When Love Should Determine
Chapter 56

Larissa discovered that her husband had lied. But he didn't want to believe it until there was evidence. Because so far, Hamzah has never once lied to him.

After cleaning up the sale and bathing her son, Larissa went to the house of another crew member who was on one ship with her husband. But when he got there, he found out that it turned out that Hamzah really lied to him raw.

How broken and disappointed Larissa heart. He asked, not the money. But Hamzah lied to him. Where is that money then? And for what?

Millions of questions hung in Larissa's mind. If Hamzah already holds his own money, then why is he still asking for money from him? Even for the gas money and cigarettes Hamzah still asked him.

Larissa recalled, when she asked Hamzah to drive her to the market, Hamzah always asked for money to pay for coffee. He always had coffee in the shop while waiting for Larissa to finish shopping.

Larissa was angry, very angry. This time Hamzah's mistake was very fatal because he had dared to lie to him. And he cannot tolerate that mistake.

For Larissa, honesty in a relationship is everything. He will not accept any lies. Small, and in any form.

Perhaps lying to please someone is justified. But what was the reason Hamzah lied to him? and for what?. He asked, not asking for the money.

During this time Larissa always received whatever income Hamzah gave without much question. He will not ask for it and let Hamzah give it himself. Although she knew, asking for a living was her right as a wife.

Larissa went back home and kept the disappointment to herself. When he got home, he acted as if nothing had happened.

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Three days have passed. Larissa and Hamzah are still waging a cold war. None of them would budge and break the ice. They are equal with their own ego, considering themselves the most righteous.

That day in the middle of the night, Hamzah tried to touch Larissa. He wanted it so much. Larissa refused it.

Hamzah did not give up, he kept trying to touch Larissa and undressed her. His desire has been in the crown, so he does not want to give up before his desire is channeled.

Larissa doesn't want to lose. He continued to push and pull back his clothes. He closed his legs tightly as Hamzah tried to widen them. He even covered his body with a blanket so that Hamzah could not touch him.

Hamzah gave up long ago because he continued to get rejection. He came out of the room with a million regrets.

A tear fell on Larissa's cheek as she watched her husband leave. "I'm sorry! I didn't mean to reject you. I just don't want to do it before we solve the problem" he said. "O Allah, forgive me! You know why I'm doing this."

In religious teachings, a woman is obliged to serve her husband when he desires her. And the angel will curse every woman who rejects the husband's invitation to have sex.

Larissa knew her duty. But she still refused her husband. But is all this his fault?. I don't know! Only God knows.

Larissa wants Hamzah to apologize to her. Just one apology. Then he will forget everything that happened. But in fact until this moment she did not hear the apology was spoken from the lips of her husband.

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The sun is showing its light again. The wind blows mesrah. The birds chirping earthly adds to the beautiful panorama of the morning.

Larissa intends to go to the house of Lia, her cousin before leaving for the market. He wanted to spill the grievances to slightly reduce the burden on him.

Arriving there, Larissa told him everything that had happened. It seemed very much how depressed he was with this matter.

Lia hugged Larissa while rubbing her back. Let Larissa spill all her weight. "Take out all your burdens. Don't try to be a sniper yourself. Because it's not good for you."

"Never consider yourself alone. I was right here. I'm ready to be a good listener for you."

Larissa. His sobs sounded so heart-wrenching. "Am I guilty?."

"No! it's not your fault. Hamzah is guilty" Lia replied. He relentlessly rubbed Larissa's back to calm her down.

"Then what should I do? do I have to accept this divorce?" larissa lirih. Let go of Lia's embrace from her body.

Lia sighed. Think for a moment to find the right words to answer his cousin's question.

"Talk about this with your husband. Speak from heart to heart. Try to find the best way both."

"But I'm scared. You know for yourself, don't you know how my husband is?."

Lia sighed again. "Sometimes we have to speak up to solve problems. Never be afraid if you feel right."

Lia paused for a moment, letting Larissa think. After a while he continued his words. "We have to fight back if we are innocent. Even with a husband. Because the husband is not a god to be feared and never guilty."

"Find the best time to talk to your husband. And for that only you know."

Larissa pondered every single word Lia spoke. And that's true. She had to be brave if she wanted her husband to be aware of his mistake. She was determined to talk to her husband.

At midnight, Hamzah tries to touch Larissa again. This time there was no rejection from his wife. He also melolosi clothes his wife and immediately complete his desire.

There is no passion for Larissa while serving her husband. In fact, he did not even enjoy every touch and fondling launched by him. He did so only to disincentive the obligation.

Larissa let Hamzah do as he pleased with her body. And after all was done, he immediately put his clothes back on.

After his wish is channeled, Hamzah intends to go back to sleep. Larissa stopped him. "Wait on! don't sleep yet! I want to talk to you."

Yes, Larissa felt this was the right time to talk to her husband. Hamzah's emotions must have been more stable after they made love.

Hamza grabbed his blanket and sat back down. "Say! what do you want to talk to me about?."

Larissa sighed, gathering all the courage she had before speaking. "Are you serious about your decision yesterday? do we have to part ways like this?"

No response from Hamza. He just kept silent. Larissa repeated her question. "Tell me what exactly do you want?."