When Love Should Determine
Chapter 19

Time passes by so quickly without us knowing it. We cannot repeat all the time that has passed. We can only choose, waste our remaining time, or make the best use of it.

That morning Larissa was buying rice at a stall near her home. There were whispers of neighbors as he passed by. Although very slow, but Larissa can still hear it.

Larissa stopped her steps right in front of the person. "Sorry!. These mothers talk to me again, huh? What's wrong? Is there something wrong with me?" ask larissa directly. He likes it the most when there are people gossiping behind him.

The mothers looked very surprised. They did not expect if his words could be heard by Larissa. "emh.anu. He also looked at each other with other mothers.

"What's up, Mom? by the way, I won't be angry. Sometimes there's something about me that you don't like. Mothers do not need to whisper behind me" Larissa said firmly.

Mother was getting the wrong way. His face was flushed with embarrassment. "Anu Larissa.you're pregnant again, huh?" finally said.

Larissa smiled hearing what the mother asked. "No, Ma. I'm not pregnant. A few days ago I just finished coming by the moon" Larissa replied.

"Oh...." The mothers were 'o' ria. They throw one another a look.

"I'm sorry, Larissa. I thought you were pregnant again!" said the mother who asked.

"It's okay, Mom, it doesn't matter. I hope what you said came true. I hope I get pregnant soon again" Larissa said. "I'll excuse you then. I want to cook."

Regardless of the words of the mothers again, Larissa soon passed. He had to cook and go to the stall before his mother was angry again.

After some time struggling in the kitchen, Larissa finally finished cooking too. He immediately went to the mother's shop after cleaning himself first.

Arriving at the Larissa stall immediately served some buyers who came. He did everything with great sincerity.

For several days, Larissa continued to be preoccupied with the same routine, making her forget the mother's question the other day.

At midnight when Larissa was asleep in sleep, she dreamed of Baskoro. In the dream Baskoro said, "Sir, you're pregnant again."

Sontak Larissa immediately woke up. I don't know why I dream like that.

All night Larissa kept thinking about her dream. The dream looked very real, making it hard to forget.

Morning has arrived. Larissa still imagined that dream. Finally he decided to buy a testpack to ensure the truth of the dream.

Larissa went to the nearest pharmacy. He bought a pregnancy detector. Not just one, but three tools at once. Arriving at home he immediately performs the appropriate checking procedure listed in the packaging.

With a trembling hand, Larissa inserted the detector into the urine she had previously collected. And after a while, he lifted the device back up.

Cold sweat came out of Larissa's body. I can't wait for the results to show up. How happy she was when she found the pregnancy detector showed two red lines. She was actually pregnant.

Indeed, after the incident he was taken to the clinic the other day, he did not do KB. Hamza disagrees with that. Myths that circulate say, if a woman who has never given birth does KB, then her uterus can be dry, and she will be difficult to get pregnant.

That's why Hamzah disagrees if Larissa does KB. She was afraid that Larissa would have a hard time getting pregnant again. He wanted a child, let alone a boy.

Hamzah just woke up. He was tired because he was at sea all night. Larissa approached her husband when she found out he was awake.

Larissa first served a cup of coffee to her husband. He let Hamzah gather all his consciousness first. Only then will he tell you the happy news.

"Yank, I want to show you something" Larissa said with a smile after seeing Hamzah's consciousness re-assemble.

"What?" ask Hamzah.

Larissa also gave the results of a pregnancy test that she did this morning. "What's this?" ask Hamzah. He still doesn't understand all this.

"It's a pregnancy test, Yank, and the results are positive. I'm pregnant again" Larissa said happily.

"Oh, Alhamdulillah!" answer Hamzah flat. Re-put the test results.

Reality is not as beautiful as expectation. Larissa imagined that Hamzah would be happy and immediately embraced himself when he got the happy news. But it's all beyond imagination. In fact, Hamzah only responded to the happy news flatly, even impressed no matter.

Larissa looked very disappointed with the response her husband gave. His eyes glazed with disappointment. "You're not happy, are you pregnant with Kagi? or, you really don't want to have a child from me?" ask larissa sadly.

"Who said I wasn't happy? I'm happy, really!" hamzah replied quickly, still with his flat face.

"If you're happy, why are you acting so ordinary?" ask Larissa again.

"Then what should I behave like? do I have to shout joyfully like a child?" hamzah asked back.

"Not so, but at least you...."

Not done Larissa talk, Hamzah sudang cut it. "No, don't be too dramatized. I'm glad to hear you're pregnant again. are you satisfied now?" hamzah said in a high tone.

Larissa said nothing more. He decided to just get out of the room. His heart was again wounded with Hamzah's attitude. He came out of the room with tears.

Hamzah's attitude is hard to guess. Sometimes it is soft, sometimes it is rough. Make the heart ask, What is it with you.

Larissa felt she had done nothing wrong. She could not understand why her husband was being rude to her again. What exactly makes it like this.

The question kept repeating itself in Larissa's heart without ever getting an answer. He only prayed, may this pregnancy bring happiness to his small family. And re-attach her relationship with her husband.

Larissa went into the bathroom. He was crying so much. For a moment he wanted to spill all the sadness there. Before facing reality.

Hamzah went out. She did not know that Larissa was crying in the bathroom. Maybe not even care if he knows. He just returned after nightfall.

"This is the money from the sea last night. Use it well. Later that night I can not go to sea anymore" said Hamzah while giving some money to Larissa.

That's all he said when he came back. Then he left the house again and returned when Larissa had fallen asleep.