EMBRACE YOU: Presence & Poison
Episode 20's

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“Call me if there's anything.”

“Dok, I'm used to being home alone.” I smiled at Doctor Cilia who tonight drove me home to the front of the house in her car. After last day until late at night I was detained in the hospital, finally this woman allowed me to go home because she had advised me to stay in the hospital.

Today I did not meet with my mother and Daniel. I haven't been able to meet them. Cilia's doctor didn't advise me to leave before my condition completely recovered. But I know, it won't be long before I have to meet with my mother and Daniel especially about the problems that the boy has made.

After confirming that the white car that the Cilia doctor was driving in disappeared at the turn of the road, I immediately turned around

walk slowly towards the gate. As usual, my house looks dark and quiet.

“Natasha.”

The movement of my hand that was about to turn the key had to stop hearing that voice again. The calming Dark tambour type voice belonging to a man sounded from behind.

I turned to look at the figure of Bayu who was already standing in front of me. Last I saw it clearly when he

wearing a military moss green uniform in the hospital and that was over a week ago. Now he's just wearing black skinny pants on a pair with a gray hodie.

I smiled to welcome her arrival

Ahhe.. I remember! Yesterday Bayu also had time to come but I ignored him because my mind was very messed up.

“Come talk.” I nodded slowly accepting his invitation. Maybe I didn't expect much about our relationship, but Bayu is still a friend I've known since childhood.

“Come in.”

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After preparing a warm latte coffee in front of him, we who were already sitting on the terrace chair were both silent

holding a coffee cup.

I don't know where to start. On second thought, our chatter in the hospital sounded so sweet and comfortable, it was just now that we remembered our problem, she should have hated me and scolded me after I left her for nothing.

He should have demanded my explanation and apology then after that we would have no reason to meet again.

Maybe if it was like that it would be better. I will no longer feel this worry.

I miss him, I can't deny I can't forget him and I haven't been in his life for the last five years either. I don't know how it's been all this time.

Is she okay? Is the job good? Or did he find another girl?

“Do you hate me?”

“What?!” I was a little surprised to hear his question.

Seeing his face from the side like this was thrilling.

Why is my heart so weak.

“Last time I was here, you avoided me. You look so hate me. Isn't our conversation at home

“I think all this is wrong. You should have screamed at me. You should have hated me. You should have been

demanding an explanation to me!”

“Don't I tell you, if I've investigated it?”

“But it will be different when you find out for yourself by directly hearing it. It's been five years. I know, maybe that feeling of love is no longer there. You're just curious about me. You're just not satisfied with what you've found out.”

“Do you want me to hate you so much?!” Bayu sounds annoyed now. He looked at me and I was sitting next to him just staring ahead.

“Better to realize the real feeling from the beginning than to give hope ‘kan?” Ohh no. My voice sounded choked!

“I'd better hear you speak honestly as badly as that. My decision five years ago must have hurt you a lot no matter what.” I added quickly.

Bayu sighed softly, then placed his latten coffee cup onto the small table that was between our chairs.

“There are better girls out there. We haven't seen each other in five years. I don't want you to just keep seeing me out of curiosity.”

“Did you forget we've known since childhood? then we split up and meet again at High School? Why do you keep going

saying five years ago like it was the first time we parted? Do you like other men? You want to kick me out?”

I looked at him who was looking at me angry. After a long time, I could see again the expression

enragedly.

“Do you want me to scold you, hate you and demand an explanation then I just leave? Can't you see how I feel? Why don't you ask how I really feel?”

“The man or woman who was left without cause by someone he loves will surely hate him. He will demand his explanation and forget about it.” My heart rate is beating so fast. Now I'm trying to think logically.

I just don't want to get that empty hope anymore. Especially when Rey said about the girl close to Bayu in the military is very disturbing and makes me not confident.

Then, I heard the sound of a strong breath of Bayu and said. “You want to hear how I was all this time after you decided me?”

“Honest.” I added.

“All this will sound embarrassing.” He was mumbling but I heard it. I don't know why I smiled a little in response.

After a long pause and I could only hear my heartbeat. The night wind hit our bodies a few times. Fly a strand of my hair. I was still waiting for him to speak.

“As long as you're gone, I keep remembering you. What I always miss, when you smile only for me.” Little smiling Bayu looked up at the night sky, as if now he was recalling that feeling.

My face feels hot. I was ashamed to hear it myself.

“Honestly, all this time I tried not to remember you. I have been broken more than to pieces because of love and longing that cannot be fulfilled.” The very distinctive sound of Bayu in my ears sounded tickling when I heard his sweet words. I saw a radiance of sincerity from the look in his eyes that was now looking back at me.

“Can't lie. As soon as I fell, in this sense. I should have hated you, I should no longer care about you but this affection remains. I waited, hoping to see you again. When I heard that you had come back here, I did intend to be mad at you and demand an explanation but again I can't." There was a short pause before Bayu continued.

"I chose to investigate you first, which I found you moved to work in another branch of the city and pursued an education there. There is no investigation that you are dating another man so I thought maybe indeed his decision to break up with me was the best because we are both busy working.” It felt like my face was heating up hearing Bayu say all that without intending to let go of his gaze.

“Seeing how you have got a career at such a young age makes me even more eager to work. Especially now that you're continuing post-graduate college, I'm really amazed.” His words made me unable to not smile lightly.

All this time, I was always amazed by charisma and the way he thought.

I never thought this man would also admire me.