How Will You Say Goodbye?
Contain?

Shirly enters Ammar's house as usual. He was surprised to find Kinan who was already sitting staring at him sharply. He was suddenly nervous but quickly put on an ordinary expression.

"Shirly, do you know why I got out of this house that afternoon?" Ask Kinan in a firm voice.

"You mean?" Shirly acted stupid.

"Yes, I remember when I ate your cake, I was still at home! I'm not going anywhere, how can I go home the next day and it's like this. You know that, right?"

"What are you talking about, Kinan? I really don't understand. You seem to be fantasizing." Shirly replied as she wanted to walk away.

"Wait on! Didn't you say you were going back to Bali. Why are you still here?"

"Hey Kinan! I am yes here. Who said I was going back to Bali, who? I think you're dreaming!" Shirly said.

Without waiting for a response from Kinan, Shirly went to avoid Kinan.

Kinan stared at Shirly's departure with a raging feeling. Because Kinan was sure what he remembered was a reality not just a delusion or a dream as Shirly had accused him of.

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Since that incident, Kinan has become increasingly unappreciated in this house.

Every day Kinan must undergo a routine beyond ART that works at home.

Latifa did not even let Kinan touch the children or just talk to them. Latifa only allowed Kinan to struggle with endless homework.

The homework should have been done, but again there is a way Latifa to find work that Kinan can do.

What about Ammar? Ammar did not care for Kinan even after everything that happened Ammar got worse.

Maybe he still wanted to say hello to Kinan or ask him the news at the beginning of their loveless marriage. But now, Ammar seems blind not to see Kinan in his eyes.

Not that I don't know, but Ammar seems to just let what Latifa did to Kinan.

The move of Kinan from the main room was never questioned and questioned by Ammar, as if indeed Kinan's decision to separate rooms was indeed the best and need not be discussed again.

Kinan's status as Ammar's wife. Already without love, unappreciated even used as a maid without a salary.

Ammar is more silent now. Let alone what happened to Kinan without preventing. No one knows what is in Ammar's heart and mind.

Kinan went through very tough days with no protection from anyone. Maybe Kinan will be strong enough to live an endless routine at Ammar's house. But somehow, his status as a wife is not considered sometimes makes him weak. Kinan, however, wants to be appreciated and noticed.

Kinan realized he was no longer worthy of Ammar, especially that his chastity had been stained before Ammar even touched him. But until now Ammar never asked what the truth was.

Kinan was eager to talk to Ammar, explain everything. But somehow Ammar closed his access to just talk to each other. Ammar avoided Kinan. And worse Ammar is very visible away from anything related to Kinan as if Kinan is a bacterium that should not be touched because it will cause disease.

As of now Kinan was mopping the living room floor.

The children were immediately told by Latifa to enter the room before seeing Kinan in the guest room.

Ammar was struggling with his laptop, glancing sharply at what Kinan was doing. After that, he continued his activities and ignored him.

"Mas, can we talk?" Pinta Kinan is soft on Ammar while putting the mop tool in the corner of the room.

Ammar just silently heard Kinan's words.

"Mas, I want you to listen to my explanation!"

Ammar closed his laptop, standing up from his seat. He approached Kinan who was in the corner of the room.

"Want to explain what?" Ask flat.

"Mas, you've mistaken me! Your thoughts about me are all wrong, mom! Lirih Kinan said.

Ammar seemed to be breathing heavily.

"That problem again? Isn't that all done?" Ammar looked at Kinan sharply.

"Done? Is it all done with me by silence, you think? I haven't even explained anything!"

"That's right, it's not good for kids to hear. Don't start a scene!" Ammar's voice began to rise.

"I don't want to start a ruckus. I want to talk about reality!"

"What other truth is Kinan? You should still be lucky I still want to see you here!"

Ammar's words suddenly made Kinan feel slapped. Not with a physical slap but the words really mean that Ammar actually does not want to see Kinan anymore.

Hasn't Kinan asked her to divorce Kinan? And why didn't Ammar just divorce her. Why should this be the path Ammar chose.

Ammar was about to move, he turned around and his legs began to rise to leave Kinan who was fixated in his place and began to shed tears.

"I never betrayed you!" Kinan's words began to be firm and managed to stop Ammar's steps.

"I'm-I'm a rape victim!" Continued Kinan again even though his heart felt slashed to say a sentence that was a bitter reality for his life.

Ammar was shocked to hear Kinan's statement. He was also in his place. He remained silent without looking at Kinan.

"I don't know who did it. I think I'm unconscious. I realized I was in disgusting condition!" Obviously Kinan was sobbing. Kinan sat on the floor lamenting his fate.

Ammar was still speechless with his own thoughts after hearing Kinan's explanation. His conscience revolted to invite his body to immediately approach Kinan who sat behind him.

Both Ammar's hands clenched, he turned and approached Kinan at the end.

"Stand!" Ammar said, holding both Kinan's shoulders. Help him stand.

Ammar took Kinan into his room. The main room of the house. Ammar sat his wife on the sofa, while he sat on the side of the bed looking straight into Kinan's eyes.

"Can I believe your words?" Ask Ammar again.

"I swear it!" Kinan replied with his tears.

Ammar seemed to be silent and thought.

"I found myself in a room. In the end, I knew it was an apartment!"

"Kinan, you know I can't just trust you!"

Kinan closed his mouth, he fell silent. Digesting the words of Ammar who should ask the address of the Apartment to find out the mastermind behind Kinan's nestapa. But from Ammar's words, Kinan concluded that at this moment whatever Kinan described at length, Ammar could not have simply believed.

