When Love Should Determine
Chapter 55

In the middle of the night, Larissa woke up feeling very thirsty. He also intends to take drinking water in the kitchen to slightly wet his throat.

Larissa opened the room door and walked towards the kitchen. And after his thirst was gone, he also intended to return to the room.

Nothing was awkward at the time. But as he flashed near the living room, he faintly saw a shadow in the corner of the room.

Larissa sharpened her eyesight, trying to ascertain what she saw. But his eyes that were still covered in tears last night made it a little difficult to be sure. Finally, Larissa decided to look at it from a close distance.

Larissa tiptoed, walking slowly without making a sound. Actually, he was a little afraid if the shadow he saw was a criminal or thief who was entering the house. But what would be stolen from a small house like the one he lived in. There is not even one valuable item in the house that is worth taking. But still he had to make sure of everything, and curiosity overcame all his fear.

How surprised when she was near, it turned out to be her husband. He was curled up with his legs bent. The big bag he was carrying was used as a pillow. It was really sad at the time.

Larissa reached out, intending to wake her husband up to move to sleep in the room. But when he almost touched his body, his hand came to a halt. A flash of memory of the incident earlier this afternoon made him undo his intentions.

It is unbearable to see the condition of the husband at this time. But it is not easy to erase the memory of yesterday's events. The pain caused is still in pain. Even the wounds that are cut are not dry.

"Why did we become like this? Can't we be like other couples?" he said. A single tear slid without being stopped. "If you could control a little bit of anger, then we wouldn't be like this. And I'm gonna be the happiest woman in the world to be with you."

"I'm sorry! It's not that I don't love you anymore. But I want you to change. I want you to realize your mistake and not do the same thing again when you're angry."

"Engh.." -...." The sound of groans was heard from Hamzah's lips accompanied by body movements to disperse Larissa's daydream.

Larissa wiped away the tears and quickly returned to the room before Hamzah woke up and realized her presence.

Larissa broke down and tried to close her eyes again. But in fact it is very difficult. His heart is a dilemma, between pity with the condition of the husband and the wounds he incised. Makes him angry because he cannot be firm on his feelings. Until dawn, he could not close his eyes.

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The sun began to shine. Warming all the cold inhabitants of the earth. But in fact the light was not able to warm the heart of Larissa who began to freeze.

Larissa started to carry out activities as usual. But this morning something was a little different. There was no smell of food as usual. There was no intention of preparing breakfast for her husband. Passion to serve the husband seemed to disappear along with the pain.

After bathing her son, Larissa immediately prepared to go to the market for shopping for stalls. No laughter or even a little bit of courtesy. They were both silent, caught up in the cold war.

After buying everything needed, Larissa returned home and began arranging sales. Not long after that, the customers started to arrive.

Seeing Larissa busy serving buyers, there is no intention in Hamzah to help a little. Even he just left without saying goodbye to Larissa.

Larissa was silent, there was no intention to ask her where her husband was going. He just looked at his departure with pushy eyes. His heart was again hurt at his attitude. But not a single tear came out of the eyelid.

It seemed like Larissa's heart had completely frozen, or perhaps the tears had run out because overnight had continued to spill. I don't know, only he knows.

The more daylight Larissa stalls the more crowded. While serving, Larissa chatted with the buyer to just make small talk.

There was nothing special about that conversation. But then there was one customer who asked, "your husband goes with 'DAMAR', huh? I saw it yesterday on the beach."

"Yes, ma'am!" answer Larissa kindly.

"The Musthofa boat"

"O....who yesterday can fish Dorang a ton of it huh?"

"Yes, ma'am!"

It is true, a few days ago Hamzah got a very good catch. And Larissa was so happy to hear that.

"What part was yesterday?"

"It can be a hundred thousand."

"What's? hundred grand? Is that not wrong?" the customer looked very surprised when Larissa said how many parts were obtained.

"No, mbak! it's all it can be."

"But I heard yesterday it got two hundred grand!."

Degs.... Larissa was surprised to hear the customer's words. But he tries to keep thinking well. "Ah, maybe 'campoan' that can be so, mbak. My husband is just an ordinary guy".

'Campoan' is a regular guy. His job was much more than ordinary men. They also have to take care of the boat. Of course, they got a bigger share.

"No, really! ordinary people do get that much" the buyer remained adamant if what he said was true.

"Lack of knowing, too, ma'am! my husband did say he got it that way."

"Cooking, yes, can fish Dorang a ton but only get that part. Feels impossible!"

The buyer kept talking, but Larissa did not want to serve his words again. His mind raged, either believing in the buyer's words or the husband.

Larissa was very surprised to hear the buyer's words. Still vividly remembered in memory if her husband said he only got a hundred thousand dollars when he asked that day. But why now the buyer said something else.

Suspicion arises in Larissa's mind if the husband has lied. But so far she has never found her husband doing that. Hamzah often hurt him, but never once did he lie to him.

Even so, he did not want to believe it just like that before there was evidence. He also dismissed that suspicion. "No! Hamzah couldn't possibly lie" he murmured reassuringly. "I can't just trust anyone before I get proof."

Larissa continues to serve other buyers until all sales are exhausted. But in her heart she was determined to find evidence if her husband did not lie.

Larissa's heart is getting worse. One problem is not finished, but another problem arises. But he did not want to tell anyone this, especially to his mother before everything was clear.

After cleaning up the sale and bathing her son, Larissa went to meet other men who were in one boat with her husband.

Not to disbelieve, but he just wanted to prove that the husband did not lie to him. But when he arrived at the man's house.....