MUSE
S4 ~ LOSS RA II
S4 MUSE
EPISODE 24
S4 ~ LOSS RA II
~ Now I realize, maybe at that time, Ra just wanted to express his love for me, but I was the fool for not being able to realize it.~
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Today was Sunday, but Ra still did not show up. Disappointment enveloped my heart. It's been five days that Ra has never reappeared, my days have gone by quickly and I feel like something is missing. Luckily Ken still faithfully accompanies me wherever I go. Even yesterday Ken promised to take care of me, trying to be strong like Ra.
I woke up lethargic in the morning, still trying to find the pieces of my life scattered in the dreamland. My eyes were fixed on the wall clock above the TV buffet. I flicked my blanket as soon as I knew what time it was? At 8am, an hour late from my appointment with Ken.
Today Ken promised to accompany me to draw all day, finishing a picture of the wings on the back streets of the housing. I promised the kids I'd get it all done today. With the speed of light I rushed to the bathroom, brushing my teeth, bathing, wearing an outfit that can absorb sweat.for sure when the sun shines blazing sweat will pour out with a rush.
I was wearing a cotton shirt with a Power Puff Girl image, I purposely tied the bottom so that it displayed my slender belly. I wanted to pull my belly button that I pierced shortly after my graduation was announced. I combined it with Aladin's gombor trousers, not to forget black leather boots with flat heels. Oh, yes, I have changed the color of my hair, now no longer gray with a tinge of pink, but black and orange, the color of his waist like the afternoon sun that sank at the foot of the horizon.
"Ken, sorry, been waiting?" I jumped several steps at once as I descended to the ground floor.
"Inggrid slowly!" Mommy looked at me with a bitter look, when her daughter was acting so tomboyish.
"OK!"
"It's been a while?" I repeated my question to Ken.
"It's only been an hour" he replied, of course, an hour, he would have come at seven.
"Sorry, yes, I slept well" I said as I waited.
"That's OK, girl."
"Mom, Ingrid go first!" myrag.
"Feed Ingrid first!"
"Lunch, Mom," I concluded. Drawing when the sun is at the top of the head is very torturous for sure.
"Bring this, this, and this!" Mommy came out to bring me bread, tremos with warm milk, and also a big bottle of mineral water. A mother's attention is second to none.
"OK, Thanks Mom."
"Dragon Inggrid OK. Stop when you're tired." Mommy's message to Ken.
"Ready, Mi."
We walked out of the housing towards the graffiti village. I will try to finish the drawing of the angel wings and also the demon I am drawing. I drew the sketch yesterday, just to color it. The black gradation with gray I wear as the main color for his demon wings, while for the Angel - I make a slight gradation of white with orange pile. Not to forget also a little gray for shadow effect.
Ken walks beside me, he brings me all kinds of equipment. Starting from spray paint to brushes, Ken immediately put all the equipment and arrange it next to the image area. I also opened a wide umbrella for me. His eyes were clearly looking at the images along the way that were starting to be dense with the human crowd.
"I didn't think pictures could make it all so alive." Ken was amazed.
"It's not just a picture, Ken. There are many moral messages that the artist wants to convey." I'm scrubbing black paint with white and making gray.
"You're right, Inggrid. Without value, a story would simply be a story without life. Without value, the image would just be a flavorless image" he said. I smiled, Kenku learned a lot apparently.
"I'm gonna start drawing, Ken,"
"Excite, girl!"
As usual I started playing my fingers on the spray paint. I started drawing demon wings first. I want to color each base in black first. The plan after everything is black, then I thicken each stroke of the line with white. Then for the gradation of the timbut and the protrusion is gray, this is so that each wing contour looks alive.
I kept shaking the spray paint as soon as I finished one piece, then shuffled it again as I wanted to spray the paint on the other parts. This is done so that the paint mixes evenly with the oil, so that it still produces the color we want.
Ken looked at me in amazement, but he had seen me draw a lot. Maybe because this time I drew it wholeheartedly for Ken and Ra's sake, then my expression and earnestness looked even more attractive in his eyes. I draw with all my abilities, not wanting to disappoint him.
