MUSE
S5 ~ WHOSE CHILD?
S5 MUSE
EPISODE 21
S5 \~ WHOSE CHILD?
\~ Why can't I have you?
Why can't I get your love?
Why can't we have each other when we love each other?\~
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BELLA POVS
Belaciaquin, a name that is beautiful, smart, and also has a deep meaning. But my life is not the same as that name. Growing up in a modest family and losing a father figure at an early age. With a night-working mom who was never home made me lose the family affection.
I am a child who lacks love and affection.
I am a child who longs for the embrace and also the warmth of the affectionate caress of the nearest person.
My encounter with Lucas was also the magnitude of the love that emerged in the middle of us both made me find happiness again. The affection Lucas gave me made me love him so much. I don't care what other people think I'm as low as I am right now, because I just need him by my side.
I crawled to get close to her, asking for forgiveness for my mother's mistake that had left her family devastated and her mother dead.
But Lucas rejected me, he no longer wanted me.
I can't take it, it's not my fault!! Not all my wishes.
Lucas forced me to open my legs, plunging his body into my body. Pain and pain, sagging. My stomach rippled with the smell of our union.
A groan of pain rang out roaringly filled the recesses of my heart. My heart hurts, my heart hurts, I languish for the love I can't have.
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Lucas left after blowing my body. Left me.
Don't go, Lucas, don't leave me. Stay here, baby. I'll remind you of our sweet memories, of our love, of the happiness we once knit together. Give me one more chance to make you fall back in love with me.
I need you right now by my side, Lucas. And I know you do too.
Don't reject me, because my heart hurts too much when I accept this rejection.
Please, stay here, by my side. Don't leave me, I want you here with me.
Don't tell me you don't love me anymore, Lucas. For to me your love is my life. You're half my breath, you're the oxygen that keeps me alive, without you I'm limp and helpless, without you I'm dead, without you I'm nobody.
The screams in my heart gradually shrieked. I cried in solitude, sobbing in distress.
For me who always lacked love and affection, losing Lucas' love and affection was the most painful thing that ever happened in my life.
“Don’t say good bye, Lucas.”
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LUCAS POV
“Job!!!” I screamed at the river, making everyone near me turn their heads.
I was sitting on the edge of a restoration river in a city park. In my hand was a bottle of liquor and also a cigarette. I finished half the bottle. My words began to fumble, my thoughts began to lead to illogical things. I want to die and catch up with mama, but doesn't that mean I've been wasting her frenzy all along??
Whyyy???
Why would I lose two women I love at the same time?
If you hadn't sacrificed for me, I would have fought for Bella by my side. But mama, she sacrificed for papa's happiness with that woman, how could I ruin her for my love?
I puffed cigarette smoke over his head, I quit smoking for a long time, last time I was in High School and somehow tonight I re-reach this pseudo-pleasure again.
I took a deep sip on the end of the scroll, the hue reddened from the loud suction. His puff made me cough, I don't seem to have gotten back used to the taste.
“Uhuk!! Uhuk!!”
“Damn it!! Even cigarettes did not side with me,” I was sad, I then lay on a stretch of elephant grass that was deliberately planted by the government.
I looked up at the sky, the sky dark with thick clouds. Several stars are seen adorning the vast sky, has my mama become one of the stars among thousands of stars? I closed my eyes, imagining the affection my mother had received.
Bella's face appears. Her beautiful face was constantly filled with tears as well as strokes of disappointment. My heart rippled, it felt really uncomfortable. I had just forced him to serve my lust, I had just humbled him, I had just left him.
If I hadn't fallen in love with Bella, would my heart be this sick too?
“Go from my life, Ella!!! Get out of my mind!! Get out of my heart!!” I voice my heart out loud.
“GO!!!!” rancau.
— MUSE S5 —
AUTHOR POV
Bella was crying in the corner of her room. It has been almost a month since his separation from Lucas. Lucas never contacted him, nor was he ever able to be contacted. Bella almost gives up and kills herself, but something awakens her. As he picks up the kitchen knife, a sharp nausea makes Bella stop the action.
“Hoek!! Hoek!!”
Bella runs towards the bathroom, she spits out all her food. Just a little because it doesn't eat much. Bella loses her appetite at the thought of Lucas. Luckily there is still Tasya his best friend who always supports Bella. Tasya accompanies and gives Bella strength in her first weeks, but the last week Tasya is out of sight as she prepares for her college entrance exams.
