How Will You Say Goodbye?
Realizing the mistake

Ammar started his activities with a sense of lackluster, not usually he is like this.

When he lived with Vienna all this time, his life was safe and felt flat even though they loved each other. But, after Vienna died and asked her to marry Kinan, Ammar felt different. Either because of the departure of Vienna, or because Vienna and Kinan actually have a much different character.

Vienna is a woman who loves her, so it is only natural that Vienna becomes a submissive and sweet woman in the eyes of Ammar. Kinan, it's not like that. Kinan is more closed, even after becoming his wife, Kinan is more often closed. On the one hand, Kinan is innocent and on the other hand Ammar feels he does not know Kinan completely. Ammar considers Kinan's innocence so far only camouflage to cover his true nature and behavior.

That is why, ever since he learned that Kinan, the newly married wife, had returned home in a mess that day, Ammar felt that Kinan's true attitude had been revealed. And ever since then Ammar's days have been a pain. Ammar is a hard worker who is unyielding and ambitious, but because of Kinan's attitude, quite disturbing his calm all along. He felt his high self-esteem had been dropped by a woman like Kinan.

In fact, Ammar had tried to seize his heart to conquer it. It was solely Ammar did so because Kinan was already his wife, not because he had feelings as well. Ammar felt challenged to make Kinan love him even though his initial feelings were not that far with Kinan.

As time went on, Ammar tried to understand Kinan's situation but Kinan's pregnancy could no longer clear his mind, her murky thoughts get dirty due to the influence of Shirly who gives her advice for Kinan to be admitted to the Mental Hospital.

Of course Ammar's instincts resisted, but everything Shirly said was the truth. Ammar will not be able to suppress Kinan if later he rampages and harms Lesya and Shaka. Ammar easily led Kinan to be treated there without careful thought.

Since the escape of Kinan with Rey, since then the heart of Ammar felt shocked and regretful. He realized his mistake, Kinan was the wife who should have been within his reach and Kinan was not an easy Vienna to organize and direct. Kinan seemed to have his own thoughts and life commitments that Ammar had not been able to break. Ammar becomes restless and fears losing Kinan. Realizing her late feelings. Realizing his wrong actions.

After all that happened, Ammar admitted that he had more feelings for the woman he married. It all just happened without him knowing because it started from a sense of loss Kinan. As a husband, he should have trusted Kinan. And whatever Kinan's fault, he should forgive him, right?

But, Kinan's pregnancy was not for that either. For that he proposed that Kinan abort the fetus. But since the proposal he made, Kinan seemed to avoid him to meet. And last night, it was as if it was the height of Kinan's anger. Kinan. Even when Ammar asked Rey, Rey did not know where Kinan was. Rey is in an unlikely condition, and Ammar knows it is the truth and not Rey's solely alibi to divert Ammar.

For all this happened, today Ammar again became a sullen and his attitude became angry lately. Wants to work but is lazy to hit. Want to find Kinan's whereabouts but somehow he did not know where to start.

Ammar wanted to report to the police to help him find Kinan, but somehow he hesitated.

"Ammar you don't work anymore today?" Latifa's voice shocked Ammar and stopped his daydreaming on the front porch.

"I'm not excited, Ma."

"When you marry that woman, you're not always excited." Sindir Latifa.

Ammar sat on the porch with a huff, but he was getting ready to go to work but somehow he was still thinking about where Kinan was going.

"Ma, do you know where Kinan is?" Ammar tried to dig up information. He wanted to prove that his mother was not involved like Rey's words and conjecture last night.

"Kinan's? Where the hell is he? Why ask Mama?"

"Ck!"Ammar clucked his tongue while massaging his temple.

"Ma, did you ever make a mistake with Kinan?" Ammar's question suddenly made Latifa who was sipping tea from her glass so choked.

Ammar immediately got up from his position and patted the woman who gave birth to him.

"Slow down, Ma!" Latifa nodded her head indicating that she was okay.

Ammar looked at his mother. Suspicious because of his sudden misbehavior.

"Ma, did Mama never put Kinan in such a difficult position after she became my wife?" Ask Ammar again. Now he was increasingly suspicious to see the Mother who threw away his gaze and did not dare to look at him.

"Where could Mama have done that to him!" He answered in a firm voice but sounded terrified.

"Yes, I don't think Mama could have done anything bad to Kinan!"

"But, if it turns out that you've done it, I definitely won't forgive you!" Ammar said casually but seriously.

Latifa took a sip of her saliva with great difficulty hearing Ammar's words.

"After all, even if you don't like it, how could you do something that doesn't and endanger it, right?" Ammar's words sounded intimidating.

"Whoa-yes, maybe."

"Alright, Ma. I just want Mama to be honest, because I only give one chance to someone tell me the truth in front of me, if one day I know that I'm being lied to then-"

"A-God..." Latifa's voice cut across Ammar's speech.

"Yes?"

"Actually that time..."

"What ma?"

Latifa was nervous as she squeezed both her fingers.

"Mama intends to make Kinan leave this house" he said while bowed. He must be honest, because Latifa knows the character of his son. If he was caught lying to Ammar, he could have been evicted from this mansion.

Although Ammar highly appreciates Latifa as a mother, but Ammar has his own cruel side that Latifa does not know when he will release in front of this mother. Maybe Ammar will drive him away even though later Ammar will also give him another place to live as a shelter, but Latifa did not leave the large and comfortable house he now lives in.

"Then?" Ammar stared intently at his mother, who gave Latifa guts for a moment.

"Then, mama asked Shirly to help.."

"Shy?" Ammar's voice was rising. She learns that Shirly is as ambitious as she is.

Latifa nodded quickly. "Mama doesn't know exactly what Shirly did to Kinan. And that's what keeps Kinan from coming home all night, and when he gets home, he-"

"Enough Ma!" Ammar's voice was choked. He realized now that all of Kinan's past statements were the truth. Everything Kinan said was true, Kinan was not cheating and had another lover like Ammar's accusation. Kinan was right that he had been abused and abused. And it's all because of her own mother and Shirly.

Ammar's face flushed red, he was wrathful to hear this truth. He was ashamed of himself being Kinan's husband. He was frustrated because he should have taken care of Kinan, but in fact he couldn't and now is a very late time to regret everything. It's too late for an apology.

"I'm sorry Mama Ammar.. Mama just hasn't accepted the fact that she's already your wife!"

"Shut up!!!" Ammar yelled at Latifa until the mother was stunned in surprise.

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