I'm Not an Old Virgin

I'm Not an Old Virgin
Chapters 8.8

I opened my eyes slowly, my vision was a little blurry, so it was not very clear what I was seeing, but I saw a man standing by my side, clasping my hand tightly. Maybe it was Satrio.


"Sat, are you back?" I asked in a hoarse voice


Then the man looked at me. It turns out he was Mr. Nathan.


"Nadia, are you awake? , thank God" he said


Then I pulled my hand from his grasp.


"Iyaa sorry sir, where is Satrio Pak, he has returned right?."you are sad


"Nad, it's good that you rest first, look at your pale face and your eyes are puffy, don't think about Satrio just yet, I'm sure he's fine, I'm sure he's fine, he is a strong man and can take good care of himself. Now that I have sent my man to look for him, so Om Heru is also looking. So don't worry." she said


"I think he's back, why the hell would he leave me at a time like this?" I asked and then shed tears


Then Mr. Nathan took my hand back.


"Believe Nad, Satrio did all this with careful consideration, maybe he wanted to calm himself first, I promise I will take care and love you, just like Satrio did to you, please give me a chance, Nad." said Mr. Nathan


I let go of that grip again. It's not that easy this feeling can change course, even though I used to be so curious about Mr. Nathan, but I know it's not the love I'm looking for.


"Sorry sir, I can't. You have to understand my feelings, no matter how I have to meet Satrio now, I am afraid of bad things happening to him, let alone he just got out of the hospital" I said while shedding tears


Nathan came up to me and wiped my tears.


"Already Nad, don't cry anymore, now you restore yourself first, then you can go back to looking for her, I promise I will help you" he said soothingly


"Thank you, sir." I said with a forced smile


"I've already brought you food and drink for you" he said


I just nodded.


Then he went to Satrio's kitchen.


I got up from Satrio's bed and looked around the room. It turns out that here a lot has changed, one of which is a photo of Salsa and Satrio no longer exist. Except here are just my pictures. Who knows when Satrio took her. It's a thief, even my heart goes with you.



I'm sure maybe one day he'll secretly return to his room. So why don't I write a reply for him. Hopefully when he gets to his room he'll read it.


Then I took a book and a pen at Satrio's desk. I also started writing.


#Letter For Mas Satrio That Sucks


Hello Masku...


You're happy if I call you Mas? hehe


Just a few hours ago I left you, I felt like I had lost you so much.


What if it happened next, I could never imagine how much my heart would be desolate and broken.


It turns out that you are right, that all the women close to you, will surely fall in love with you. I am so stupid that I am caught up in this feeling of love. A feeling I just confessed to you today.


How can you, you ask someone else to replace your presence in my life, I will not be able to accept your request.


Sat, you love me not the same?


If you love me you don't have to leave me. Believe me, I will go wherever you go, I will feel whatever you feel, even your sadness or fear, I am ready to feel, if you are there for me, I want to and I will be happy.


Sat, sorry. Maybe I'm a stupid woman, who has dared to avoid my own feelings for you, if only at that time in the waterfall I accept you, surely maybe today I will not lose you. But didn't you promise to wait for me ? But why are you leaving now and can't wait? you have to !


Satrio at first I really hate you, I hate your arrogance and your attitude that likes to play tricks on women. But it turns out that true, hate and love actually only have a thin bulkhead, which can move from one feeling to another. And that hate has now turned into deep love. Especially after I found out your real personality, it was so awesome and it made me so proud of you. That's why I didn't stop thinking about you.


If you ask me when I started to love you? surely I will answer, on the night that you saved my life for the umpteenth time, no one in my life was willing to sacrifice anything just for my sake. But you are capable and I admire your actions.


In fact, no one wants to do what I want. But you ? always be the front man who wants to please me. You want to take me out on the side of the road, you want to buy me a white rose even you want to please my family and neighbors. Haha... You are a good man that God created.


Sat, promise me you'll be okay wherever you are. I promise I'll take good care of myself for you.I promise I'll wait for you. Sat, if you've read this, let me tell you, that I love you and will always love you whenever.


Sat, I always pray for your kindness and your safety. I don't want to see sad and lonely Satrio again, I hate that.I want to see Satrio who always smiles, laughs and even does annoying things. That's better for me. To make sure that you are always okay.


Sat, I love you. Take care of yourself and come back for me. I'll be waiting for you.


Who loves you


~Nadia Maharani


There were no tears when I wrote this, many things I wanted to say, but I was not able to write it. I finally put the book on his desk. Hoping if he comes back, he'll read it.


Then suddenly Mr. Nathan came with a bowl of porridge and water on the tray.


"Nad, let's eat first, what are you doing there?" he asked


"No sir, I was just looking at Satrio's room" I said, then stood up and sat back on Satrio's bed. I don't want Mr. Nathan to know I wrote Satrio a letter.


"Oh so, don't be sad anymore, from today there I will take care of you, let's eat, I'll bribe you." he said while putting a tray and its contents spelled near Satrio's bed.


I just nodded and finally wanted to be fed, because anyway I had to be healthy in order to find Satrio.


Then Mr. Nathan patiently bribed me.