“Maagku relapses again.” Bella got up and cleaned her mouth with tap water.
It has been almost a month that the house in his residence feels lonely and stifling. It has been almost a month that her mother has not returned home.
“Can I get out of all this suffering?” muttered Bella, her gaze was still combing at every corner of the room with disappointment.
Bella has lost the courage to end her life. She chose to sit on the couch in the living room and drink a box of cold chocolate UHT milk, somehow she wanted it so badly this morning. The sweet and cold taste makes Bella's thirst disappear.
“Enak once, why ordinary milk can feel so good?” bella said as if asking herself.
BRAK!!
The door sounds open.
Bella's gaze immediately moved on the person who opened the door of her house. A strong man and a beautiful woman.
“Mama??” Bella is shocked to see her mother come home with a man who is none other than Lucas's father.
“He's my son, his name is Belaciaquin. Beautiful isn't?” Fransisca took Rony into the house.
“Bella, this is Om Rony, Mama's lover. Your new Papa candidate, we're getting married next month. You can call him Papa.” Fransisca who also did not know about Bella and Lucas' relationship laughed crisply when introducing Rony to her daughter.
“Hallo, Bella. Nice to meet you.” Rony approached and shook Bella's hand.
Bella froze, didn't this guy just lose his wife. Shouldn't this man be at home crying over his wife's passing? Shouldn't this man be soothing his son's troubled heart at the loss of the woman he loves the most?
Not shaking Rony's hand or introducing himself. Bella shed her tears. Making the couple in front of him astonished.
“Bella?? You okay?!” ask Rony.
Now Bella knows the reason Lucas hated her so much. Now Bella knows why Lucas gave up on their feelings.
“Sorry, I can't. Can't.” Bella fell down and cried.
“Bell??? Whatchu mean? Are you sick?” Fransisca approached Bella, stroking Bella's back.
“No!! Don't touch me!!” Bella.
Fransisca was furious, but she tried to cover up her anger in front of Rony. He did not want Rony to know that Fransisca often tortured Bella. Francisca has changed, at least that's what she wants to show her future husband.
“Already, Sisca, his name is also young. They're still unstable, just give it time, I also have a son who gets angry when I hear this. But the proof is that he gave up and let us get married, right?” Rony reached for Fransisca's hand and grabbed her shoulder.
“Om will try to be a replacement for your Papa, Bella. Om will give you everything you want.” Ronny patted Bella on the shoulder, but Bella lowered her head and chose to avoid their conversation.
“I take silence as word agree.” Fransisca broke the silence.
“We should celebrate with dinner together. I also want to get to know Lucas more closely.” Fransisca helps Rony sit on the couch.
“Alright, I'll set the time.” Rony smile.
“How, Bella? You must be happy, right? You'll have a handsome brother.” Fransisca was unceasingly smiling. She never realized how much Bella's heart was hurt by her words.
— MUSE S5 —
Bella stepped her feet into a dim room with elegant nuances. A five-star restaurant with its famous fine dining welcomes Bella. Bella has dressed up beautiful, she wears a red dress given by Lucas that once made Lucas so impressed with her. The curves of Bella's body look so extraordinary, her crazy chest and also her wide hips make Bella the center of attention that night.
Bella followed her mother and sat in the chair provided. As long as her mother chatted with her lover, Bella's eyes did not stop fixed on the figure of a handsome man. The man had come before Bella, he was sitting next to her papa. His handsome face looked hardened, seemingly restraining himself from getting angry due to the friendly scene shown by their parents.
“Lucas, this is Bella. Bella this Lucas.” Rony tried to introduce him to both, but they just kept quiet without a word.
Rony and Fransisca were astonished, but chose to understand their feelings. Maybe the children are still not willing to have their parents get a new partner.
The waiter presented a menu book, they also poured water and wine on a tall glass. Bella looked at Lucas' face as well as Lucas's.
“Why not contact me?” ask Bella. There's no answer.
“Why not reply to my message?” ask Bella again. There's no answer.
“Why bear it all alone?” bella asked, this time louder, making Fransisca swerve at her.
“You know each other?” ask Rony.
“No,” replied Lucas briefly.
“Lucas, how can you. Bella did not continue her words, she got up and slammed the dining rag on the table.
