight down while bowing my head.
"Your father will be home soon. It's Friday." Staring at me resolutely without giving me a hint of leeway to breathe.
The clothes I was holding were still stuck in my hand. Even if my mother didn't give me any space to explain in detail, why didn't I take a shower?
He still insists on attacking me with his words. " Liyan, if your father was angry he would have kept mumbling. Hold hours. Your ears that hear it are getting hotter." With a voice full of emphasis.
I can only stand like a useless statue. Listening word for word he said to me. Starting from advice, direction, and even not infrequently also nagging her who relentlessly rebuked me.
Starting from bathing to my school which is increasingly making me careless. Not infrequently I put a face that is bent.
" You heard it, Liyan!" My mother said to me to remember me.
" Him, Mom I heard." I said in a flat voice.
"If you hear! You should have taken a shower earlier, I told you. It's so, you shut up, you're told to take a shower, lazy!" He said with anger and a pias face.
This morning by noon. He was so stirred up by emotions. Her pajas face was now clearly looking at me with her sharp gaze.
My guts shrunk instantly. The crystal grains are now blocking my tiny eyeballs. My helpless pain makes me so sad. My gaze now felt blurry due to the tears that were shed in my eyes.
My throat now hurts to hold back the crying that wants to break. My chest feels as tight as my heart also feels like it's not beating because of it. My voice felt like I wanted to come out screaming.
" Liyan, are you sick now or not?! I was confused to see you. Sometimes you get sick sleeping in the room. Sometimes you go around. Where to? I don't know either. If asked you said you were looking for your sister. Why are you looking for your sister. He's already grown up. I know to go home by myself. You don't have to look for him." His words kept rebuking me by intimidating me until I could not make a sound.
Seeing me being cornered. I'm getting weaker too. The clothes I was holding earlier, I now came off unconsciously.
" Why are you? Crying!" Ask my mommy worried and guilty. " But I'm surprised to see you, you cry a little. Cheap times you, I see crying. You crybaby times! Engaging in anything immediately crying. It's true your father said, you're a lousy son, a weeping artisan. Heh!" Grunts annoyed.
My crying broke instantly. The crystal grains that I was able to withstand are now abundant instantly like water poured into the earth.
"That's you, right! Not in anything else have you cried. It's really you!" With his ugly face.
At the moment my mother is still standing in my room. He won't move after making me cry.
" That's it, your dad's coming home. You'll be no later!" While pointing at the clock hanging by peeking out from behind the curtains of my room.
I was silent with breathless breath. Tears still break free.
" Don't forget to complain to you later! Just like your sister. You're right, her brother must be your same. What's the difference, sister one stomach one father." He said sneerily looking at me.
My heart hurts so much. I want to feel like I ran far away. Disappeared from his presence for a moment. My body was now shaking from my crying which was so breaking the silence. Nothing more for me in this house! That's what's on my mind right now.
Seriate.....