When Love Should Determine
Chapter 40

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Everything Mom told me was exactly the same as what Aunt told me the other day. One thing Larissa doesn't understand. Why did you keep Larissa away from your father and family. Even seemed to cover his existence.

"Mother" call Larissa. After listening for a long time, he finally started talking. "Auntie says that Dad used to give the same name as the child conceived by the second wife Father. Is that right, Mom?" tanyakanya.

"Yes! that's true."

"Then why did you just give Larissa's name to me?. So much hate for Dad that I don't want to put my father's given name on me?."

"You've misunderstood me, son. That's not the cause!" replied mother.

"What then?" sahut Larissa quick. "Tell me, Mom, why? What cause?."

Bu Ani was silent. His eyes looked far away. His memory returned to the dark page he was trying to throw away. A shadow of an past event rotates like a movie being played.

"When you were a baby, you did give your father a given name. After that, you are often sick. Your body is thin and hard to eat."

"The elder said, you are not fit to use the given name of your father. They suggest either replacing it, or using part of that name. I also obeyed the elder's words out of concern for your health."

Mom was silent for a moment. Trying to gather strength to cope with the pain of past cuts.

She took a deep breath before continuing her story. "First, I gave birth to two children before your sister. They both died when they were just a few days old. When they died, it was almost the same as you."

Larissa was stunned to hear the mother's confession this time. He just found out if before the mother had children other than herself and Iqbal. I've never brought this up before.

"That's why I didn't use the given name from your father. I'm scared, I'm so worried about you. I don't want to lose a child for the third time." Tears fell down the cheeks. Telling this is the same as opening up old pain for him.

Larissa was swept away in a wave of grief from her mother. But it didn't last long. Quickly remove the tears that flow. There was something more important he wanted to ask. He did not want to waste this opportunity by lingering in sorrow.

"Then why didn't you ever say anything about Dad to me? why didn't you ever meet me with her?."

"Mom didn't mean to hide you from her. Actually when you were a baby, your father came to see you once."

Larissa was back. He just knew this reality. Even Auntie never told him this right. "If that's true, then why didn't you ever say anything to me?."

"Mother is afraid you are hurt by your father's second wife and your aunt" she replied.

"You mean?." Larissa scrunched her forehead. I don't understand what his mother meant.

"The first time they both knew that mom was married to your dad, they went to mom and hit it all out. They assume the mother is the actor, who deliberately snatched her husband. In this case, the mother is the victim. I don't know if your father still has a wife."

Larissa sanctioned with her mother's answer. Because the attitude that aunt showed her all this time was not unlike what mother said.

For Dad's second wife, Larissa couldn't judge how her true nature was. Because he is now dead. But as for aunt, Larissa didn't see if auntie was like you said she was.

"What's mom lying for!" answer mom quickly. "There's no benefit for mom."

Larissa fell silent, justifying mother's words. Now he worries between believing in his mother's words, or believing in his own judgment arm.

"You don't believe what I said, do you!" mother said, as if she could read Larissa's mind. "Alright, that's your right. I can't force you to trust me."

Mom paused her words for a moment with a long sigh. His sobs sounded very soft, yet it could still be heard by Larissa. It seems to represent how painful the wounds that had once been broken.

"God you know, not once or twice they come to mom, but many times. They even threatened my mother. Even when they find out about pregnant women, their anger becomes more intense. They dare to beat up mom."

"If there were no neighbors to help you then, you might not be in this world right now."

"lik! mom must have lied to me. I just made up this story to cover up my mother's mistake of hiding me from my father's family, right."

"Mom didn't lie. This is what really happened."

"Auntie once told me that my grandmother used to watch me from a distance. Even he wanted to come to me but not because he was afraid of my mother."

"If it's true what you said, then why would you be afraid to see me when you're next to me?."

"Mom doesn't know why she's afraid of me. Maybe he feels guilty for taking part in hurting mom first."

"Enough mom! don't blame others for the mistakes you've made" Larissa shouted as she covered her ears with her palms.

"Mother does not seek justification for mother's attitude. But that's what happened."

Larissa was silent, trying to digest all the mother's words. Now he is worried, between believing with his mother, or believing with his aunt.

After a long silence, Larissa spoke again. "Think what you said is true. But why didn't you ever say this to me before? why are you so impressed to cover everything from me?."

"Mom did it to protect you. I don't want you to get hurt."

"If it's true that aunt wants to hurt me, then why did she accept me with open arms?."

Mother was silent, unable to answer Larissa's question, making Larissa more convinced that what she said was just a lie. "Mom's silence shows that mom only lied to me. Everything you said just now was a lie."

Mom raises her head. He was so hurt by his son's words. "Mother is disappointed in you. You trust people you just met more than me, your real mother. The one who's already bet your life for you."

Larissa threw away her face. Unable to look at his mother's face. "Mom don't act like the most hurt mom here. I should have been angry at my mother, not the other way around. I had the heart to hide everything about Dad. So I have to accept humiliation from my friends."

Mom gets hurt hearing Larissa say. Like a wound that has not healed properly, but has been added with a new wound on it. "Mom's sorry if you have to suffer because of this. But really, I didn't mean to hurt you."

Silent, for a moment they were both immersed in each other's thoughts. Until finally the mother opened her voice because she could not bear the wounds she felt. "Mom said everything you wanted to know. All is reality without any mother reducing or adding."

"Now it's up to you. You want to believe in mom or not. What matters is that I told you everything."

After saying that, mother passed away leaving Larissa with tears breaking. Larissa is still in her place. He still does not believe in all this reality