I'm Not an Old Virgin
Season II: Mahligai of Love (Chapter 11.7)
"Likes and dislikes are different from the expectations of a family. For Kak Kevin's family, he is a future that must not disappoint and must have a partner who does not disappoint anyway, in line with their family position. But who am I? I'm just a village man who has nothing to be proud of. Just being able to get into this boarding school cabin I am so grateful and proud of my parents, besides this I have nothing. I was fully aware of my position because that's why I was trying to control this feeling. Tonight before God, I tell you so that between the three of us nothing should be kept a secret. Aren't we friends?" She tried to smile, her two eyes were reddened as lara looked faint under the moonlight.
"We are friends." Said Ai now began to switch to staring at the expanse of the sky.
"But Asri, I don't think our situation is much different." Ai is also saddened, given the strange situation that has been waiting for 12 years for Ustad Vano to keep his promise, a childish promise that is worth nothing.
"Me and Ustad Vano used to be little friends. He used to come to my house and follow me everywhere. I really liked playing with him because at that time only Ustad Vano was the only person who would accept my shortcomings, no. I thought he didn't know my flaws at the time." Sissy whisper.
Regarding the shortcomings of what Ai was talking about Mega knows very well about what it is. Honestly, he regretted his evil deeds first. Spreading bad rumors about Ai so many kids are afraid to play with her.
He really disappointed Ai that year.
"Until one day he had to move out of town because he had to go to school. We rarely meet and I don't know how to reach him. Then my mother gave birth to my three sisters. He came with his parents that day and I talked to him. He apologized for not being able to play with me because of school but he promised that he would come to see me often if there was free time. But do you know after that day he never came looking for me and stupid again. A childish promise made without thinking. More ironically, I could not forget about Ustad Vano, then I realized that my feelings were not just feelings between friends or relationships between sister and brother. No, my feelings were more than that until I finally knew for sure that I had long liked Ustad Vano. I loved him for years, even though I never saw him again. I never thought there would be a day when we would meet again after so many years apart but under different circumstances. I doubt he recognized me and I know my chances of being with him are very slim"
"Don't cry." Mega touched Ai's shoulder, rubbing the warm liquid coming out of the corner of the peach's eye.
"Mega, don't you know? I'm not like you guys because of me.." The flaw!
Defects,
He is disabled and he knows normal men prefer to be with normal women. Ai was not in that qualification and he knew in the end he would not be able to be with Ustad Vano.
Even if he smiles shyly or blushes get the attention of Ustad Vano who seems ambiguous, but he never forgets who he really is.
She is unworthy and will never be worthy, her quality is much inferior to that of Almaira, a beautiful and perfect girl with all her potential that is recognized by many.
"Ai, please stop, okay? God will be angry to hear you humble yourself." Mega hugged Ai strongly, her free hand patting Ai on the back for her to calm down immediately.
Ai gave a small smile, she was not unwilling to tell Asri about her condition but for now she was still not ready. He really needed some time to say everything to Asri.
"I enjoyed it all even though I knew it in the end.." I have no way.
"Eventually?" Mega and Asri compact together.
Ai releases Mega's embrace. He took a deep breath, looking up at the sky with a feeling of relief from being able to spill his heart uneasiness onto the two of them even though not all of them.
But at least he can be calmer.
"It's nothing" Ai felt strange again.
The feeling of being stared at by someone came back to haunt him. He was puzzled, his two eyes randomly searching for the existence of that 'someone.
It felt once again very real, Ai this time thought that there really was someone following and looking at her but who?
And where is that guy?
"Ai, what's wrong?" Asri saw Ai's confusion.
Ai retracted her gaze back while shaking her head, "It's nothing."
Seriate..
Who's there the answer is tomorrow huh.