How Will You Say Goodbye?
Kinant Decree

"Pa! just give me some more time to get sorry from Kinan!" Rey had just opened the door of her Papa's study and immediately expressed her wish, the middle-aged man looked up to see the child looming before him. Slightly clucked because his son who visited the office in the morning only to discuss the problems that he had considered complete yesterday afternoon.

"You still haven't given up?" ask the father indifferently.

"I'll try it again Pa, even if I have to repeatedly tid-"

The man raises his hand as the code for Rey to stop talking again and Rey's speech stops. Rey snorted in annoyance.

"Well, Papa will give you some more time before you return to this company. But remember, even if this time you don't get an apology from the girl, you have to agree to papa's decision!"

Rey nodded.

"If you don't insist on feelings, I agree!" Rey said so to warning if only her father had the intention to tell her to marry someone else someday.

Rey has a stand. So even now, he couldn't possibly let Kinan just walk away from his life. But, he also has no spirit anymore if the apology from Kinan he did not get, he resigned if he had to be a lackey in his own father's company. But before that, he must hear Kinan's next life decisions and choices.

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After his departure from his Papa's office, Rey heads to Desi's home address. He believes Kinan is still there, if Kinan is not there, Rey must go to Ammar's house too even though the decision will make Ammar angry, especially if it turns out Kinan has told Ammar about what he did to Kinan in the past. Rey doesn't care, for her now the most important thing is Kinan. It doesn't matter if Kinan hates her, but Rey wants to convince Kinan many more times to apologize, especially convincing Kinan not to go back to Ammar. That guy, always pissed Rey off. I don't know why.

Rey hit the steering wheel in front of him several times when he had not yet gone down the car to get into the Desi residence.

"You want to be a coward how many times, Rey?" Ask yourself.

After neutralizing the feeling and his heart was back in motion, Rey decided to get up and head to the main door of the house.

The door of the house opened after Rey knocked it several times.

"Who?" Ask a girl Rey believes to be named Desi as Kevin told her the other day. Desi looked at Rey with a stunned look full of admiration, but her jutek aura remained emanated. It seems that this girl is not working today, but Rey hopes Kinan will open the door for her.

"Can I see Kinan?"

"Kinan?" Desi looked at Rey in surprise, like judging the young man's appearance from head to toe, then focused back on the young man's face again.

"Just a second!" He said after seeing Rey nod. Desi entered his house.

Shortly, Desi returns to Rey.

"You don't want to see me! you're told to go home!"

"Gue needs to see Kinan, I beg you to help me!" Rey unites her fingers as a form of plea. His whole life even just this time he did that in front of a girl he had only met once. Lowering her self-esteem is usually the girls who beg her even just for her lyrics.

"Hmm who the hell is that? I never knew Kinan had an acquaintance like you?" Desi asked, still with a probing look. Desi tapped her index finger on her own chin.

"Gu-gue.., hmm, gini aja deh, if you can persuade Kinan to meet me now, I'll-"

"What sack? You want to bribe him?" The voice stopped Rey's words. Rey was stunned for a few seconds and became focused on the figure that had just voiced to her.

"Kinan?" Rey stared at Kinan with a twinkle, her gaze filled with longing mixed with guilt.

Kinan was unwilling to meet Rey at first, but his conscience always overcame logic. However, Kinan does not want Desi to know what the problem is between him and Rey. Kinan still kept it a secret from everyone. Let it be Rey's disgrace and her disgrace that only the two of them know.

Kinan also did not intend to report Rey to the police, because Kinan did not want to be associated with the darkest period again, did not want the time to be brought back and he remembered it, Kinan must keep his sane current.

Trying to forget, even though you never can. Hate it? he hated this guy in front of him. But he also remembers Rey's kindness, not just her filthy deeds. Regardless of Rey doing that kindness on what basis, Kinan did not want to think about it.

"What do you want?" Ask Kinan indifferently.

"I want us to talk alone!" Rey glanced at Desi who was still silent in her place.

