How Will You Say Goodbye?
The Mental Hospital

Rey's car entered a traffic jam. Sometimes the car stopped following the flow of the road in front of him. Hustle and bustle of vehicles accompanied Rey's journey to the hospital informed by Bi Minah earlier.

After a while, Rey arrived at her destination. The sun began to rise above the head. Without feeling Rey had been here and there and now it was noon. Rey only hopes Kinan's husband has returned to his residence, so that Rey can find Kinan and visit without the man.

Rey asked the nurse who was on guard about the patient who was likely to be hospitalized.

"Patient named Kinanty there are some Mas. can be more specific identity? ask the nurse.

"emm, he just got in today!" Rey said because she did not know the full name of Kinanty.

The nurse nodded and looked at the list on her computer screen.

"His mask can enter the Orchid room. There's the floor." Said the nurse as she pointed at the hospital's plan board.

"Thank you" Rey walked quickly to find the room in the floor plan. After understanding, he went to the room.

Not long ago and not so difficult, the room has been seen in Rey's eyes. A fairly large room like the Hall. There are many beds that are only blocked by curtain fabrics as a barrier. It looks like a hospital room in general. It was like a third-grade room but this was with a different atmosphere.

If the hospital is ordinary, the room will be filled by people who are sick on his body, but here it seems like those who are treated are grouped. Based on almost the same conditions, then used as one room.

Unlike in Rey's shadow, Kinan will be put in a stuffy room that only Kinan inhabited himself and then like imprisoned. Differ. Here Rey sees patients as being at home. Some even tell each other stories.

Maybe what Rey has in mind is in another room, a different room to be occupied by people with psychic conditions and excessive emotions. I don't know. Rey doesn't want to know that. The most important thing right now is that Kinan and Kinan are not like that, so Kinan is positioned in a room that looks calm like Rey's current eyes.

Rey combed the parts of the room to the corner. It has passed through Kinan. But Rey immediately realized Kinan's existence spontaneously, at that time he retreated and found Kinan was sitting hugging his knees which he bent on the patient's bed. Empty views. He was wearing the same clothes as the other patients.

Rey uncovers a curtain cloth that slightly covers the place where Kinan was treated.

"Kinan?" Rey hesitantly uttered for the first time the name of the girl she had ruined her life.

Kinan looked towards the source of the voice. He saw Rey standing in front of him.

"You?" Kinan asked in a surprised tone. He frowned.

"Lo inget me?" Said Rey trying to smile even though somehow her heart was sliced to see Kinan's current condition.

Kinan nodded.

"I remember you saved me that day!"

"Time on the railroad tracks!" keep Kinan again.

Rey looked at Kinan in disbelief, the only thing that Kinan remembered was about Rey saving him back then.

"No, I'm not the one who saved you, but I'm the one who plunged you into suffering!" Lirih Inner Rey spoke.

"Lo remember that?" Rey tries to ask just what Kinan is focused on.

Kinan nodded slowly, his eyes twinkling at Rey.

"I'm, I'm confused."

"Why?" Rey stepped closer towards Kinan. I want Rey to hold this girl. No, Kinan is not the girl but the woman who is the wife of someone else. Rey rubbed her face to neutralize her nervousness.

"The man, who claimed to be my husband. He said I tried to kill myself to the doctor, so he put me here. That's why." Kinan.

"Is that so?" Rey tried asking to ascertain what Kinan really felt.

"No. I told the doctor I never did that. If it's on the train tracks, I didn't accidentally. Not knowing!" Kinan said innocently.

"You know, I didn't kill myself at the time!" Kinan suddenly cried.

"Hey, yes I know you don't intend to kill yourself. Don't cry!" Rey panicked to see Kinan crying in front of her.

"I told him the same. But--" Kinan's speech was interrupted. He looked at his wrist. Rey was the same, looking where Kinan's eyes were now looking. Rey was wide-eyed to see like a scar or a stitch right in the vein Kinan.

