I'm Not an Old Virgin
Chapters 20.9
The bright sunlight during the day did not ignore Shin. He set his foot in search of half his life that had gone somewhere. Shin walked non-stop until he arrived at a large mosque that had been stopped a month ago. Shin looked at the building with a fluffy smile on his lips. I don't know why it feels like Shin misses the place of worship.
Shin walked up to the door of the mosque which looked like there were some people there. Then, Shin sat down on the floor and opened his pair of shoes. After that, he walked over to the door that was already open. Breathing out and exhaling slowly to expel the nervousness that began to whack his heart. Finally, steadily and without hesitation he stepped into the great mosque.
Arriving inside, Shin felt his soul calm and peaceful. Then, the tail of his eyes circled the magnificent building where the worship of Muslims. The one thing he was looking for in that place was the form of God. Shin wanted to know what kind of form the Muslim God was? However, he did not find what form as a god in worship. So what do Muslims worship if their god is not shaped? thought shin.
Ke want to know about the God of the intangible Muslims began to disturb his heart to find out. But, Shin felt confused as to where he should find out.
One by one the people who were about to worship began to arrive. There are parents, teenagers and children who will perform ashar prayers in the mosque. Shin watched them and not a few of them turned their heads towards him and smiled in a friendly manner. Shin always replied with a smile when someone smiled at him.
Not long after, the melodious voice of the adzan reverberated in the mosque. That voice really shook his soul. Shin closed his eyes and one hand held his thumping chest until the sound of Adzan disappeared.
People started to stand up making neat rows. Shin immediately stepped aside and turned his body back to the wall and sat down leaning and cross-legged. He did not want his presence to interfere with the worship they were performing.
Shin watched every movement after movement until the worshipper finished performing his worship. One by one people started to come out and leave the mosque. However, Shin was still at home and did not want to move from that place until the mosque began to quiet again. Inside the mosque was only left himself and one person who is still practicing and known as the imam who leads congregational prayers.
The priest had been sitting in his mihrab for a long time. Shin focused his face on both knees while closing his eyes. But that does not mean Shin is asleep but thinking about where he should find out about the Muslim God.
"sorry, excuse me!" Someone greets him.
Shin looked up at his face and saw whose face had greeted him.
"Lho, aren't you the one who last month was looking for someone in this mosque?" ask the guy.
"right sir." Shin still remembered the face of the person he met last month and was asked to help him. Then Shin stood up.
"Sorry sir, I have never met or seen the woman you are looking for. Therefore, I have never contacted you sir."
Shin smiled."It's okay sir, I understand."
"Has that woman been found?"
Shin shook his head." Not yet sir."
The middle-aged man was a small mangut mangut.
"Will you close this place of worship?"
"Why sir?"
"If allowed, can I stay here until night? I'll pay whatever you ask me to allow me to be here until night."
The middle-aged man smiled." lf I may know why you want to be here until nightfall?"
"Because this is the only place that can make my heart and mind calm sir."
"Sir, this House of God is always open to anyone who wants to visit it including the master."
"God's House? mean father?"
"Previously introduce my lord Ali, my house is not far from this mosque" said Mr. Ali and then extended his hand. Shin smiled and welcomed Ali's hand.
"My name is Shin sir, I am from Korea and work in this city." Shin introduced himself without telling who he was. But, even though Shin did not tell her identity, Mr. Ali already knew that the foreign man was a big boss on the business card Shin had given him.
"Then what if you chat while sitting?" advice from Ali.
"Oh, yes sir, come on." Then they sat cross-legged and faced each other.
"Did master Shin have been living in this city for a long time?"
"It's only been about eight months Ali."
"hmm, it hasn't been too long."
Shin smiled."sorry sir, if I may know the problem you said about the house of God, what is the meaning of the house of God is Mr Ali?" ask Shin with a heart.
"Oh, by which I mean the house of God is yes this mosque sir. Where Muslims worship Allah, the creator of the world and its contents."
Shin was getting excited to find out about the Muslim God.
"But why don't I see God here? I noticed you guys don't worship anything and just walls."
Mr. Ali smiled."Allah is the intangible substance, sir. He is supreme, the real and the one, the all-powerful and all-knowing creator, the eternal, the destiny-setter, and the judge of the universe. Most loving and most merciful. God is single, childless, and not begotten. Allah is closer to man than man's veins. He answers to the needy and asks for help if they pray to Him. On top of that, he guides man on the straight path, the path He desires."
Shin tried to digest the explanation from Mr. Ali about who God is.
"So God has no form or form and cannot be seen by the human eye?"
"Master sir."
"Where is he then, sir?"
"Kubro priesthood? what'sthat?"
"Destroyed and the end of this world, sir."
Shin was stunned to hear the world was about to collapse and end.
Mr. Ali explained about whatever Shin was asking. What is God starting from ? is that the apocalypse? how do humans after death? how life in the afterlife. What is heaven and hell? all of Pak Ali's explanations almost gave Shin goosebumps and fear. One thing Shin will always remember said Mr. Ali that as rich as your life in the world. No matter how high you are in the world, you will not be able to help you in the hereafter other than your worship of Allah SWT. Shin lowered his face as well as closed his eyes.
"Mr Shin?"
Shin looked up.
"Can I ask you about sir?"
"please sir."
"sorry before. If I may know what religion Mr Shin belongs to?"
Shin smiled wryly." I don't follow any religion sir. My parents never introduced me to God. We live without God and we have no belief in God. We only believe in ourselves that we live and succeed because we ourselves are without any interference from God."
"Astaghfiruallah the enzyme."
"yes sir. That's how my life has been."
"Sir Ali, I read about religion. Every human being has a different religion. Which religion is good, sir?"
"Actually all religions are good Mr. Shin, all religions advocate for the worship of god. It depends on the point of view of the person who adheres to the religion."
"Actually I am more interested in Islam pak Ali. I want to know the real God. I want to learn to know God more deeply. Can Ali teach me?"
Mr. Ali smiled." Mr. Shin, I'm actually not an expert. I myself am still learning.I only know a little and my knowledge is still very shallow.if Mr Shin really wants to learn how to study in pesantren only?"
"Pesantren? what'sthat?"
"The place to study religion sir."
"Where's that?"
"Actually the pesantren are many masters. However, I happen to have a cousin who manages one of the pesantren on the island of Java. if you really want to study there I am willing to take you there."
"Are Ali's men serious?"
"I'm very serious sir?"
Shin smiled broadly." Please take me there, sir."
"when are you ready?"
"sook how?"
"well fine, I'm willing."
Did not feel long chatter they entered the prayer time maghrib. Mr. Ali please step down to take ablution water and Shin allows.
Like this afternoon, Shin only watched the people who were praying together until they finished. After that, Shin gave Mr. Ali permission to go back to his house.
Along the way home, Shin's lips continued to smile. I don't know why he's happy tonight.
The next day, Shin went down the stairs while groping a large suitcase.
"Auntie.I want to go for some time.I tipped the mansion yes."
"but where are you going?"
"Somewhere and auntie doesn't need to know where I'm going. Yes it's bi, I go first okay?" then, Shin left the Surti bi who was still staring at him.
Tono escorted his master and a middle-aged man to the airport in the city. In his heart he asked the master where he was going because he was carrying a large suitcase while the master did not tell him where to go.
It took me three hours to get to the airport. Upon arriving, they rushed down from the car.
"Tono, even though I'm not at home, you should still work helping auntie in the mansion.because I don't want to pay you if you don't work."
"Ba good sir. But, how long has the master been gone?"
"not necessarily. It could be a week, a month or even a year. Yeah it's been there back home."
"well sir."