When Love Should Determine
Chapter 45

For days Larissa could not eat and sleep properly. He continues to think about the problems he is facing, looking for the best way out so as not to hurt one of the parties.

Which makes Larissa sad, until now Hamzah did not also show good faith by apologizing or even pretending to admit his mistake to just reduce the problem. Don't go see him, just call him Hamzah doesn't do.

Larissa often mused alone in the room when her daughter was asleep. She felt her life was very empty without a husband on the side. She loved her husband deeply. She gave up her body and soul completely for her husband. Although undeniably her heart is often hurt because of her husband's attitude.

Larissa longs for a warm embrace from Hamzah, a hug that can calm her soul in times of turmoil like today. She misses the gentle strokes and warm kisses of her husband being poked in the head, joking together, and telling each other about how they missed each other's day before going to bed.

Although his heart is often made to bleed by Hamzah, it is undeniable that there are also many virtues in Hamzah that he could not possibly look. That was why he was currently very confused to take a stance.

Slowly Larissa's memory returns in the early moments of their marriage. At that time, Hamzah was very gentle and affectionate towards her. Hamzah can never be far from him for a second. Wherever he went, there must be Hamzah by his side. Even though they are in poverty line, but the love that Hamzah gives can make Larissa survive.

Hamzah also always attach importance to Larissa's desire above his own. In fact, he often gives advice that can cool Larissa's heart. He seemed to be the perfect priest for him at that time.

At that moment, life felt perfect. The love that grew between the two of them was so strong that it was envious for anyone who looked on. Until the miscarriage that changed everything.

But now they had a daughter in their midst. Which complements their happiness. Gives color to the household. Can't the princess treat Hamzah's disappointment at the loss of her son's future first.

In fact, from day to day Hamzah's temperament is increasingly changing, he becomes an untouchable person. Even Larissa herself as a wife is difficult to achieve.

Perhaps all of this was due to his desire to have a son not being fulfilled, because the child born by Larissa was a daughter.

But what is the power of Larissa in this. Is not all that the will of THE OWNER of LIFE. We cannot deny something that has been outlined by Him.

Bu Ani really proved his point at that time by meeting all the needs of Larissa. He always obeyed whatever Larissa wanted. He even behaved very sweetly to her.

Maybe Larissa doesn't have to bother thinking about how she's going to eat tomorrow. Or money from where to buy her son's diaper. By obeying his mother's words, he no longer messed around with money.

But in reality, her mind was very tormented because she lived far away from her husband. Perhaps it is too deep, in love, or perhaps this is called blind love.

But what's wrong with Larissa in this. Not everyone has the right to love and be loved. Regardless of what and how they love each other.

Even so, to hurt the heart of the beloved mother is very wrong. He did not want to be a disobedient child by defying his orders.

But he also did not want to ignore his obligation as a wife to submit and obey the orders of the husband. Is not the paradise of a married woman to her husband. Ridho Allah is on the husband ridho. The wrath of God is in the wrath of the husband.

I don't know, Larissa was very confused. On one side there is a husband, but on the other side there is a mother. It feels like eating the fruit of simalakama.

After days of contemplation and thinking, Larissa finally decided to close her heart tightly to her husband. He could not bear to make his mother's heart hurt even more with the choices he took.

This afternoon Larissa decided to go to the house of in-laws to talk to Hamzah about her decision. But when she was at the door, the mother stopped her steps. "Where are you going, Rissa?" tanyakanya.

"I want to see Hamzah, Mom!" answer's lirih.

The expression on the mother's face changed instantly upon hearing the reply Larissa gave. He stared intently, restraining the turbulent emotions in the heart. "Why do you want to see him again? Did you choose to go with him?."

"No, mother. I just want to take the bike that Hamzah brought" Larissa replied.

I still can't believe the answer Larissa gave me. He suspected that was just the reason. "Take that bike. I'll buy you a better bike."

"No, Mother. The bike was bought by selling my necklace. I'm more entitled to that bike. I intend to sell it" Larissa replied again, assuring her mother's heart that she would not leave him and leave with her husband.

Mom breathed a sigh of relief hearing Larissa's reply. He believed that Larissa would never leave him. "All right, son if that's what you want. But one thing you need to remember! I won't accept you again if you choose to go back to your husband."

"Yes, Mom. I understand!." Larissa continued her steps and rushed to meet her husband at the house of in-laws.

Intentions heart indeed wanted to take the bike from the hands of Hamzah. But when she got there, Larissa changed her mind.

I don't know what made it so, but when he was confronted with Hamzah, all his anger disappeared instantly. Lost without leaving a trace. It faded along with tears as she looked at her husband's figure again. Even he was unable to stem the tears that escaped from his eyelids.

This is called blind love. Can't tell which is right, and which is wrong.

Maybe Larissa is weak. But he is very passionate about love. From childhood, he never got genuine love, not even from his mother. Only her husband could give her that.

Now they both face each other. But not a word Larissa could say. Only tears are getting more and more unstoppable.

"Go home with your wife, son! Solve all the problems with a cold mind and heart" Baskoro advises when he sees the two are silent for a long time. "Remember! among you there are children who still need affection from both of you."

Hamzah followed his father's advice without many words. He soon left the house followed by Larissa behind him.