I'm Not an Old Virgin
Chapters 20.3
With glassy eyes, Norin stared at the factory building where he had been making a living for more than ten years. Finally, today, he had to leave her to avoid the male figure he hated. Norin wiped away his tears that were beginning to fall. Then, he turned on his motor and drove slowly out the gate leaving the factory.
Along the way his tears flowed nonstop. Norin had to go as far as possible to leave the city which had given him a sweet life as well as a bitter life. Arriving at a motorcycle dealership, Norin sells his favorite motorcycle. He had to do it because the money will be used for additional tuition Rizal his sister.
A taxi was waiting for him in front of the house. The taxi that Norin had ordered earlier. Norin immediately put two of his luggage into the trunk of a taxi.
"mba Norin...mba where is Norin going?" Ms. Yayuk was caught in a hurry to get to her. The woman was surprised that Norin did not usually order a taxi and then brought two large suitcases like he was going to move.
Norin smiled at the woman who was walking towards him."I want to go first Mom."
"but where are you going mba Norin?"
"It must still be in Indonesia, ma'am. Oiya I tipped the house and the key is ma'am. If you can Bu Yayuk contrakin aja my house, I believe the same Bu Yayuk.
"but where is this mba Norin going? why so suddenly?" Bu Yayuk was still asking Norin questions because Norin had not answered them.
"I have to go, Mom. I don't have time to explain it. Inshaallah at another time may we live long and be able to meet again.
Norin was reluctant to leave the house that had been in place for seven years and his good neighbor. But he has to go. Norin immediately hugged Bu Yayuk tightly.sounding a sobbing of Bu Yayuk in his arms.
Long enough Norin hugged her then let go of her embrace. After that, he got into a taxi and left his house and his good neighbor who was still crying bitterly while staring at his disappearance. A single tear fell onto his smooth cheek and he immediately wiped it off.
Plaques
A white envelope was thrown onto Shin's desk by director Lee who arrived without knocking on the door first. This made Shin surprised at the attitude of his uncle who suddenly acted coldly to him.
Shin took the envelope in front of him." Is this uncle?"
"Just open it up by you." Lee said while shaking his waist.
Impatiently and curiously, Shin opened the envelope. Instantly he stared at the contents of the envelope in his hand. A letter of resignation on behalf of Norin Inayah.
"I'm sure his sudden resignation has something to do with you Hoon." Lee lightly accused Shin.
"Why did you accuse me?" Hoon asked a little did not accept but the truth was that. He actually had the same assumption as his uncle that Norin's resignation was caused by him. However, his sense of prestige was high to admit it.
"Because I know what you've done to him, Hoon." Lee spoke in a high tone.
"What does uncle mean?"
"Don't pretend to forget Hoon's memory. Do you think I never knew what you were doing in the mansion all this time huh? although I don't live there but my eyes are many. So whatever you do I know Hoon includes what you've done to Norin."
"Uncle...!"
"You raped her, right? you've ruined people's children." joked Lee. He was furious at the disgusting treatment of his nephew.
Shin was silent his body suddenly felt stiff.
"Where does Uncle Lee know what I did to Norin?" Shin monologue.
"Why do I have a niece who has no morals and is as depraved as this child." Lee spoke softly while rubbing his face with his palm.
"Uncle me ...!"
"You're sick Hoon. Something's wrong in your brain. You better go to a psychiatrist to justify your sick brain."
Braakk
The door closed violently. Lee left bringing anger and disappointment to his arrogant nephew.
"Why are you doing this Norin? do you hate me that much?"Not wanting to waste any more time Shin rushed up from his room to meet Norin.
"Quick Tono, are you slow to get the car?" snapped Shin. He was very upset once it had been an hour on the trip had not reached Norin's house.
"Sorry sir, the road is jammed. I have to how? if I had wings I'd fly this car, sir." Tono was very upset from earlier.the master grumbled continuously and scolded him.
"I don't need your jokes Tono."
"I'm not kidding you sir."
Finally after an hour and a half on the way he arrived at Norin's house which looked lonely. Shin immediately got out of his car and walked towards the gate.
"Norang...Norin.please open the door. I want to talk to you Norin." Shin shouted in the afternoon inviting the residents of the complex including Bu Yayuk. Bu Yayuk immediately walked over to the man who was shouting repeatedly.
"Mr Shin...!"
Shin turned to the woman who approached him." Did you know Norin was inside?"
"sorry sir Shin. But, mba Norin's gone from this morning."
"away from the morning?"
"yes sir."
"where, where did he go?"
"i really don't know sir."
"how do you not know where Norin went?isn't that mom familiar with Norin?"
"but I swear I don't know where Norin went. This morning he just left the keys to get his house rented."
"key? where's key?"Shin raised his hand.
Bu Yayuk immediately gave the keys to Norin's house to Shin. Shin immediately opened the gate just below his chest. Then, he walked over to the door of the white-painted house. The tiny house looked empty. Shin turned on the lights to make them look bright. After that, he went into his room to see the contents of the small closet there were no clothes there.
"You...You really left me Rin?"
Shin immediately contacted his sister Rizal. He used to ask for his sister's mobile number to keep watch. Sure enough, that number is very much needed for now. Shin asks if Norin is coming home? However, Rizal tells him that Norin is not in his village but that he only sent money this morning to his sister and mother.
"Where are you going, baby? did what I did to you really hurt your feelings?"
Shin sat on the bed where Norin rested his body. Then, he laid his body on the bed.
"I miss you so much, so miss you, please come back to me."
Inadvertently his gaze was fixed on the dressing table that had three drawers. Shin straightened back up his body and walked over to the dresser that had stolen his attention. One by one the drawer drawer is opened by him to the bottom drawer. There was a small pink book lying in the drawer. Like Norin's personal belongings left behind. Shin wondered what the pink book was about. Then, he opened it sheet by sheet until he reached the very end, Shin found a very neat and beautiful handwriting and long. It caught his attention and he read it in detail.
"The old virgin who is no longer a virgin. Will those who hate me still call me a spinster after they know that the person they've been mocking is no longer a virgin? Miris indeed, the crown that I guarded for thirty years must be taken for granted by a man who has no sense of responsibility. The man I love and hate.
Being hurt by first love traumatizes me to be in a relationship with any man. I shut this heart tightly from the man who tried to approach me until I was thirty. Yeah, thirty years of my age right now. The age that should have been mature enough to build a household. It was at the age of thirty years that I realized that I should not be constantly stuck in my past. I can't waste the rest of my life just dwelling on the past. I have to get up, I have to look to my future. I began to organize this heart, trying to open my heart to the man who had been continuously pursuing my love and convincing me that he really really sincerely loved me. Her sweet words made me feel that love growing back in this heart after a long time of numbness. I began to fall in love with him and put my full hope in him that he was the man God had sent me to accompany the rest of my age. Turns out I was wrong. The man I thought would be my husband would never want to marry me. Don't know why? maybe I'm a woman who doesn't deserve to be with her life or don't know. And in the end I had to fall back. The man I consider sincerely loves me is not like the jerk of my past. What's wrong if I want a marriage and build a household? have a husband and several children as successors to my generation? But unfortunately, maybe God has destined my life to continue living alone throughout my age until my death to pick me up. I am sincere if indeed God has outlined my way of life like this. Being a virgin who is no longer a virgin.
The pair of narrowed eyes began to glaze over with glass. His chest felt tight. His hands shook holding a piece of paper containing the handwriting of the woman he loved at once in his pain.
"sorry me. Forgive me for being this stupid and this jerk." The big body was broken. Shin cried.crying his stupidity all this time.