"You think I'm making up, mas? I think you still have a conscience to know the truth of my words! I know you're the one who upholds evidence and facts. My words should not be proof for you!"

Ammar was seen massaging his temple.

"You should be my husband looking for proof and that fact to clarify my words is true!" Kinan added firmly while leaving Ammar alone in the room.

Kinan thought let Ammar be alone to think of Kinan's words. There is no need to explain anything else, the important thing is that Ammar believes first he can explain further.

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Everything has felt the same since the catastrophe that befell Kinan. In fact, after Kinan explained to Ammar the reality that happened, Ammar remained in his cold and indifferent attitude towards Kinan.

Every time Kinan wanted to talk to her, Ammar dodged and left. The reason, he is still thinking and will decide if he finds a bright spot.

To this day, Kinan performs his usual activities without pause except for eating and sleeping at night.

Kinan was currently wiping the rear window glass. It's a weekend. Everyone gathered at the back of the house.

Ammar and his children were chatting while playing a snake.

Latifa seemed to be doing her activity, sitting in a rocking chair watching her grandchildren while smiling happily.

Kinan watched them. Deep down Kinan was happy to see that scene. Ammar is indeed a father who loves the people closest to him.

Kinan even had a chance to almost feel the affection of Ammar. But since that cursed night, the happiness that has not been satisfied and not even fully obtained by Kinan, must just disappear.

"If only I could be in their midst. Being a mother and a wife that is considered, I must be happy right now." Lirih Kinan in heart.

Kinan suddenly felt the scene blur, and slowly began to darken. His body felt weak and almost collapsed.

...Bruckk......

Kinan lay on the floor, under the window he was washing.

Ammar was shocked, as were Latifa and the children. Ammar ran over to Kinan's body which had fainted.

"Kinan. wake Kinan!" Ammar patted Kinan's cheek gently to wake him up.

The children watched Kinan's situation. They crouched down beside Ammar to see Kinam who was unconscious.

Ammar looked at Latifa who was already standing but remained silent. The mother looked down in fear, afraid that Ammar would blame her and be angry that Kinan had fainted as a result of Latifa telling Kinan this and that.

"Ma, please keep Kinan here. I'll get the car ready, I'll take Kinan to the doctor. Maybe Kinan is exhausted!" Ammar said with a worried tone.

Ammar rushed to his car garage and pulled out the car after he left Kinan's body on Latifa.

After entering Kinan in the back seat, Ammar went to the hospital with Kinan's body.

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Arriving in the hospital room. Ammar asked Kinan's condition to the doctor, after the doctor had just been ready to examine him. Kinan also seemed to have just realized from his stupor.

"How's the doctor doing?" Ask Ammar.

"There's nothing to worry about, Kinan's mom is fine, sir! Maybe he was just exhausted. But-"

"But why doctor?"

"I think Kinan's mother is pregnant, sir."

"What's? The doctor was wrong, right?" Ammar was slightly shocked to hear the man's doctor's statement.

"It's good that you refer to a content specialist so that it is clearer. And if it's true, do the ultrasound immediately to know the age of the content." The doctor said with a happy smile and patted Ammar on the shoulder.

After saying the results of his diagnosis, the doctor resigned. Leaving Ammar in front of the door.

Kinan was still lying in the patient's bed, staring at Ammar who from his face could not cover his shock.

"What's wrong?" Ask Kinan who just realized and did not understand.

Ammar shook his head weakly.

"I'm just exhausted!" Kinan.

"I-iya" replied Ammar nervously and still in shock.

"Yes, let's go home, yeah. I don't want to stay in the hospital."

Ammar nodded.

"alright. But after you are referred and examined by another doctor first. After that we just went home." Add Ammar with lethargic speech.

"Why mas? I'm it's okay. And I was checked. Why should I go to another doctor and get checked again?"

"I want to make sure of something!" Ammar started to pitched high.

Seeing Ammar with such a reaction, Kinan decided to shut up.

Not long after Ammar returned, and they did a re-examination of the specialist contents of the hospital.

Kinan was a little surprised to see Ammar taking him to this room. Kinan looked at Ammar with a big question mark on his head.

Kinan was more surprised when his stomach was applied a kind of gel, then his stomach was placed a device connected to a monitor on the side of the bed.

"Happy Mother Kinan and Mr Ammar! Kinan's mother was pregnant. The age of the womb has entered three weeks" explained the doctor with a sumringah.

Kinan was flabbergasted and shocked. Ammar was silent with his own thoughts.

Kinan got up and stood away leaving the room without a word.

Kinan now felt really stupid and angry at himself. She was shocked, completely shocked to learn of her pregnant condition.

He ran and left without thinking about Ammar who was still in the room.

Ammar exited the room with a raging feeling. Kinan was pregnant and it wasn't for his actions. Kinan was pregnant with a child who was not his.

How could Kinan be pregnant with his child, whereas he had never touched Kinan that far.

Ammar was angry at who. When he wanted to accept Kinan as his wife, he found Kinan to be stained. When she wanted to believe that Kinan had been raped and wanted to accept Kinan's shortcomings after thinking about them for days, she found out that Kinan was pregnant with someone else's child who knew who he was.

"Why do I have to face so many trials like this in my household that are as long as corn? Should I accept Kinan now? Should I accept the child in the womb as well?" Ammar wondered to himself. Ammar sat beside the waiting chair at the side of the room.

After lamenting what had happened and arranging his heart, Ammar rose and only realized that Kinan was no longer with him.

Ammar searched for Kinan everywhere, all over the hospital. However, he was unable to find Kinan's whereabouts.

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