WHEN LOVE IS TESTED
Bagas part 1

POV bagas

My name is Bagas, I'm the first of four children, my age is now stepping on the head of three, I work in a company that can be said to be quite famous, I know, I have been working for a long time where I work now. I'm also the backbone of my family, but I'm very happy to play my part as a crutch for my family.

I have an arrogant and ambitious Dad, and I was born to a very patient mother, but now for the last few years Mom has had a stroke, while my sisters, for some reason, with them, maybe because their lives have been a long time, they become very dependent on me. They just stay at home, without any intention of finding a job.

Being raised in a less harmonious family made me grow up to be a quiet, rude, cold, and a little arrogant child, while I was unable to say all my grievances to just anyone, I was only able to hide my every agony behind my cold face. I don't want people to make fun of my suffering all this time.

I realized, I was different ...

When in high school, the school held a camper activity, all students participated in this activity, including me. At that time, I was in a squad of four women and four men including me.

So far I feel like there's nothing wrong with me. A lot of women who claim to have a crush on me, while I don't want to respond to them at all, somehow but I feel uninterested in them. In school I was popular because of my good looks.

At my teenage years, many of my friends had lovers, they were seen often traveling together, studying together, and I also often saw my friends, doing juvenile delinquency, by sleeping with her lover, and I often saw my friends, or just kissing and hugging.

But strangely not with me, I was even happier when I was walking around with my male friends. At that time everything seemed very natural.

But, I realized when I saw a female friend of my team, who was peeing and asking in between, I was even more uninterested in women. Unlike when I saw my male friend who peed in front of me, my junior stiffened up.

I wondered to myself, what happened to me?? Am I in love with a man?? This is not true. This is clearly wrong.

I immediately dismissed all my circumstances by receiving the love of one of my underclassmen. And we had a relationship, as lovers, but unfortunately it didn't last long, because I really couldn't love women, my heart was frozen, my attitude was so rigid, my attitude gets colder when I'm with women, but strangely my attitude can be very warm when with men, especially when with men I like, my desire becomes more passionate. But as much as possible, I hid my disorder in everyone including my family.

Until when I got accepted to work for a company, I found the same person as myself, he was different because he loved me more, than the woman who surrounded him, he was very handsome, he was very good looking, and I am very able to understand my feelings. Maybe I'm in love with her.

I am so happy to spend my day with him. But, not with my family, they look very anxious because at my age who already deserves to hold a child, but I was never seen holding a woman.

“Female?? Who sir?” I wonder, I do not want to be married to a woman, I do not want to be separated from my lover.

“His name is Anjani, she is a good woman, because she is Hanjaya's rich son, you may know about Hanjaya because she is still our relative“ explained Mr.

“Bapak, Bagas does not want to get married, Bagas still wants to be alone“ I seem to whine at Mr. I really don't want to harm anyone, including Anjani, who I actually met when I was a kid.

“No rejection Bagas, I want you to marry him!!“ father, which frustrates me.

“But Father, I already have a lover here“ elakku, hope you will understand.

“Not Bagas, I want you to marry Anjani, come home next Monday, and we will immediately hold a proposal event, because everything has been arranged Anjani's aunt!!” exclaim the Father across there.

“Alright Father, Bagas will come home“ I replied weakly, how can I overcome all this, while I could not be honest with my family about my disorder.

Ah ... I'm dizzy!

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