EMBRACE YOU: Presence & Poison
Episode 70's

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“What is this??” Shouts loudly doctor Stefan's voice saved me. He shouted looking at the people in this canteen who were almost entirely hospital staff.

“Do you guys have free time like this, huh?? Why not take your time to work instead of gossiping here??” Doctor Stefan sounded angry but it managed to disperse the people who were still curious while watching me.

“Now answer my question!” My teeth were bluffing irritably and angrily looking at Daniel who was beginning to look up at me.

I looked up trying to prevent my tears from rushing out.

“Before you sue a sister like this try to think about it, have you forgotten the last time you met my mother? You know best how our relationship is, right? Then about the receptionist? Ha ha.” I chuckled, not a happy laugh, but a sarcastic laugh that made my chest cavity even more congested.

“Isn't that receptionist doing her job? Which family wants to visit his family who is sick but he did not ask what pain. Are you a psychic so you already know what sick sister is without asking?”

I sensed that Doctor Cilia had already touched my shoulder, she was already standing beside me, stopping my disappointed look at Daniel. Without waiting for the child's answer, I immediately stood with the doctor Cilia who helped me bring me this column of information.

I saw Doctor Stefan staring at me from where he was standing not far in front of us. Once again I glanced back to see Daniel. The boy was still silent while looking at me. I don't want to guess what he's thinking. Right now I don't want to care about it.

The question he asked, I didn't really expect an answer. Even before the question was made, the answer was known first.

Deep down, I wish Daniel had not changed. I still wish Rey's words at the time were nonsense. I wish Daniel wasn't the one who poisoned me and wanted me dead.

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Doctor Cilia walked in and approached me when she had just finished talking to Doctor Stefan at the doorstep. I who since a few minutes ago returned to the room have not spoken or made a sound. I just kept quiet and couldn't hide my disappointment.

My eyes stared out the window, the smell of fresh wet soil smelling. The strong wind seemed to shake the trees out there, like understanding how I felt, this afternoon the sky turned cloudy and the rain fell down.

I who no longer knew how to think about Daniel's attitude let out a long sigh. I feel like I've been very cape. Not only because it served the attitude of mother and Daniel, but also thinking about them made me really stressed.

“How do you feel? Are you okay?”

“No.” I shook my head and glanced at the doctor Cilia who was already sitting at the side of this bed. He noticed my face looking back out the window.

“Faced directly with Daniel like that, now I completely understand. Definitely dealing with your mother five times more than this.”

I nodded slowly not letting go of my sight. “Crying. Your feelings will improve.”

“I'm just tired. I can't cry because I've been facing them for years so I'm pretty immune just by snapping it earlier.”

For the next few minutes I no longer heard the voice of Doctor Cilia. This woman was both silent following my gaze. Staring at the increasingly heavy rainwater.

“My heart is fine.”

I know, doctor Cilia glanced at me quickly hearing my answer. She must not have expected what happened to me.

“So you're sick—“

“The diagnosis is like that. There was a problem with my heart after the kidnapping. Something happened there that made me sick and had to stay here. Doctor Stefan's in charge of my treatment. He and Bayu are trying to cure me.” I said at last, looking at his face.

Doctor Cilia looked surprised and speechless still digesting what I just said. “Since the beginning of my life has never been easy doc.”

“Looks like I really need to meet your girlfriend. Thank him for making you live again.” I didn't expect Doctor Cilia to answer like that.

“Your reaction looks different now. I remember when you came to me in a condition that was already at its weakest. You can't talk then, even you're gonna faint. But looking at you now I'm really proud. You've worked hard.”

Either be embarrassed or laugh at this woman's words. He was right, remembering the last time I visited his hospital. My condition is not very good.

“You're right doc. I can say that I want to get well now. I want to live a normal life, get married, have a family then age and be surrounded by grandchildren.” We both laughed and thought about it. Even though I'm in a bad mood, even though I cape with Daniel who instantly changes like a mother but as he says.

Sometimes time is not for healing a sick heart. But time also teaches us to coexist with that pain.

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In fact, that statement did not apply to the pain I was feeling right now. An excruciating pain all over my body the next day.

This morning at six I woke up suddenly because now I feel a throbbing pain all over my body. I don't know which part is the center of the pain but what I feel I can't stop whimpering.

I could still get up to sit down, wanting to press a button near the nightstand to call the guard sister but my hand was hard to reach that thing. The present pulsation was more and more pronounced, like a bruise that was pressed continuously.

This pain made my consciousness feel like it wanted to be forcibly withdrawn. With the rest of my energy and consciousness I deliberately nudged the glass and dropped the thing until it broke before it was all dark and I felt nothing more.

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This cooling wind managed to calm my mind. With the sound of music from my favorite band connected through the headset, I smiled a little like this situation. Quiet moments alone here.

The hospital park located in the middle of this building becomes a private land specifically for patients. This morning a lot of patients ranging from children to the elderly are here, accompanied by the sisters or their respective families.

I who had been watching them all had not been bored at all. Because here I was alone, then I remembered to borrow the headset again from the guard nurse who already knew me. I haven't listened to my favorite music in a long time.

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