EMBRACE YOU: Presence & Poison
Episode 18's

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“Icha, you should just shut up! You're so chatty! Isn't this all because of you? If you don't talk much, we'll definitely stick together!”

“Not to say anything more, lest you tell everyone about this!!”

The voices of father and mother are heard very clearly in the dream. I who had just opened my eyes found the ceiling of a foreign room. The antiseptic smell is pungent.

Am I lying down again in this place?

My eyes are looking for someone in this room, no one. Unknowingly I clenched my hands tightly as the memory of when I was six years old came back to mind.

Father said before he left our house. Then the words of the mother I heard for the first time were very cold towards me. Being aware of the mother who still hated me so much after everything I did made my heart hurt even more. I'm not filial enough to him.

I immediately got up sitting leaning on the head of the bed, staring around. This room was my place seven years ago. When all the pain I had been in for almost eleven years exploded. When a child who is only six years old must get deep hatred from the mother.

Cilia's been helping me since she was a resident doctor at this rehabilitation hospital. The first time I couldn't make a sound was when I just graduated high school.

I felt the cold, very!

Finally I just quietly hugged my knees while my eyes stared out the window. It's dark outside.

Then my mind turned around to remember again before I fainted. Daniel calls and mom—dia says—dia—

My chest tightened again, my eyes warmed up and my throat hurt a lot. My tears have fallen down my cheeks. I cried without a sound. In my heart, I blamed myself.

My whole body is shaking. I can't stand this pain anymore. All of my mother's words were clearly in my memory. Everything you say seems to be a part of my body.

I want to disappear and leave. I'm just alone. I can't bear everything. I hate myself!

I don't want this body!

I don't want this name!

I don't want everything that's on me!

“ICHA STOP!!”

Doctor Cilia's shriek sounded and averted my gaze which had been staring out the window. I just realized that Doctor Cilia was already standing by the side of the bed with both hands already clutching my hand.

I looked down at what I was doing. My left hand had a red scratch on it, then I looked up at this white-clothed woman.

His face expression was very sad.

See it? I disappointed him again. The last person who cared about me.

“Stop! Stop hurting yourself!”

I opened my mouth to speak, but no sound came out of it.

How sad!

I'm so pathetic!

“We start again therapy, hm?”

I shook my head, my tears still falling down my cheeks. My eyes were blurry because my eyelids were filled with tears. I couldn't stop crying, my eyes just kept getting out the liquid.

I don't feel better even though I've been crying. My chest is still the same. My tugging still hurts the same.

“Why don't you want therapy? Icha, listen! Doctor will help you to heal and become a great woman.”

I was deep in thought, I ignored what Doctor Cilia said. I was still crying in silence not reacting to make my head ache and dizzy.

“Why is your body cold like this, huh? You want to eat something?” Doctor Cilia has already rubbed my palms, my face, my arms to keep me warm.

After that I felt Doctor Cilia looking to check the pulse on my wrist. I didn't realize what this woman was doing, which must have been a panicked reaction.

Aunt, I can no longer keep my promise. I want to go forget everything bi. I'll give land, home to Mom. I will ask the office to move me to a branch very far away or maybe I will resign and start all over again from scratch. I'm gonna get off campus and pass it on to a new place later.

“Doctor Cilia—“ I heard it, his voice hoarse.

“Oh? Your voice is back?!” this woman looks enthusiastic at me. I just realized that now a nurse was injecting something into my intravenous fluids.

“I want to go from here.”

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I got out of the cab right in front of the gate. It's been two days since I didn't come home. Cilia's doctor is holding me back to restore my condition. Although finally with great difficulty I can again make a sound, still according to the woman my situation is actually still not allowed to leave the hospital.

I want to quickly take care of the land letter to give to mom. I want to take care of everything today.

“Natasha.” I stopped my steps as my gaze caught the figure of a man standing to the side

the gate of the house.

I did not expect his presence at all. No, actually I don't want to meet him. I've thrown away all hope to her these past few days. And most importantly, I want to be alone.

Trying to ignore it, I walked straight towards the gate to open the lock. I knew Bayu was standing behind me, watching my back.

“You just got home? Two days where?”

Not wanting to answer, I just went inside and quickly locked it back in before Bayu followed me in.

“Hei. Icha, what's wrong? Why are you ignoring me like this?”

“Go. No reason to meet again.” Without looking at him I answered his question slowly and then I turned to leave him who had been calling my name, hoping I would turn my head but I really wanted to be alone now. I don't want to hope for empty hope anymore.

As usual, I went into the house no one welcomed. The cold air is more pronounced now. Equally

with my heart broken more than to pieces.

No. gabe. I have to quickly take care of everything. I want to get out of here as soon as possible. I want to forget

everything is. This time, I want to think selfishly.

After taking a shower and changing clothes, I called the lawyer who took care of aunt's will and said my point and asked to meet this afternoon as well.

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“Can't, Miss can't change ownership name.”

“Why? Why can't I?” I was quite shocked to hear the statement of this middle-aged man before me. Her neat clothes and hair looked at me from behind her glasses.

“There are some things I haven't said yet. The late Madame Rose told me that if circumstances make Miss Icha want to change the name of ownership then Miss must accept the terms.”

Oh my!! Why is it so hard to take all this off?

“What Terms?”

“Nona Icha must be married, only Miss can change the name of the land ownership inherited.”

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