WHEN LOVE IS TESTED
Happiest

The day changed too quickly, I still lived my unhealthy household with Bagas, My heart was empty, my soul was empty, but I still carried out my duties as a wife, without caring for Bagas.

Bagas still does not know if I already know the disease. I still faithfully prepared all the needs of my GAY husband, I prepared food for him, prepared clothes, and prepared everything as a normal wife.

Since our quarrel, Bagas has rarely met his male lover, and I have also seen his male lover holding a beautiful woman in his boarding house. But I don't care, I'm numb to Bagas, now I'm getting quieter, to get rid of my boredom, after homework is done, and Bagas goes to work, I often attend social events that are sometimes accompanied by neighbors, or I prefer to spend my time to go to the city park that has a large mosque, my soul is more peaceful there, he said, I limited my distance to my husband. I really don't like it much more. If I recall the reality I've seen.

“Hallo, Jani, where are you??” tanya Bagas by phone, she knows I am not home, because even though I hate her so much, I still ask her permission via chat when I want to get out of the house.

“I'm in the city park“ I replied flat.

“ya you have been waiting there, I picked you up ya“ bargained.

“No need, I can go home by myself“ I replied.

“Nothing, you wait yes, I'm on the way to there!“ exclaim Bagas while turning off his phone so I can't say anymore to refuse it.

I waited for Bagas in the city park, I sat in a chair facing the big mosque, in front of me there were many beautiful flowers, I breathed in the air, then took them out slowly. I circled my eyes, I saw in this place a lot of families were playing, for the first time I felt jealous of them, a pair of parents were guiding her baby walk, and for the first time I felt jealous, then I looked to the right, and I saw a parent who was teaching their child to ride a bicycle.

“Will I feel the warmth of being a parent?? Am I going to have a normal family??” I muttered without realizing it.

“Jan, sorry I lama“ reprimanded someone who made me shocked, I turned to the direction the sound came from, and Bagas was already standing right beside me.

“nothing,“I replied flat.

“Come we go home“ take me.

“Emmmhhh Jan, do you want to pray Maghrib first with me?? in the mosque” invited Bagas who obviously made me wide, I was happy, but I still hated it very much.

“Iya,“ I replied ketus, I like contracting my husband's style of speech, ketus and cold, as well as necessary.

Like a dream, I became a mother to my husband, in my last prostration, I recited a do'a-do'a that contained all my desires and prayers to God, it felt very strange, it was very strange, especially when I secured the entire do'a-do'a Bagas, I felt deeply moved.

When he finished, Bagas gave me his hand, I smiled a little, I grabbed his hand, and kissed him. Bagas smiled, then he rubbed my head. My chest is pounding, I did not expect this day to come, I did not expect much Bagas could love me, just that this activity was more than enough for me.

“Come home“ take me after we get out of the mosque.

“Jan, you want to go for a walk first??” tanya Bagas who made me very happy and instantly forgot all my hatred for her.

“Mau“ answered me with a smile and a nod of my head.

Bagas smiled gently at me, ah, it seems like a miracle is happening to me, I think it's a dream.

“Ya already yuk, we walk aja yes, we find a nice place“ invite Bagas while grasping my fingers, I just follow the footsteps of Bagas.

For the first time during our marriage, we went for a walk together hand in hand, even I forgot if I was angry with my husband, along the way, there were a lot of florists. I glanced at the beautiful flowers, unknowingly Bagas noticed me, then Bagas stopped at one of the florists and bought a sprig of white lilies, then gave them to me.

“This makes you“ Bagas thrust the flowers he just bought to me.

“Makasih“ I received the flowers with a smile sumringah.

“Iya, let's walk again“ take him.

I continued walking, until a few minutes later we arrived at a sizable cafe, Bagas invited me into it, I did not refuse it, I just continued to follow in Bagas footprints only.

Bagas led me to sit on a chair, and let me sit down worthy of his princess, “Awhile, this must be a dream right??” I murmured in my heart.

“Enter think to go

And leave you alone

I wanted to get here

Try to escape from reality

But I can't be far.

Away .. from you

I can't ... far ...

Away from you

Then want something else??

If we can't understand each other

How long does it last like this**??

Two hearts mixed with emotion

Back to ref

Patience, I try to be patient

Conscious, conscious, we should be aware

You and I are created, not separated

Back to ref

“Jan, let's eat first!“ yelling Bagas surprised me.

“Oh yes,“ I replied.

Finally we ate together, in a romantic cafe, accompanied by a melodious singer, today I am very happy.

“Jan, can I talk??” ask Bagas after our meal session is over.

“Bby, what do you want to say??” my many.

“Jan, i .........”.

Serialize.................

I thought Bagas would say what, huh???

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