How Will You Say Goodbye?
SEASON II - Strange feeling

"Just go in, Sa!" joana said as her practice room door was knocked from outside. He thought Sasa would tell the list of patients who will do the therapy today. Joana who was busy with her writing on a piece of paper ignored the person who had just entered her room, because she thought it was Sasa the Assistant.

"Just put the data on the table, Sa!" joana's word without even glancing forward, she continued to write using a bolpoint in her own notebook.

"Jo, are you too busy to see that you can't?"

Joana was slightly aghast at the sound, she turned her head to look at the person standing in front of her. The man smiled as he stared at Joana.

"Ammar? Why you-"

"Why am I here?" said Ammar continued the sentence Joana who deliberately cut. "I will continue my therapy today" he continued.

"Didn't Sasa say if his schedule was pushed back? As a result of my practice of two days off at that time, all the schedulles got messy."

Ammar just shook his head slowly.

"You came early in the morning, I thought Sasa was knocking on the door."

Ammar smiles. "Even Sasa hasn't come yet, huh? Sorry if I came to the side. Can I sit down now?"

"Ah, uh.ya of course. Please." Joana.

Today Joana came early because due to Doni's nagging the other day, she had to do breakfast with the family. As a result, he so decided to the practice after breakfast, even Sasa who usually has come, had not arrived when Joana entered his room. He did not expect, Ammar turned out to be his first patient this morning.

Ammar was sitting right in front of Joana, just a rectangular table blocking the distance between them.

"It's not usual for Sasa to forget to give information to patients." murmured Joana.

"Why Jo?" ask Ammar who accidentally heard Joana muttering.

Joana immediately shook her head quickly. "No. It's okay," he said. "Alright, now we start your therapy." For some reason since Ammar asked yesterday when they were walking to the beach, Joana felt something strange from Ammar's gaze on him. Or is it just his feelings? But Joana is very sensitive and her profession demands that she be able to read someone's movements. Was Joana making the wrong prediction this time?

Ammar began to continue the story of his past that Joana did not know. Especially the dark time he passed after separating from Kinan. Of course it was done as a form of treatment that he did. Joana's a good listener, that's her job. Not infrequently, Joana also threw questions to Ammar. Sometimes it leads to factors that trigger the man's psychic health.

"Forgetting your past is impossible, you don't have to forget it. Your job now is to stimulate your mind in a positive direction. Think good. Keep a good lifestyle. It all depends on your efforts.

Ammar nodded at the statement Joana gave.

"That's good. It can encourage you to think that you still deserve to live well. Don't forget your original goals, your life visions that have kept you alive to this day." Joana looked seriously at Ammar, distracting herself from the notes she had scribbled on her paper.

"Wishon-mission?"

"Yes, you must have it. For example, what can make you strong to this day? Surely the bad past won't kill you, will it? You just need to be strong to face it and remember what your strengths are. Kids, for example."

"My kids.. Yes, I've been disappointed too many times lately" said Ammar lethargic.

"Well, don't remember the bad ones but you have to remember the good ones, you may have let them down, you might have let them down, but you can make the race so you're better so as not to make them more disappointed."

"Yes that's right. My children should not be disappointed because of me.

"How's your new business?"

"So far it's been pretty good.."

"good. That could be your goal too. Grow up well. I'm sure there's still a lot of positive things you can do."

"I could be better. Thank you, Jo. You keep my mind up and open."

"No problem. That's my job." Joana smiled knot. He closed his notes.

"Getter.."

"Yes?" Ammar looked at Joana who had seen him fixed.

"You've forgiven you, haven't you?"

"I'm sure Kinan must have forgiven your mistake. Kinan was also my patient. I completely understand the tangled thread that had happened in your Household." Joana stood before Ammar who was still sitting, he leaned his waist on the lip of the table.

There is not a single word that comes out of Ammar's mouth now, it is like diving into the meaning of Joana's words. Joana sighed, then she spoke again.

"Because Kinan has forgiven you. Now it's your turn to forgive yourself." Joana patted Ammar on the shoulder several times. "I feel, all your misfortune is not because you lament fate anymore, but because you yourself have not forgiven your mistakes. Make peace with yourself." Joana stared fixedly at the owner of the eyes with the black bead.

At the same time, Ammar seemed to be immersed in Joana's attitude and treatment. Joana's words were ringing in her head. He must be at peace with himself. Forgive himself and forget the mistake he made on Kinan, which made him feel very sorry. That's what Ammar should do. Ammar was stirred up as a result of Joana's speech, he was like a wave that caused him to realize that everything had passed. Everything has changed and everyone has forgiven him, including Kinan. Then what about himself who was deeply sorry for his sin that had abandoned Kinan? Yes, Ammar has not forgiven himself, he has not made peace with himself who is very willing to take part in destroying Kinan's life.

"What should I do?" said Ammar, suddenly the view of Ammar looks empty in the eyes of Joana.

Joana patted Ammar's back, hoping to wake him up from the situation he believed Ammar had just been stimulated by his speech.

"You have to get better and never repeat your mistakes again" Joana said.

Immediately Ammar realized, it was as if he had just experienced a sudden inner upheaval. Ammar looked at Joana. Joana frowned in surprise to see the gaze of Ammar who was now different again.

"Jo, did you hypnotize me?" tanyanya and Joana were laughing at that moment as well.

Joana shook her head repeatedly due to Ammar's question which she found ridiculous.

"Jo, I'm serious. Do you also have the ability to hypnotize people?"

Again, Joana chuckled even now she was holding her stomach sangking feel funny because of Ammar's speech.

"Geez, you're all there." said Joana, chuckling, but then the laughter disappeared as she looked at Ammar's serious face without any intention of following her loud laughter.

"I'm sorry" said Joana as she cleared her throat to stop her own absurdity.

"What's wrong. I don't care if it's your hypnotic science or not, but thank you, Jo! I'll remember all of your words. I will get better and will not repeat the same mistakes again." he explained.

"I'm glad you understand what I mean. It seems you don't need anti-depressants anymore. Looks like you're cured." Joana smiles.

"Don't make fun of me!" Ammar stood up from his seat, now he stood right in front of Joana and Joana was silent for a moment.

"I-I didn't mean to make fun of you." Kill Joana, she turned her face away because Ammar was looking at her at close range. Joana forgot to change position, she was still standing leaning against the desk right in front of Ammar. Now Ammar stood up and they were very close.

Ammar stared intensely at Joana. Why is it that near Joana he can feel like this. Like hypnotic and comfortable? Is she comfortable with this girl?

"Jo, is that psychopath still bothering you?" asked Ammar, his gaze did not change in the slightest to make Joana's heart suddenly race quickly. Especially this time Ammar asked about his personal problems.

"N-no.." Joana became stammered.

"Good."

"Hmmm.."

"Can you take care of yourself?" ask Ammar and the question was successful to make Joana gawk. Why should Ammar ask him for help?

"Surely, I-I'll keep in-my self." she replied.

Ammar chuckled for the first time, but he did not show that expression.

"Why?" joana asked, now he was staring at Ammar's face because he felt strange with Ammar's hardness.

"Your face is red" he said, then Ammar pushed the chair behind him and rushed out of the room, leaving Joana riveted by his words.

Joana reflexively held both of her own cheeks, "Is my face flushed?" he muttered with a flabbergasted expression.

The door suddenly opened again, making Joana stare there.

"I'm home. Take care of yourself" said Ammar, closing the door to Joana's room. Joana closed her eyes, for the first time she cursed herself. Why did he have to do that in front of Ammar? A strange feeling began to crawl his mind and might have already descended into his heart? I don't know..

...Seriate......