When Love Should Determine
Chapter 69

Larissa was determined not to shed any more tears. And he also promised himself that yesterday was the last time he let others take advantage of his kindness. He doesn't care what Hamzah wants to do with him anymore. All he had in mind was one, immediately paying off his debts to the Bank.

Larissa proved her point. During the night he slammed his bones even harder. All for one purpose, paying off all his debts.

Larissa never owed anyone. But once in debt, he owed five million rupiah to the Bank. That was why he worked day and night tirelessly just to be able to pay it off immediately.

For some people, that money may be meaningless. But for Larissa who in fact never owed, that much money is very much. Until it made a burden in his mind.

Finally, his hard work so far has not been in vain. He paid off the debt within five months.

Just for info, Larissa borrowed the Bank with a period of return for one year, or with twelve installments. But it turns out he was able to pay off his debt in just five months.

Relieved is now the heart of Larissa. Moreover, the Bank prepares its accuracy in paying debts by returning one payment. And he was very grateful for that.

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During the development period with all the problems that followed, Larissa continued to endure the pain she felt as a result of the disease she had suffered so far. And now he could no longer endure the pain.

Larissa tries to talk about her illness back with Hamzah. He did not want to make his own decision because he still respected Hamzah. Because after all he is still his legal husband and he is obliged to respect him.

"Entik, I asked permission to go to the health center to check my illness. I don't feel strong anymore" said Larissa one day.

Larissa suppressed her ego and tried to speak kindly to Hamzah. I hope her husband gives her permission. But hope is only hope. Because it turns out Hamzah rejects the desire of larissa. "What are you there for? haven't you been on alternative medicine all this time?."

Larissa had been undergoing alternative medicine as Hamzah suggested at the time. That was why Larissa was still able to endure the pain she felt.

"Yes, that's true! But I didn't feel any significant change after undergoing that alternative treatment. In fact I feel my illness is getting worse" Larissa replied.

"Where do you know if your illness is getting worse? You're not a doctor."

"I understand that I'm not a doctor. But this disease can be known by palpating the lump itself. So we can tell if the lump is still there or not in us. It is true, to make sure directly, we must see a doctor. That's why I asked permission for you to check yourself for sure" Larissa explained at length.

"But you know for yourself, if you go to the doctor, then you're sure you'll be operated on. Not all operations can go well. And you know for yourself how scared I am of the word operation."

"We won't know the results if we don't try. Like we lost before the war."

"So you want to try it with life?."

Hamzah sneered at Larissa's thought. Her lips revealed a cynical smile. "Didn't you learn from what your mother went through? He had surgery, but until now his illness has not healed. I even saw it getting worse."

Some time ago Bu Ani did undergo breast removal surgery because of breast cancer. Which is where the disease has entered the final stage. But Bu Ani did not want to undergo the chemotherapy process as a follow-up treatment procedure because it was not strong enough to withstand pain from the treatment process. So now the disease is getting worse.

This is what Hamza is afraid of. He was afraid that Larissa would experience what her mother had experienced.

Larissa is happy to know Hamzah is worried about her safety. It indicates that there is still love in Hamzah for him. But he forgot that the disease that Bu Ani and Larissa suffered was almost the same but different.

Another Hamzah is Larissa. If Hamzah is afraid that Larissa will be like her mother if she undergoes surgery, Larissa is worried that her illness will turn out to be like her mother if not treated properly. Moreover, he knows if breast cancer can decrease in children and grandchildren.

"Just pray! Suppose I actually have surgery, I will get a cure in that way" Larissa said. She kept trying to make her husband understand her point.

"I'm not sure about that. Your words sound impossible."

"Nothing is impossible if God wills."

Hamzah snorted in annoyance. He was angry that Larissa kept arguing. "As you do what! I don't give a shit. One thing you have to remember, I don't want to take responsibility for until something happens to you."

Larissa was disappointed to hear Hamzah's speech. But he is still trying to be patient. "Alright if that's what you want. I promise I won't blame you for what will happen to me. I just want you to know that I've been trying to talk this out with you."

And Larissa went to the puskesmas by riding a motorcycle without being escorted by her husband.

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Larissa walked into the examination room as soon as her name was called. There he underwent his alakadar examination due to tool limitations. And then he got a referral to a larger and more fully equipped hospital..

Understandably, puskesmas is just a place to treat mild diseases such as colds or fever, not for severe diseases such as Larissa suffered.

Larissa knew that. He deliberately went to the health center just to follow the procedure. Because he underwent treatment using health insurance from the government. Which he had to go to the puskesmas first as an initial fask.

Not that Larissa does not want to spend money on her own medical expenses. It's just that he doesn't have enough money for it. Especially yesterday he just paid off his debts. Moreover, it is not a pity if you have a health card but never used.

Larissa kept the referral letter well and immediately returned home. And when he got home he asked Hamzah to take him the day after tomorrow to go to the hospital where he was referred. Which hospital is in the city center.

Hamzah was silent, not refusing or asserting his wife's request. It seemed that he really did not care about what Larissa would do as she said earlier. And presumably Larissa also had to try more so that her husband would deliver it. Moreover, he did not dare to bring his own motorcycle to the big city.