MUSE
S3 ~ DISAPPOINTED

THE MUSE S3

EPISODE 116

S3 \~ DISAPPOINTED

\~ The happiness I expect is only limited to praise and encouragement from him.\~

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I blinked my eyes, trying to collect pieces of my life. My head feels so heavy and my eyes are twitching. Plain ceiling and bright white TL lights greeted me as I opened my eyes.

“Where am I?” I muttered to myself.

“You're in the hospital, Kanna.” a baritone voice welcomed my question. I'm a little surprised, why is this guy still here?

“Zean? Why are you here?”

“You passed out and I drove you to RS.” he replied. Zean was still sitting quietly beside my bed. His handsome face looked so calm and relaxed, I really could never guess the deep emotions from him.

“Go home, Zean. I'm okay,” I try to sit and strengthen the body.

“You kicked me out?”

“Sorry, that's not what I meant. I just don't feel good about you, my family has been troubling you, I don't want to bother you either. You must be very tired of what happened today.”

“Easy, Kanna. You didn't bother me at all, and I wasn't tired at all.” Zean's answer made me even more astonished.

“Actually what's your goal, Zean? Do you like me?” ask me to the point, I have to turn it down I already have Leon.

“Yes, I told you before. I'm a fan of the angel Kanna.” Zean smiled.

“Is it really just fans? No more?” my mind in my heart.

“Zean, I already have...,”

“You're up Kanna?!!” suddenly Mama's cry interrupted me, making both of us focus on her.

“Tante has arrived. Then I say goodbye, Kanna. Get well soon, I'll introduce you to my brother.” Zean got up and gently patted the back of my hand. I nodded slowly in response.

“Mari, Aunt.” says Zean to Mom.

“Be careful, Nak Zean.” Mama replied.

“Wait, Zean!!” call me again.

“Ya?”

“Thank you.”

“Sama-sama.” Zean again gave me a sweet smile before leaving my hospital room.

Maybe I was thinking too much about Zean. It seems he has no meaning. There's no way she likes me, we didn't even know each other before.

After Zean, Mama sat beside me. He feeds the porridge deliberately given by the RS. Mama also helped me lean so I would feel more comfortable while eating.

“You did, already know there is an ulcer. Still don't eat all day.” Mama began to nag, indeed her words were not wrong. She was angry because she was worried about me.

“Against eating, Ma,” I replied, still with mouth full of porridge.

“Pelan-pelan talking, later choking.” Mama said gently.

“Mama and Papa why, anyway, belain Kak Rezzi until like that?”

“The name is also parents, Kanna.” Mama put the porridge back in my mouth.

“Trus like Kanna does not know Zean what Papa and Mama will still pay the money?” I wonder, it is true that all parents love their children, but if the love of my parents is called love that is misleading.

“Mama doesn't know either, Kanna. Don't talk about Rezzi. You eat a lot first so that it heals quickly.”

I gave up, convincing my parents not to spoil their children was like talking to a rock. I better shut up and save my strength.

“Which cone, Ma?” I suddenly thought of Leon, he must have contacted me just now. He must have reached the village of T from this afternoon.

“Oh, Papa's saved. Leon kept calling you. Forced Papa to lift.”

“Wait for your meal to run out, Mama ask for her phone.” Mama put the porridge back in my mouth. It feels bland, but I still finish it so I can get my phone again soon.

— MUSE S3 —

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I was hospitalized for almost 5 days. My cheeks were swollen again, and my weight seemed to increase. I glanced towards the scales beside the wardrobe. Usually I am not afraid to weigh my weight, but now, just going up requires extra courage. My sweat was pouring, I was again afraid of the weight meter.

And sure enough, my fear was proven! Shortly after stepping up the scales I saw the number 58, up three kilos. Hah..., why is my body so easily widened? Just the nutritional fluids from the infusion and eating regularly have managed to make three kilos of fat back lodged in my body.

“I have to exercise,” my mummy is anxious.

Triiin... 🎶

The phone surprised me.

“Hallo, Leon?”

“Kanna, have you eaten? Don't be late eating again!” Leon always calls at mealtime, he always reminds me to eat.

“Iya bringle, here I want to eat,” I replied.

“Good, VC me when you eat Kanna! Don't lie!”

Clique

Leon turned off his call and replaced it with a video call.

How can I avoid trying? Leon made me want to not have to eat. I picked up a plate of rice along with side dishes, and ate in front of the phone. Leon was waiting for me to finish all the food on the plate.

“It's over,” I lifted my plate.

“Good girl!” leon's smile was happy, I replied with a discordant smile.

“Do not diet excessively Kanna. That's not good. I don't want to see you sick. It's okay if you're fat, I like you for who you are. Don't torture yourself, Ok!” Leon went back to speaking, even though during my time at the hospital he had also scolded me. Now, every chance he has to go back to repeating his message. Duh, I'm so tired of hearing that.

I don't know why I don't even like the way I watch. Didn't Leon know that I craved a slim body all this time because of him? For the sake of feeling worthy when he is with her? And he told me to eat and keep eating, he said I'm fat it's okay! What does it mean that I changed all this time?

I was even tormented for her sake, at least she should have praised me, right? No need to praise it is okay, at least he is silent and support all the decisions I take.

“Why does Leon always tell me to eat and eat? Does he want me to go back to the old Kanna? Fat ugly Bab1?” my bad thoughts drifted back, making my heart filled with sadness.

Tears flowed from my eyes. The happiness I hope for is only a compliment and encouragement from him.

“Why are you crying Kanna?” Leon was surprised to see my tears.

“I hate you, Leon!”

I turned off the phone and ran into the room, sobbing. My pillow is wet with tears. My heart aches, if Leon never appreciates my current form, then what does it mean that I'm doing all this?

— MUSE S3 —

Hadh Kanna...

Poor 😭😭

Don't misunderstand Leon Donk. It will be because of darling.

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