“Sorry I can't continue this dinner.” Bella got out of her chair, she went outside the restaurant.
Bella releases a high heel because her legs hurt while running. He walked down the highway with bare feet, letting small pebbles scratch his feet. Initially only a little, long-time fresh blood imprinted on his footprints.
I thought there would be a sweet meeting. I guess she'll introduce me as her lover and refute our parents' relationship. Thought Bella, in her heart she still hoped she would get Lucas' love.
Am I being too selfish of God? Am I being too greedy just for wanting happiness for myself? Bella fell, and her knee was injured.
Suddenly a suit covers Bella's shoulders, leaving Bella gasping. Lucas stood beside him.
“Why don't you give up, Bella? We're not meant to be together.” Seeing Bella hurt makes Lucas' heart languish, but his ego and emotions are still overflowing, especially after watching the intimacy of Rony and Fransisca who seemed not to feel guilty.
“I told you, I love you Lucas. I love you!!” bella's toilet. “I know your heart is hurting, I know you want to scream, I know it's hard for you. But, this is also very painful for me, Lucas.”
Bella sobbed, She got up to hold Lucas. “I beg you, Lucas. Thank me again, love me again!”
“Go from me, Bella!! Get lost!! Tomorrow again don't neglect something stupid like this in front of them!” Lucas releases Bella's arms and leaves her.
Why can't I have you?
Why can't I get your love?
Why can't we have each other when we love each other?
— MUSE S5 —
Tomorrow ...
“Hoek!!! Hoek!!” The nausea is getting sharper every day, Bella's body is getting thinner and weaker.
Why do I keep vomiting?! Bella flicked her messed up hair, she paced back and forth like an iron in her room. Bella raises her shirt, looks at her stomach, it seems a little bulging, but isn't it natural that she's going to get her period.
“Wait!! Last month I haven't come month.” Bella rushed to look into the menstrual period registrar app.
Masa??? Bella shut her mouth in disbelief.
Bella quickly snatched the key and bought a test pack. With a tremble Bella opened the blue package and took two flat objects at once. Bella took a deep breath before dipping it in a urine sample.
“Please don't!! Please!” Bella kept praying waiting for a minute to pass.
Not until one minute, Bella's stomach back stirred and felt nauseous. Bella immediately rushed to twist her body and spit out her entrails on the closet.
“Hoek!! Hoek!!” After vomiting, Bella fell, she was very limp.
Bella's hand swagged up to the sink table, looking for the whereabouts of two test packs. Want to know the truth, is she pregnant or not?
“Bella!! Where are you???!” fransisca's screams made Bella stunned.
“Wait, Ma,” says Bella.
Bella opened her palm, her heart immediately sank when she saw two red lines plastered on each test pack.
Getting pregnant?? I'm pregnant?!
“BELLA!!” fransisca shouted again, she began to get impatient because Bella did not come out of the bathroom.
DOC!! DOC!!
“Bella!! Get out!! Mama wants to talk!” Fransisca who was furious because of Bella's attitude last night began to be impatient, she banged on the bathroom door.
Bella did not heed the call of her mother, she still kept on being fixed on the two lines in front of her. It tells him that he is currently pregnant with the fruit of his love with Lucas.
Could this be a reason for him to get back to Lucas' love?
Or is it the opposite?
Bella is confused, in her confusion her body responds in another way.
“Hoek!!! Hoek!!” Bella vomited again.
BRAK!!
A suspicious Fransisca forced open the bathroom door.
He found his daughter vomiting on a closet while holding two small blue objects. Fransisca quickly denied it. Her eyes were as wide as Bella's when she found out the result.
“Bella??! You pregnant?!” ask Fransisca.
Bella did not answer, she cleaned her mouth with a tissue.
“Whose son??!!” Fransisca pulled Bella's hair so the girl would look at her face.
“Sick, Mom. Pain!!” Bella Stirrup.
“Say, Bella!! Whose son is this?”
“Hiks ... Did mom really want to know? Know who his father is?” Isak Bella, her eyes looked at Fransisca with hatred.
“No, Bella!!! Don't tell me this is Lucas's son??!”
Fransisca is stunned to recall her encounter with Lucas at the Mall and restaurant last night, and turns out her daughter and her future son have a more serious relationship than just getting to know each other.
— MUSE S5 —
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