WHEN LOVE IS TESTED
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Anwar POV's.

It is not easy to forget, it is not easy to lose, this feeling of sadness is like settling down, for some reason but this sadness has been prolonged. Don't tell me this is overkill, because this is what I think, this loss is so stifling, I've felt this loss before, and now this story is back again, you know?? Losing you will only add to my love for you. Losing you makes me lose my mind, it's like an apocalypse to me, I'm still not willing to lose your love.

Now because of the past mistakes I made I lost what I've been fighting for so long, it feels like I want to disappear from the face of the earth, when I see your clothes still hanging in our closet, when I saw the neatly folded blanket, which we used to wrap ourselves around to avoid coldness, and shame.

Being in this house without you, like a grave to me, when walking towards the kitchen, your favorite place, pot, cauldron, teplon, even the stove was like crying because it lost its owner, don't you also miss me???.

Ten days already, you are gone from my sight, you know what I am doing as long as you are not next to me???.

Crying and yelling, that's all I can do, you must be laughing out loud, when you see how whiny I am, but, I'd rather be laughed at you, than lose you.

I'm sure you're still alive, even though I don't know where you are, but I'm sure you're considering coming back to me right??.

“Anjaniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii it was my cry, while on the edge of the abyss, the place where we had to part, my voice kept echoing down the abyss, didn't you hear it?? Didn't the echo convey my message to you???.

Ck, you said you were a wise man, in fact you are the most selfish person I have ever known, where maybe a wise man can leave a husband who loves him so much without saying goodbye.

Wrong, yes, a million times I've yelled my mistake, where you went, but why don't you come back.

Kowtowing??? Well I'll bow at your feet, but don't leave me.

Where are you actually?? Wh why?? Not even the police can find your whereabouts??.

Has God been hiding you??? So you don't meet me??.

Understand my sorrow, and go home.

“Anwar??” Bu Anita approached his son who was still frustrated, Anwar turned his head without answering his mother's questions.

“Anwar, eat first yes, Mamah already masakin kamu“ tawar bu Anita.

“No Mamah, Anjani has not returned“ Anwar replied while crying again.

“Until when will you torture yourself like this Anwar??” tanya Bu Anita, looks worried so look on her beautiful face.

“Until Anjani forgives me Mamah“ replied Anwar, his body has returned to trembling.

“Mamah knows, you love your wife so much, but don't you also love mamah?? Don't you want to eat just for Mamah's sake?” tanya Bu Anita began to get frustrated.

“I also love Mamah very much, but Anjani has not forgiven me mah“ Anwar's tears come back on his cheeks.

“Anjani will forgive you nak“.

“But, the proof is that he hasn't returned Mamah“.

“He will come back if it's time, now eat first yes, look, your body is already skinny once nak“.

“How can I possibly eat?? While I don't know how my wife is?? Is he still alive?? Is he in pain?? I don't know Mamah at all, it's all my fault Mamah“ Anwar kept sobbing in his mother's arms.

“Yes!!! All this is wrong Anwar!” suddenly Beautiful came, and shouted at Anwar.

Anwar and Anita jumped, then looked at Beautiful who suddenly appeared behind the door.

“Iya, all this because of Brother Anwar, Brother Anwar who has made my brother suffer“ Indah again pointed at Anwar's face.

“Haring?? Didn't my son always make your brother happy??” Bu Anita is fiery.

“Now why is it all my son's fault?”.

“If Brother Anwar can take good care of Brother, Brother will not crash and disappear, if Brother exists then my mother will not be sick sick.“ Lovely no less fiery.

“You think only you and your mother lost Anjani?? You don't see my son is almost crazy for losing him, you don't see how many tears I shed, just because I wish he was back??” Bu Anita off control cursing Indah.

“Then why did Brother Anwar make my brother leave?? I have no one else but Brother, hiks“ Beautiful body shed, then he cried until sobbing.

“A I never made your Brother leave, I love him so much, so how could I make him go??” anwar's body was already shaking violently.

“Everything is wrong Brother Anwar!!” Beautifully shouted, stood up, then ran out the door.

“I mom, everything is my“ Anwar started skinning his finger.

“No boy, everything is not your fault, Lovely just origin talk, let's rest in your room“ Bu Anita guide her son to enter the room.

Arriving in the room, Anita ma'am sat her son's body on the edge of the bed, “Anwar sat first here yes, mamah want to go out first to take water“ Bu Anita passed out of Anwar's room.

“Look, everyone blames me for your departure, are you happy, hum??” Anwar spoke on the picture frame attached to the wall.

“Are you really not coming back, let's talk, we discuss all our problems until finished“ Anwar looked at the photo of his wife who was smiling.

“Are you really not going to talk??” suddenly Anwar grabbed a small vase of flowers that were on the nightstand, and threw it right on the wall next to a photo of his wife, Anwar took a shard of the vase and then sat it on his own hand, blood kept pouring out of his hands.

“Anwar!! why you son?” Bu Anita immediately entered the room, when she heard there was a commotion from her son's room, Anita immediately hugged her son tightly, crying.

“Anwar, sober son, Istighfar, you don't like this“ Bu Anita continues to cry while wiping her child's wounds with tissue, then grabbed the P3K box, and directly treat her child's wounds, after finishing bandaging Anwar's wounds, Anita tried to lay Anwar's body down, she looked at her son.

“Really, only Anjanikah can calm you down???” lirih Bu Anita asked herself.

“How can mommy help you son?? What should you do other than keep looking for it?” bu Anita's tears continued to flow, wetting her child's arm.

“Mamah, is Anjani really going to go forever???” suddenly Anwar woke up, and looked at his mother deeply.

“No, as you said, he will be back, so be patient, Anwar can you be patient again??” asked Anita while stroking her son's face.

“If I have patience will Anjani come back??” anwar's eyes were sad.

“Iya, of course“ replied bu Anita again reassured her son.

“Alright, I will be patient again waiting for him“ Anwar smiled meaningfully.

‘even just because you heard his name, you are instantly this strong, son, your love for him is amazing’.

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