WHEN LOVE IS TESTED
Obviousness

“Mas Bagas ... “

When my knees were weak, my chest tightened, I retreated slowly and walked quickly out of this mess, I was not strong. I really can't see what my husband has done. I saw Bagas doing a husband and wife relationship with his male friend, they were struggling under the blanket without a single shirt. So Bagas was a GAY man all along.

Upon arrival at my boarding house I vomited, I was disgusted by my husband's behavior, I continued to spit out everything in my stomach when it came to my husband's face. So this is the reason Bagas couldn't accept me as his wife?? Because she loves her lover?? And her lover was a man?? So my rival is a man?? This is also the reason Bagas does not like to accompany me every night?? I really do not believe in the things that happen to me now, why God tests me so hard. I am so tired, God.

I laid my body on the bed, how I wanted to cry all my might, but strangely I couldn't do it. I can only massage my chest that is rumbling, I don't know what to do now?? Should I ask for separation from my husband?? No. gabe.

I don't want to do it, every disease has a cure. Do I have to tell this truth to her family?? No. gabe. This is my husband's disgrace, my disgrace too, I can't possibly say it to anyone, I should be able to keep the disgrace in my household.

But now that I hate my husband so much, I can't afford to meet him, but even leaving home isn't the right answer. I have to hold on. Once again I force my soul to be patient.

Today I lost my mood to do anything. I just fell silent, to drive away the saturation, I turned on the tv, and started watching, but I don't know what I'm watching, my vision is hollow, like my soul.

Bagas came home, but I didn't want to look at him, I was still fed up with his character. He looks at me who is engrossed in the tv show. Then she went to take a shower, maybe she was exhausted from serving her male boyfriend. 

I really hate him now. After the bath, he headed for the dining room, maybe he was hungry, because his energy was exhausted to make love to a fellow-sex creature. I really want to vomit again.

“Jan, are you not cooking??” he asked, I don't want to answer, I know it's a sin, whatever it is, he's still my husband, my priest, but my disappointment now, is greater than my respect for him.

After waiting for an answer that I did not give, Bagas finally went out of the house, maybe he would buy food outside, I just let him go, I kept staring at the tv screen that I did not actually watch. Bagas soon returned home and took two packs of food.

“Jan, let's eat“ Invite him, I still don't budge, I still don't want to answer.

There was a disappointed look on my husband's handsome face, when I never answered his question.

She ended up eating alone, without taking me again. After eating, he went straight into the room without asking me anything more. I snorted in annoyance, I really didn't want to see his face. I decided to sleep in the tv room. I walked into the room, I saw Bagas already sleeping on his back, I looked at him with annoyance, slowly I took a blanket and pillow and then came out of this room.

“Where are you going?” suddenly Bagas opened his eyes and clasped my hand tightly, until I grimaced in pain.

“Lease!!!“ I let go of Bagas' rough hands, I felt disgusted when I came into contact with this demon slave.

“Why you??” he asked, for the first time, my husband asked me, my little heart was very happy, but the shadow of Bagas' affair with his male friend, made me sober up and straight out of the room.

I put my body on the carpet in front of the tv, my body will definitely hurt all tomorrow, but I don't care. I closed my eyes until I fell asleep on my own.

To the next day, I woke up at dawn, but strangely now I woke up in the room, on my bed, when I remember very well, last night I slept in front of the tv. Maybe Bagas moved me, but now Bagas is not beside me, I don't care, I get out of bed and clean up, to immediately perform dawn prayers, I ask for guidance to the almighty, what should I do now??I am deeply concerned and doubtful.

I did not cook, nor did I prepare everything for Bagas, I let it go, to avoid it, I decided to run in the morning, so that all my hateful aura was gone from my body.

After the morning run I went home, after entering the house,

The deg!!

After I was in the room, Bagas suddenly entered the inner room into a fiery frenzy.

“Anjani!!! What the fuck??!!! Flamming the door in front of the guest casually, you think this house is your own home?? Yes!!!” hardik Bagas surprised me.

Crazy husband!! How dare he yell at me for the sake of that man.

Suddenly Bagas pulled my arm, and grabbed it firmly.

“You want what huh??? You want to separate from me?? Yes??!!!!!” Bagas is still fiery.

I silently looked at him, I didn't want to make a decision on the subject of emotions.

“You why the hell?? I ask you from yesterday never answered, even you dare to sleep apart from me“ Bagas voice starts low, but I still do not want to talk. I should have been angry, but I still didn't have the courage to say anything.

“I asked, you why Anjani!!!! ANSWER!” Bagas started raising his voice again.

“I have to answer what??” I replied weakly, I no longer had the strength to speak. My heart aches, must continue to accept this reality.

“You answer you why??” ask again.

“I'm fine” I replied as I walked out of the room, but Bagas swiftly locked the room, holding my hand.

“Don't let me Anjani“ as soon as I'm stunned, from the beginning of marriage, I'd really like to hear my husband's voice more than 'Hem, and yes'. But now I even hate his voice.

“You ever loved me??” my question, which made him instantly speechless.

“Can't you answer??? If you think all this time my attitude has shown me to love you so much, then the answer is no, I did everything just because of my obligation as a wife, if you think I sincerely run this marriage, so the answer is no, I was forced to marry you Mas, you say you have a boyfriend that you love so much?? I'm the same, I also have a lover that I love so much and can't forget, you think all of this is easy for me???” obviously I've been blowing all my junk all this time.

“You may reveal all your unek-unties Jan, I will accept“ Bagas bow his head.

“For so long, I've been trying to be the best wife for you, but if all my sacrifices mean nothing to you, then I can't do anything else, I saw there was a sad murat on Bagas' face, his eyes began to turn red.

“Gas, Bagas ..” I have not finished with all my junk, there is a sound of people calling Bagas, I forget, because of the fun of arguing, we have left my husband's special guest outside.

“Temen you called“ I said as I passed open the room door and went straight into the bathroom. I really hate this shit. Hugely.

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