"Can?" Rey asked again, emphasizing the word before Desi as Desi remained motionless.

Desi clucked and finally stepped away from the front of the two men.

"I went to the stall to get some sugar, Ki!" Desi said before leaving the terrace with her jutek gaze staring at Rey. Rey who was careless, responded with a flat expression.

As far as Desi was concerned, there remained the two of them sitting side by side in the cool patio chair, only blocked by the table between the two of them.

"Ki, I'm here for-"

"If you won't forgive me, it's entirely your right, Ki! I also realized that my mistake was fatal and too big!"

"Yes, if you're done please go home!" Remove Kinan, he wants to get out of his sitting position.

"Wait, Ki!" Prevent Rey.

"May I know what your next plan is after this?"

"meaning?" Kinan looked at Rey confusedly.

"Are you going to come back with your husband after everything that happened?" rey's eyes were full of hope. Their eyes met for a while before Kinan finally regained his senses.

"That's none of your business! But if you want to know, I'll tell him!"

Rey was a little hit with a Kinan ketus sound that he never got all this time, but back again it was all because of his mistakes as well.

"Me and Mas Ammar, well, of course we'll get back together!" Obviously Kinan while shaking off the forced-looking smile.

"Kinan's.." Rey is flabbergasted to hear Kinan's decision. His voice sounded disappointed, his heart was like it was torn to shreds.

"Why? I'm his wife and he's my husband, we're not divorced and I think it's natural that we go back to building a household and start things off in a better way than before!" Kinan Firm. Now he stood his back to Rey who was still sitting. Kinan was actually heavy to say something that did not match his heart.

"I appreciate your decision if you still hate me and can't forgive me. But, if you go back to her-" Rey is downcast and can't continue her sentence, she dissolves in her feelings for a moment. Massaging his temples, holding back anger and sadness that mixed into one.

Kinan folded his hands in front of his chest. His eyes straight ahead. Trying to hold back the feelings he had. It is desirable that he take refuge in the arms of the man now sitting behind him, but the logic says that the man is not a shelter but a deep abyss, which can drown him.

Kinan let out a slow breath, noticing Rey who was silent and not continuing his words. They dissolve in their own feelings, fighting between logic and the heart.

"I want to beg you not to go back to him, but I don't think I'm valuable enough to you, then my wish will only be considered the wind!" Rey got up and stood behind Kinan. He wanted to touch Kinan's shoulder, but he humbled it.

"All right, all decisions are entirely yours. I wish you the best. May you be happy!"

"Hmm" That was all I could say, he held back the sobs that were about to explode.

"May I ask you one thing?"

Kinan nodded.

"Is the baby you're carrying my flesh blood?"

Kinan was powerless to say yes, but again his mind was at war to answer Rey's question. At last he just shook his head without looking at Rey at all.

Rey nodded, though Kinan did not see it.

"I hope you're happy with your decision, Kinan!"

Kinan nodded again. His voice choked, if he spoke just a little, then it was certain that his water that was riverbed would soon go down in succession at this time as well.

"One more thing, what I've been doing for you is my true feelings, whatever if you think it's a form of responsibility or whatever. I'm sorry, Kinan.." Rey left the Desi residence without looking back to see Kinan. Because he didn't want Kinan to see her shed tears.

Kinan stared at Rey's departure in tears. His tears that he had been holding back had collapsed flooding his cheeks when Rey's car had just disappeared from his sight. He sobbed alone, there was a feeling of regret and longing that was holding him back.

"If only I could, I would forgive you. Because despite your mistakes, you are the one I love" Inner Kinan said softly.

Rey left the Desi residence with an inexplicable feeling. Rey wants to be angry at Kinan for his decision to accept Ammar back. Rey regrets everything she did to Kinan, but why can't Kinan accept her like Ammar. Although Rey admitted that her mistake was indeed very difficult for Kinan, but could not the woman see her sincerity all along? His anger, regret and love are like being left behind in the same person, Kinanty.

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