How Will You Say Goodbye?
A difficult choice

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This morning Kinan had to wake up in an uncomfortable body condition. How not, besides his limp body like boneless, his mind was mixed with chaos.

After leaving Rey's ward yesterday, Kinan brought the rest of his feelings back to Desi's house. Not to mention he thought about Ammar and the solution that Ammar had given.

Honestly, Kinan did not want to bother about the solution from Ammar because he would still refuse even though Ammar would force him. But, still all the words of Ammar yesterday made Kinan think hard about the man's conscience.

"I can't choose to live with someone who doesn't have a conscience like him." Kinan Murmuring.

"But I can't be with Mas Rey either!"

Kinan seemed too afraid to live with those two people. Each has a different hard nature. Ammar who does not accept rejection and always intimidates. Rey is stubborn and uncontrollable.

Ammar often did not ask for his opinion, the man always acted as if he was the one whom Kinan had to obey. Kinan started to remember it now.

"Your new house is ready. Let's go over there!"

His words should not be so, Ammar should ask the opinion of Kinan first, want or not Kinan live in a new house that he has prepared. It was not sudden to ask Kinan to come there and live there without respecting Kinan's decision.

Kinan has also never said to forgive Ammar, for everything Ammar did until Kinan had to become an RSJ alumni. Or did Ammar never apologize to Kinan? Wait, Kinan seemed to be remembering her again. Well, after he realized Ammar never said an apology. Ammar immediately asked him to occupy a new house if indeed he did not feel at home to stay with Latifa. Ammar said he would forget everything that happened, close his eyes and try to start everything from scratch. As if here it is still Kinan who has a lot of mistakes against Ammar.

Ah, the small sentences of Ammar that seem friendly but actually too set Kinan.

"Sit down!" Ammar.

Sounds simple. But therein lies his intimidation of Kinan. It was Kinan who had invited him to sit. Even Ammar went into Desi's house before Kinan invited him. Indeed, Ammar never appreciated Kinan even from small things. Ammar's smile that seemed loving, was actually like a calm lake that could not be measured depth. Whether there was anything in there, Kinan could not even explain it.

Now Kinan also remembered the incident that was very draining of his feelings at that time.

"No need, what I saw was already an accurate explanation!" ammar's speech, which did not want to listen to Kinan's explanation at that time, was always ringing even in the conditions when Kinan was not remembering anything, because those words were often heard in Kinan's mind and often flashed in his dreams.

For some reason Ammar behaved so, perhaps because he was used to seeing Kinan as the person he had told him to when at home. Ammar did not see Kinan as a wife figure, he had seen Kinan as a messenger since the beginning of Kinan lived in the big house. That is why, although Ammar actually never said Kinan as a maid, but the nature of Kinan in the eyes of the man was indeed up to that extent.

Kinan wanted to choose, of course Kinan wanted to live with the person he loved, Reyland.

Rey's attitude was inversely proportional to Ammar. Rey is gentle and always appreciates Kinan's decision. As Kinan has yet to forgive Rey, the young man continues to apologize without intimidating her. He appreciated Kinan who had hated him, even offering friendship as a middle ground between them. Although Kinan certainly can not accept it because it remembers the mistake Rey made. It seemed, for now Kinan's heart was indeed unable to forgive. I don't know, maybe only time will tell.

Even though Rey said all her attitude so far was the true form of her feelings, but still Kinan could not convince himself that Rey had hurt. The woman was very disappointed. Perhaps true, only time can take over and prove whether or not feelings have surfaced.

Unable to decide anymore and dizzy began to crawl his head, Kinan also chose to take action. The only thing he can do. Seek help. Help to avoid Ammar and Rey. He didn't want to meet the two for now. He needs to be separated from Ammar as soon as possible, that's his decision.

Kinan rubbed his face. Riled up, that's how he felt. He glanced at Desi beside him who was still asleep. It's too early to wake up in the morning. Then it's appropriate if Desi has not been awake and does not realize if Kinan has been awake and was daydreaming.

Kinan scanned the room he was in, looking for something. Kinan looked at the bag that Desi had borrowed. The bag he used when he met Rey at his apartment. He picked up the bag which was on the back hanger of the room door, after which he pulled something from it. A namecard belonging to the man he accidentally met in the park on the same day.

"Ardi Wicaksana" Kinan read the name listed there. His personal number he could call. Somehow his feelings lead him to contact Ardi sometime. And maybe that time was today. Ardi's gonna help him out of all this. Is Kinan going to believe this guy? of course not. Kinan began to think about it over and over again, he was surprised that Ardi was the one who reached out to help him.

A few days ago, when Kinan met her at the park. He offers help and inexplicably says that he knows about Kinan's problems.

Kinan had wondered why the man wanted to help him. The answer is only one, because Ardi wants Kinan to get the best. Of course Kinan was getting confused.

"Why do you want to help me? I don't know you!" Ask Kinan at that time.

"I want the best for you, Miss. Even if you have a grudge, I'll help!" Said at that time.

At that moment, Kinan did feel very angry at Rey after coming home from his apartment and knowing all the truth.

"If you have a grudge with this man, I will help you to avenge him!" Said Ardi again when he saw Kinan was thinking about something. His face grinned as he showed the screen of his phone which turned out to be a photo of Rey.

Of course Kinan was surprised. Kinan was angry with Rey, but of course he did not hold a grudge to be retaliated as Ardi said. Does Kinan have to take revenge for what Rey did to him? Kinan doesn't know either.

"Think about Miss, and if you need help with that, call me right away!" Ardi said at the end of their meeting that day.

Kinan thought, if this man named Ardi Wicaksana also had a grudge against Rey, so he wanted to work with Kinan to avenge it. Despite everything, Ardi looks good and not like a criminal. Kinan could judge it from the first sight. So Kinan decided to believe it, but Ardi's words as if the man was also the same as Kinan, Ardi was also a victim of Rey's past actions. That's what Kinan expected.

"I have to ask for his help." The only option Kinan had. Kinan can't run anymore. First, he did not have enough money to go far. Second, the condition of his body is not possible. Third, even if he had money and was in good health, he could not escape the reach of Ammar again. Ammar once said that he would do what he believed, then Kinan could make sure if an ambitious person like Ammar would continue to look for him to the ends of the world.

Kinan must seek refuge. Being at Desi's house was a wrong decision, Ammar would continue to meet and force her to come with him, while Kinan would no longer. Kinan had to be separated from her. Immediately.

Let Kinan take advantage of Ardi who offers him help, if indeed the middle-aged man has a grudge against Rey, Kinan will try to help her.

Kinan would try to get this bad feeling out of his heart. But before that, of course, he will persuade Ardi first not to take revenge that is too far off if only it could. I don't know, Kinan seems resigned, his mind is very upset at this time and Kinan will think about it again later. What he now thinks is that he must meet Ardi and negotiate first what Ardi has planned. If that was possible, then even Kinan would take this opportunity. This is a difficult choice for him, he must put aside his feelings first to save the child he conceived from Ammar while avoiding Rey somehow to get to when.

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