"that-that"

"yes, this is proof that I tried to kill myself. As the man said" Kinan said with a bitter smile. She did not want to mention Ammar as her husband.

Rey wiped away the traces of tears Kinan cheeked with his thumb. I don't know where the courage is that he can do that. Rey just couldn't bear to see Kinan cry like that. His suffering and tears are Rey's biggest responsibility at the moment. That was what Rey felt in her turbulent mind.

Then Rey cupped both of Kinan's cheeks.

"Lo don't be confused and sad anymore, Lo must be sure you will remember everything and after that, you will know who has made you become like this!" Rey.

Again, for some reason his heart seemed to be slipping with his own words. Rey feels really naive now, clearly she knows who the source of Kinan's suffering is. It was himself.

"Lo be patient. I don't have the power to get out of here. After I saw it, things were pretty good! Hopefully you can recover by being treated here." Connect Rey.

Unexpectedly, Rey's response even made Kinan hope for her. In Kinan's words, Rey is not only his helper but Rey seems to understand Kinan's feelings and want to listen to Kinan's complaints.

Not like Ammar. Confessing to the husband but never heard Kinan's opinion, so Kinan was silent in front of Ammar, and Ammar never asked what Kinan felt.

Ammar instead spoke to the woman named Shirly, as if Kinan was a statue that could not hear the words of those who intended to enter Kinan into this mental hospital. And the man obeyed Shirly without asking Kinan for his opinion. Though Kinan is not a person with mental disorders who can not argue. But it seems Ammar thinks so.

Rey had just pulled her hand from Kinan's face but Kinan instead scattered in Rey's field chest. Hugging her accompanied by a sobbing Kinan.

deg....!

Rey's heart instantly seemed to be working twice as fast. Whatisthis? Rey held back her blood-like swish that was pumped as Kinan hugged her.

At first Rey was so eager to hold this woman but now Kinan was the one who even hugged her so tightly.

"Thank you. I don't even think I said that word from the beginning you helped me!" Said Kinan who was in Rey's chest. Rey was still standing looking at feeling Kinan's sudden embrace.

Rey digested Kinan's words on the verge of her mind awareness which was like flying somewhere. Rey couldn't answer Kinan, she just nodded her head in understanding.

"I'm scared!" Kinan. He tightens his arms around Rey 'the human savior'.

"Fear why?" Rey's voice has now become soft as if bewitched by Kinan. He also brushed Kinan's hair.

"I'm scared because I don't have anyone. Even claiming to be my husband doesn't seem to understand my feelings." Kinan said on the sidelines of his embrace that he had not yet let go, getting more comfortable with the elusan from Rey's hand on his head.

Rey took a deep breath while exhaling it. He took off Kinan's embrace to look at Kinan's face.

"Lo don't be afraid, there I am! I promise I will often see and see you here and I will try to understand your feelings!" Said Rey.

Kinan looked up at Rey's hazel bead. Locking the eyes as if hypnotizing the owner of the eye.

"You promise me?" Kinan's words seemed to place great hopes on Rey. His eyes occasionally flickered waiting for Rey's reply.

Rey nodded. He is anxious to see Kinan's behavior. A little frustrated when his wild mind works and reminds him of a beautiful night for him but bad for Kinan.

"Why are you good with me?" Kinan asked disperse Rey's short daydream.

Rey lowered her head to arrange the right words for him to say to Kinan. He does not want to lie but it is impossible to be honest if he feels guilty to Kinan.

"Gu-gue just, just-"

"What's free?"

"Why do I want you to be happy from that day on!" Rey said honestly. Rey meant 'that day' was the day she took Kinan's chastity. Yes Rey wants to make Kinan happy when he has realized his mistake. But he did not expect it turned out that his mistake was not only harassing Kinan but now worse than that.

Kinan responded to Rey with a smile. For Kinan 'That day' was the day Rey had saved her life on the railroad tracks.

Both of them were silent with their own thoughts.

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