MUSE
S2 ~ NICKS WOUND
S2 MUSE
EPISODE 79
S2 \~ NICKNAME WOUND
\~Tears drip from the corner of his eye. I can see his gaze implying such great disappointment. I can't stand to see it, I'm afraid to know the consequences.\~
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So how's the story???
So why did all this happen???
Why would I hurt him? Is it because my chest hurts so much and my heart feels so hurt?
I hurt her because I was jealous of her.
I turned back into a monster because of my own selfishness.
I was selfish, I made him endure all my heartache.
I did not care at all for his cry, his plea for mercy, until his cry.
Her pretty face was bleeding but I didn't care.
Her wry eyes kept on shedding tears and I didn't care.
Sweats all over her body and I still don't care.
Whyyy???
Why am I so sickening?
Why is my soul so broken?!!
Why did my common sense disappear?!!
My consciousness returned when the smell of blood smelled so thick and Kalila's tears stopped dripping. His sobs subsided, changing with blank stares on his two round eyes.
A moment later Kalila closed her eyes and was unconscious.
“Kalila?! Kalila?!” I called her name many times.
Now that fear has enveloped my heart, I don't want him to leave me. I don't want him to leave my side. I need her, I love her, Kalila!
“Baby..! Wake up!! I'm sorry..!” I lifted Kalila's body and hugged her. Holding her in my arms, kissing and gently stroking her messed up face. His sweat and tears were still left, making my heart languish full of regret.
My hand trembled as it touched the wound on Kalila's forehead that had arisen because of my own actions.
Yeah, God. Why did I do it???!!!
Why???!!!
“Build Kalila. Please...! Ii'm sorry. Pardon...! Baby, sorry!” I know a thousand words of forgiveness won't make him wake up and forgive me. But at least I wanted to tell him that I was so sorry to have done all this.
I cried while hugging Kalila. His hand was slow, I pulled his hand to hold my hand. I kept sobbing while holding it. My tears washed her beautiful face.
Why would I hurt him? Hurt his tiny body? Why Arvin? Why are you so despicable?!
“No...! Baby!! Wake, baby!!” I patted her on the cheek slowly, Kalila remained unresponsive to my call.
I kissed her lips, cold and without reply. The lips were so warm and full. It was red and so sweet. Why did I ruin everything?! Why did I inflict such a deep wound on his heart. I once promised to heal his wounded heart.
I laid Kalila's body back down carefully. Find a cell phone and call Aleina. In the heat I rubbed my forehead rough. Walking back and forth like an iron, losing direction and common sense.
“Hallo, Sir?”
“Aleina, call the doctor to aprtemenku.”
“You're not going to dinner??”
“NOW!!! Call the doctor now!!!” I shouted at Aleina.
“Good, Mr.”
I slammed the phone to pieces. I fell down and grabbed my hair.
“I'm sorry, Kalila,” My tears are meaningless at this moment.
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Aleina came with a doctor. I've moved Kalila inside her own room. Wear more decent clothes.
“What is this?” the woman's doctor seemed confused as to what was happening.
Who was not at a loss at the sight of how many kiss marks I gave Kalila along with her injuries, not to mention her consciousness that disappeared due to such a huge mental burden.
“Please treat him!! And don't ask too many questions!” my snapping.
“Ba..., fine!!”
“If he doesn't realize I'll kill you too!!” my threat.
Aleina and the young doctor were seen gulping her saliva several times in fear of my threat.
“Master, let the doctor check on Miss Kalila. You rest.” Aleina told me to come out, she was afraid that my harsh treatment would even hinder the doctor while treating Kalila.
I thought, I'm back in my room. Turning on cold water shower. The cold water came down and flushed my body. The blood thickens to dilute as the water washes away each of its villages.
I hugged my knees and cried. Just this time I was crying out for something. I thought my love for her was enough to make me a normal person. I thought my love for her was enough to make me heal.
“ARG....!!!” I roared and cried.
Why am I so stupid???!!!
I'm a fool for hoping to cover all my weaknesses with love.
I'm stupid to hope love will be perfect just by having each other.
“Kalila, Kalila, Kalila!!!” I called out his name in regret.
My heart is so tight, I feel guilty for her. Kalila must have been scared, my baby must have been scared when I touched her violently. She must have been terrified when I made her moons of tightness in my heart.
— MUSE S2 —
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The coldness of the water made my body shiver with coldness. My lips and hands felt numb and numb. I wanted to punish myself for hurting him.
“Master?!” Aleina came in and helped me get up. He took a towel and put it on my shoulder.
“How's Kalila?”
“Nona has received treatment, Sir. He was just in shock, no serious injuries.” Aleina tried to calm me down.
“Sgratitude.” I let out a sigh of relief, my tears came back from gratitude. Why am I being this cute?
“Master, your hands should also be sewn.” Aleina glanced at my fist that was still dripping fresh blood.
“Good.”
“Deplace clothes, Sir. I'll have the doctor prepare.” Aleina came back out.
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I changed my clothes and let the doctor sew the wounds I got for punching the mirror.
“I'm fine, Na.” I brushed.
“Better you break.”
