WHEN LOVE IS TESTED
Epilogues

“Anjani, do you still like watching dramas??”.

“No, I don't like drama anymore, because my life has been more touching than drama”.

“Anjani, do you still like to read novels??”.

“No, now I'm not a novel reader anymore, but now I want to be a novel” writer.

“Anjani, do you still keep the novel ‘earth of love, by Habiburrahman El Shirazi,' that I gave you??”.

“Of course, I still keep it well, even when I miss you, I always hug the book, make it as your replacement".

“Anjani, do you still like green, and do you still like froggy characters??”.

“No, now I hate the colors and characters you mentioned“ so much.

“Why??”.

“Because Tiara is also very grading“.

“Anjani, do you still have insomnia??”.

“Still“.

“Who accompanied you when you had insomnia“.

“Nothing, often I was silent myself, reading the Quran, when at times I had insomnia".

“Anjani, now that you have used the syar’i hijab, as you said, when you are married, you will change your appearance“.

“Iya,“

“Anjani, are your dreams still the same?? To become a teacher? Do you still intend to make it happen??”.

“Of course, my dream will not be forgotten, even though it has not been realized".

“Anjani, do you still hate me?”.

“Sangat”.

“I know, all this will be difficult for you, but I have a harder day than you”.

“Anjani, did you ever wait for me, after I let you down??”.

“Pernah“.

“When??”.

“Any time".

“Really???”.

“Yes, every time I wish I could meet you".

“Why??”.

“I hope, when meet you, you are already happy with your choice“.

“Really?? But why??”.

“You have made my life suffer so much, if you are unhappy with your choice, then I will be very disappointed“.

“Do you suffer from it??”.

“Iya".

“Faisal, can I ask you now?”.

“What??”.

“Why do you hate me so much??”.

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“Just you, if you answer do not hate me, Faisal do you still remember the moment we have been through?? I hope you can know, even though I didn't say it directly“.

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“What do you remember?? When you first forced me to enter your world??”.

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“What do you remember?? When you get the inventory motor from your office?? Butot motor, which is not worth using, which would be very embarrassing if it is scolding him, even his voice is very disturbing to the environment, until the people we pass by sniff and curse us?? Faisal, I was so happy when it was“.

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“Faisal, do you still remember it??? I have sacrificed many things, I gave up my life and death just to wait for you, I was almost an ungodly child, just because I still chose you, I even gave everything I had for you“.

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“Faisal, do you remember that?? For years with you, from the time you crawled, stood up, until you were able to run, every bow I made, my prayer for your good, do you remember?? Although we rarely meet, but we always pray and eat together".

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“Faisal, do you know?? How long am I waiting for you?? If Faisal, only If, you don't force me to accept you, maybe I will meet a better man from the beginning, maybe I won't be betrothed to Bagas, won't live to suffer, maybe I will, I will not live a widow, and will not accept Anwar's proposal, maybe I will have a good husband, have a cute child, and I will live happily, but that's only if Faisal".

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“Faisal, even after all this time I accompanied you in trouble, can't you tell me of your decision to marry Tiara?? Do you know Faisal, my world seems to collapse, when you see your wedding invitation, why Faisal?? Wh why?? If you're not really with me?? Why are you doing all that?? Why Faisal?? Are all my questions still unanswered??”.

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“Faisal?? Do you still remember it?? The furniture we once bought together, for us to use after marriage?? I even imagined you and Tiara using the blanket we had bought together, it was me who chose Faisal, are you really that rich????”.

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“Faisal, sorry that my heart has cursed you so often".

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“Faisal, did you really forget?? Who did you build all your dreams with?? Are you really not Faisal's man? Where is your heart and conscience Faisal Aditia??”.

“.........”

“Faisal, did you forget? When your father proposed to me? Ask my mother to marry you? Did you really forget that?? If you know how to come, force, and then manage to take me to your place, why did you forget how to farewell properly?”.

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“Throughout the year I cursed my own stupidity, you became the intermediary for the destruction of my life".

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“I often think, that day, when you were with me, did you already have a relationship with Tiara?? I should be sensitive, when you defend him against me, then it is a signal, if you already have a relationship with him".

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“But Faisal, you've heard of the law of the sow, haven't you? I will be rewarded for all the sins and good that I have done, as well as you, that's what you often say isn't it??”.

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“At first, I thought, because we have the same wounds in the family, it will be easy for us to understand each other's hearts, but in fact, you are really demonic, even now I continue to curse you as if aware of his sin".

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“You know Faisal, even when I look up at the sky, and look at the stars, I try to count them, and compare them with all my questions to you, in fact my questions are far more than the stars in the night sky“.

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“In fact, for the first time I regretted a favor, which I once chastised, yes, I regretted ever doing good to Tiara, do you know?? He's the man I've been guiding, I've approached, I've even shared everything with him, but I never wanted to share a lover with anyone including Tiara, even I often cursed Tiara, sorry, but I'm an ordinary man“.

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“Faisal?? Do you know what?? Tiara is not a good woman, I often see her going out at night with a new employee, and will only be home when morning arrives, when the office entry hour arrives, she said, I also often saw him chatan with other employees, who expressed their feelings, you know Faisal, if you were already in contact with Tiara then, does that mean you are also being cheated?????”.

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“Faisal?? Am I not always with you when you are down and sick?? When your world comes crashing down, when you're reviled, I'm the front man supporting you, then? Why did you leave me when I fell Faisal?? Isn't this unfair to me???”.

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“Faisal, what about your two nieces?? Did they grow up and become adults?? Doesn't time go by so fast ??? Have you ever thought?? What if your most beloved niece suddenly occupies my position?? Can you still laugh like this?? Ah ... I forgot you don't have a heart, so how could you care about someone else's situation“.

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“Faisal?? How big is your son now?? Have you prepared a word to explain to him??? Explaining how depraved his father was, did you teach him to be just like you?? Isn't that kid a picture of his parents???”.

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“Ah ... Faisal, really, even though this ink has run out, but I will never be satisfied to ask, nor will I ever be content to curse, and swear at you, either, maybe you won't know my whole heart, but one thing I want, if, you're on the edge of hell, then I'll kick you right away so you know how hot hell fire is. Just that, my last wish, my disgusting wish, really, my feelings made me forget myself to the creator, so I forgot the provisions of fate, and it was because of whom?? That's thanks to you“.

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