“Ken carry me, I can not reach a high location.”
“Okay, girl.” Ken squatted down and let me go up on his shoulders.
Slightly set the position so as not to fall, then Ken slowly got up. I began spraying the top, finishing everything quickly so that Ken's shoulder was not hit by the weight of my body.
“Already, Ken, can you put me down?”
“No, girl!” goda.
“Basic perverted guy!” I hit his head with my finger.
Ken just laughed crisply and finally lowered his body. I jumped down and watched my picture.
The wings of the devil have begun to take shape, drawn like bat wings. I did deliberately choose the wings of the noctunal beast to describe the figure of a demon's wings.
After the demon wings were finished, I turned to the Angel wings. I started giving the white wine base a little bit of gray.
I drew each of the dailies one by one with a brush, making it a perfect Angel's wings, beautiful, and also full of tenderness. Not to forget I put a little pale orange color to look like a pretty pigeon feather. Than, be the wings of an Angel similar to the wings of a dove.
I did deliberately take the wing models of these two animals, the first was a pigeon and the second was a bat. For me these two animals are identical to describe angels and demons.
Ken and I looked at each other, we seemed satisfied with the result. The results were so amazing, even though the paint still looked so wet.
"Stand there, Ken! I'll photomize you." I called out to Ken to stand there.
First I put it in the middle. This is Keano, he is the devil and also an angel of mine.
Then next, I asked Ken to stand on his side so that he seemed to be an angel, he was my angel, the owner of my heart.
Then ...
Unknowingly searching for Ra's current whereabouts, Ra should fill his position as a demon, my demon, the owner of my soul.
He should be able to take pictures here, at least he had accompanied me at the beginning of this project. He never even missed my company at night, he kept worrying about me. He was afraid that anything would happen to me while working at night.
Well, although he often mocked me too often angry with me, but it is undeniable that his attention makes me miss his figure.
I dropped my phone limp, Ken saw me, he came and approached me. Gently rubbed my face in confusion, "why, girl?"
"I miss Ra, Ken." I took a breath before continuing, "it seems like my words have really hurt his heart."
"He decided it himself, Inggrid." Ken hugged me, we didn't heed every glance that looked at us in wonder.
Was it true Ken said yesterday, I have loved Ra?
No, I love Keano, I love Keano, then I love Ken and Ra! I love them, because they are one, they are Keano.
I will accept you because you are part of Keano.
Even though Ken is very weak and Ra is very annoying.
Although Ken is quiet and RA is grumpy.
Even though Ken's clumsy and Ra's not good at talking.
But both of them are my love, both of which complete the image of Keano.
And I was wrong ... wrong for wanting to erase Ra's existence in Keano's life. I kept saying Ken, Ken, Ken, and Ken to Ra regardless of his feelings. And as part of Keano, Ra just needs a little confession from me. Ra and Ken have filled Keano's life, they are an inseparable fact.
"Inggrid I know Ra must like you too. He just can't express his feelings for you. Ra can't put the word together very well because every soft feeling, love, and affection from Keano's soul is all on me." Ken looked at me from behind his glasses.
I know, Ken is the gentle and loving soul of Keano, while Ra he is a fragment of Keano's strong and hard soul. I shouldn't blame her for not being able to express her feelings well.
Now I realize, maybe at that time, Ra just wanted to express his love for me, but I was the stupid one for not being able to realize it. All I was looking for was Ken, Ken, and Ken.
I must have made her heart ache, until finally she was really jealous and so hated me.
What else we ever wanted to eliminate his figure in Keano.
Oh, my God, he must have been very disappointed and suffered.
Oh, TUhan his heart must have been very crumpled softly at that time.
Oh, God, how do I tell her how sorry I am for saying that to her.
I should have known that Ra's tough attitude could never be countered by my tough attitude. Mommy said, it should not involve emotions in a relationship. We need to be willing to talk to each other from heart to heart. Without good communication, a relationship can never go well.
Now I have lost Ra to my ego, to my insensitivity, to my emotions.
Then what should I do?
Ra doesn't want to come out, Ra has disappeared, he's gone,
and now I miss him so much.
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