“I'll look after Kalila until she's conscious.” I walked towards Kalila's room.
“Do not be reckless, Sir. Your body also needs rest.”
“I'll rest next to Kalila,” I said.
“OK, Alright, Sir, at least take medicine.” Aleina gave up on persuading myself. He knows very well my strong and determined nature when it comes to having a will.
I sat beside Kalila's bed, stroking her long, black hair. I really like her hair. Ah, No!! I love every inch of him. His eyes, his lips, his fingers, his toenails, everything.
The doctor and Aleina had already washed and cleansed Kalila's body. He changed Kalila's clothes and also applied ointment to her bruises.
“Sorry, Baby,” I hold his hands tapering, there is a feeling so warm flowing from his fingers.
“My law, Baby! But never leave me.” I put Kalila's palm on my cheek and kissed her.
— MUSE S2 —
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My head feels so dizzy, and my neck hurts. I don't know what time I fell asleep next to his bed. Clasping his hands with all his heart. Waiting for him to wake up and call my name. I like the way he calls my name spoiled.
This morning it was still raining, though not as hard as it was yesterday night . The sound of birds chirping is not heard, it may still hide in the nest and warm each other.
“Kalila?! Are you awake?”
I saw Kalila sitting and leaning against the headboard. He looked at me with nanar, holding back his tears that seemed to want to spill out.
“How are you feeling, baby? Feeling better?” my many.
Kalila remained silent and ignored me. He turned his eyes to the outside window. Kalila finally had no power to contain it, she shed tears.
“Kalila, forgive me.” I pulled her body to hold me.
Silent....
“Please forgive me, Baby. I'm guilty of you.” I repeated my apology again, but he kept quiet and did not answer.
“Please don't shut up!! Punish me Kalila!! My words, hit me, channel your anger!” my yelling.
Staying silent, Kalila remained silent.
“I will, baby, just don't you ignore me like this.” My tears came back to me when I saw him silent expressionlessly. It was more painful than when the doctor stitched my wounds last night.
I clasped Kalila's hand, “ini hurts more, Kalila!!”
Kalila remained silent, as if she really wanted to repay me. I bowed, the sense of tightness returned. I should have acknowledged a long time ago that I was a syco. So Kalila wouldn't get hurt like this.
“I told you once that I have a disease, right? Do you remember?”
Kalila was silent, but started paying attention to my words.
“I'm mentally ill, Kalila. I'm a syco, a sadist, a masochist. I tortured women before having s*ks with them.” I paused on my words to just take a breath.
“I also do not hesitate to kill people, either in the real sense or figurative sense,”.
I did kill my opponent and my business rival by mentally destroying him, or seizing his company.
“I felt I could recover when I got to know you two years ago, Kalila! Do you remember that night?! Our first night?”
“I did not torture you at all, I was sincere when I did everything with you.”
“....”
“Then I searched for you two years ago. I feel like I'll be able to recover because of your presence, Kalila.” I fused our foreheads together, her warm breath touching the skin.
“You are my medicine, the antidote to my broken soul.” I hugged Kalila.
“I really love you, Kalila. Don't leave me. Please beg.” I tightened my hugging.
I begged him. He is my only love, my medicine, and the antidote to my soul. Without it I would again be destroyed, without which I would again be a despicable and sinful human being.
“You're wrong, Arvin. You don't love me,” Kalila finally answered my words, although that's not the answer I want to hear from her.
“I love you, baby. Really!”
“If love you won't torment me.”
“No!! I really love you. Look at my heart, Kalila!! Feel the beat because of you!!” I put his hand on my chest.
Tears dripped from the corner of her eye. I can see his gaze implying such great disappointment. I can't stand to see it, I'm afraid to know the consequences.
“Arvin, we just broke up, yes,” finally sounded also that heart-breaking remark.
The short words coming from her dry lips made me languish.
Kalila pulled her hand out of my grasp. He gently stroked my wounded face.
“I'm not your medicine, Brother,” his head is slowly rolling.
Kalila kissed my forehead and moved to kiss my lips. Just a moment but it felt very painful. I looked at him with wide eyes, I didn't think he really wanted to leave me.
“You'll never understand how much I love you, Arvin. The more I love you, the more pain you inflict in my heart.” Kalila rubbed my scuffed lips with her thumb.
“Because of my deep love, I don't want to get hurt because of you.” Kalila pulled her hand.
“No!!! If love endures!! Hang on for me, Kalila!!” I held her wrist.
Tears flowed from the corner of Kalila's eyes. I hurt her again with the clutches of my hand. I realize that.
Does his love really make the pain even more painful? And the wound felt deeper.
“Kalila, forgive me.”
“I've forgiven you.”
“CALILA!!!”
“I've forgiven you, Arvin.”
“Baby!!! Please, give me a chance to fix it.”
My voice is getting hoarse. My head was dizzy again because the fluku had not subsided. My body heat did not allow me to continue our conversation. I finally collapsed and fell unconscious.
“ARVIN?!”
— MUSE S2 —
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How did you feel after reading this episode?
The power of love is so incredible. Love makes the pain feel so deep.
But believe me that love is also able to treat the pain in its own way.
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