I'm Not an Old Virgin
Season II: Mahligai of Love (Chapter 14.11)
With tears flowing from the corner of his eyes, Ai looked at Ustad Vano who was now very close to him. They were at an abnormal distance, staring at each other with gentleness, and even they could feel the roar of their respective breaths.
This should be wrong, this is not right, they are not allowed to do it. But this is too sweet, this feeling is too, this feeling is really unbearable and they ultimately do not want to stay away from each other.
If it could, if it were not a sin so hated by God, then perhaps this close distance could lead them to a much more intimate act. But their love for the Power is able to block this thought.
To this extent, they do it only to this extent. Breaking the longing that has soared, revealing a taste that has been condensing for years, and sharing the opium that has been a wonderful dream in their sleep.
Falling in love is not as painful as imagined. It's very soft, sweet, and pleasant. Their hearts made him continue pounding as if they had been running a marathon in a hurry. No, it doesn't hurt, really.
Not that the pain was even sweeter.
"Did Ustad Vano really mean it?" With both hands tightly holding the paper bag below, Ai asked using a soft voice laden with embarrassment.
His face that was pale deathly now even blushed beautifully under the dim light of the moon. Makes Ustad Vano wonder how beautiful this face will be on their bridal night?
"By Allah, I mean it, Aishi. This heart of mine has long been yours, only yours." Ustad Vano in a very serious voice with a soft tone confirmed.
Ai bit her lips in embarrassment, there was doubt in her eyes.
"But..How about Almaira's sister, Ustad? Aren't you guys.. getting married?" Although she already knew the answer from Hana, Ai still questioned it.
He just wanted to hear the answer directly from Ustad Vano, he wanted to hear everything.
"I have nothing to do with him, Aishi. To me, it is no different from any other santri. And where did you hear this senseless news? If I'm going to marry her then why am I standing in front of you now? Aishi, you should know that any reason you give me to stay away will not be able to get you off me. You can't run anywhere, Aishi. You have to account for everything you've done to me for the rest of your life." Ustad Vano was afraid.
He was afraid of his Aishi, the girl who always dyed his last prostrations in prayer decided to stay away from him. He fears that it is happening and he fears being a cruel man, bringing and hiding Ai for himself somewhere.
He was afraid but at the same time he would do it if Ai really refused with him.
Isn't he very selfish?
"Ustad, I'm not away from Ustad Vano. I just want to make sure of a few things before making a decision..." Said embarrassed.
Ah, their current position is so awkward and too dangerous. But Ai likes it.
"But, can we take a considerable distance? Ai was afraid that anyone would see and spread bad rumors about Ustad Vano." Ai is still very concerned with the good name of Ustad Vano here.
And he doesn't want to pollute her.
Ustad Vano reluctantly lowered his hand from Ai's chin. But before that, he had time to wipe Ai's wet face with both hands.
"All right, but don't cry anymore. I really can't stand to see you like this." Pinta Ustad Vano.
Ai nodded in embarrassment, she lowered her head as if she was hiding a red hue on her face from Ustad Vano. His bashful actions looked sweet and adorable at the same time, Ustad Vano was made to itch by him wanting to touch. But he could only endure it with a helpless smile as their current situation was still far from 'may' to touch each other.
Ustad Vano has always been aware of this which is why he is still here, in this boarding school for a promise from 9 years ago.
"And don't worry about the bad rumors here. If they talk about it then we should be thankful that every word they say is a field of reward for us, isn't this fun?" Ustad Vano was not joking.
This is one of the reasons why Ustad Vano is not too mengubrisi rumors in the boarding house. That will not be true and the savvy santri by choosing will not interfere in the matter of others will survive the terror of the rumors here.
But if the rumors that spread have been too over the line, for example like Ai at this time, Ustad Vano certainly will not be silent. He will definitely crush this rumor.
"Ustad can't say that."
Ustad Vano smiled, "I know. Now what do you want to make sure of me."
He took one step back to make Ai more comfortable nearby.
Ai crumpled tightly the paper bag in her hand. He was both nervous and happy. However, this did not mean that he was entirely happy because he still had one very prodigious thought in his heart.
"Ustad, I'm disabled." Said Ai starting to speak.
Ustad Vano frowned, he could read where Ai was talking. But he will listen to it so that Ai's heart can be satisfied.
"I am not a perfect woman nor do I have a beautiful body shape." Ai slowly outlines her flaws in order for Ustad Vano to know that she is not like the women out there.