MUSE
S5 ~ A FATHER

S5 MUSE

EPISODE 50'S

S5 \~ A FATHER

\~Thank you, darling. Already present in this world. Thank you for your blessing I became a father\~

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LUCAS POV

Blood flowed from the elbow fold of the arm into a pouch. The bag continued to slowly rotate on top of a device. I don't know the name of the device, maybe the purpose is to help the blood that comes out not to freeze quickly.

They took only one bag, but I insisted they take two bags of blood. I can, I can still hold it so Aiden can get a blood donor right away. I've also contacted Miller telling him to look for people with blood type B, like Aiden.

My head feels dizzy and light-headed. Losing a lot of blood does make me weak, no wonder active donors say, ‘if you want to fly healthy yes with blood donor’. Now I know what they mean.

“Lucas!” Bella grabbed me as soon as I walked out of the room. He helped me sit in an iron chair in the corridor of the hospital.

“Where is Aiden?”

“In the ICU, the doctor made her get extra attention.” Bella's cry was heard.

“Quiet, Ella. I'm sure he'll be fine, he looks like me, doesn't he? I'm sure he's as strong as I am.” I could only cling to her shoulders, providing warmth and calmness to Bella's body that continued to tremble in fear.

“Lucas, thank you.”

“Why? Aiden is my son too. You don't have to thank me.”

“I know, but still I have to thank you. Thank you, Lucas,” sobbing turns into a loud roar.

Again I could only hold her, and stroke Bella's arm. Calm him.

“I'll see Aiden, Ella. You want to come?” soft ask.

“Iya, I want.” Bella nodded, I replied with a smile.

We both walked in tandem into the ICU room, first the doctor wouldn't allow it because it wasn't a clock. But after hearing the explanation that I had not had time to see him made the picket doctor pity.

“Alright, just a minute. Patient needs rest.”

“Thank you, Doctor,”.

We both wear special protective clothing, wash our hands, and wear rubber serandals from the RS, when we enter we can not bring germs from the outside.

“Please, Mr.” A nurse told me to go inside, Bella followed.

Lying down a little man, the nurse had changed her clothes to hospital pajamas. His face looked calm as he fell asleep with a sedative, there were two hoses, the first an infusion, the second a blood transfusion hose, the hose was met on one track. I saw that a bag of my blood had been funneled to him.

Aiden's tiny lips looked pale, his tiny little finger back was slightly bruised due to the influence of a blood transfusion. It must have been very painful. I quickly looked for the alcohol gauze, stroking the back of the hand so that it would not hurt too much.

“Let me, Lucas. You must be limp from losing a lot of blood.” Bella tried to pull my hand, but I prevented her.

“Let me do it, Ella. Let me be a good father to him.” My eyes glazed over, out of nowhere did this distress come from? For sure I feel very guilty for never knowing his whereabouts until he was 4 years old.

“I'm happy to see it, Ella. Really.” My tears finally trickled, never did I think that I would be this crybaby in front of the woman I loved.

“Lucas.” Bella immediately hugged me, she clenched tightly to my body.

“Let me take care of you, let me give you a whole family and Aiden. I promise to be a good husband and a wonderful father, Ella,”.

Bella did not answer, I knew her heart was still filled with the presence of the man. I knew the emptiness I had left was filled with another love.

“I'll buy you milk and food. You have to stay strong when Aiden needs you.” Bella let go of her arms.

“Good. I will be here until the time is up,” I told him.

The round chair of plastic galloped as I pulled it out from under the bed. I slowly sat down, looking at my son's face from the side. I still stroke the back of his hand slowly. Occasionally wiping the cold sweat that appeared on his thinning.

“You really look like me,” I murmured slowly, not wanting to interrupt his break.

Day after day that I went through without Bella's presence was enough to torment my inner self. Coupled with the words of Fransisca who said that Bella was pregnant with my son when she left, the more guilt filled my heart.

I searched hard, hoping to find him.

In fact,

After meeting, I had to swallow the harsh fact that Bella no longer loved me. That my own son rejected me. I know very well that everything that happened was my fault. I am well aware that their rejection is a punishment for me. However, my hard heart made me unable to let go of Bella.

But that's how people are, love can make you noble or even become the most despicable human being in the world. Like Papa who chose to leave Mama for her love. Like Fransisca who could abort Bella for her love. I killed that man for my love.

I am melting everything, conscience and the rest of humanity, just to fulfill my desire to love a woman.

A woman who deserves to be loved.

The woman who conceived and bore me a child.

The woman with her body made me a father.

I want everyone to look at me contemptuously, I want everyone in the world to hate me, showering me with their blasphemy. As long as I can get back to her, as long as I can get her heart back.

Pip .. pip.

The sound of Aiden's vital sign detection device was flashing regularly. The sound made me smell, a man who felt strong and great like me could even be scared when he heard a sound like this.

Is this what it feels like to be a father?

Does it feel like loving something that comes from within you?

A different love, one that is far full of love and bonding.

I felt so in possession, I felt so familiar with him, I felt so loving towards him, that we had never met him before.

Oh, it's me, God. It is my sin that has ignored the beautiful creation that you have gifted us.

“Cheal soon, Honey, Papi will bring you one toy truck.” I whispered in her ear, tears falling down her face.

“Erm ..!” Aiden wriggled softly, it seemed like my crying had awakened him.

“You're awake, honey. Sorry.” My love, I still gently stroked her hair.

“Uncle who?” Aiden's voice sounded soft.

“My name, Lucas.”

“My name, Aiden.”

“Iya, already know.”

“Uncle know?”

“Yes, because you're from me, honey. I'm your Papi, your biological Papi.” I tried to give Aiden as gentle an explanation as possible.

“You're my Papi? Besides Papi Nick?” ask Aiden confusedly.

“Iya, besides Papi Nick.”

“Wah, so now Aiden has two Papi guys! Friends won't taunt Aiden as an illegitimate child again.”

My heart rippled as I heard the painful confession coming out of her tiny lips. Who has labeled him an illegitimate child?? Who insulted my son?!

In the end, it all came back to me. Because I was Aiden in the Bully, because my inability to keep Bella Aiden was reviled. Because of my inability to maintain the love that makes both of them afflicted by people.

Papi stump regrets, son.

“Why is Papi crying?” With her little hand Aiden wiped away my tears.

“No.”

“Kata Mami boys can't cry. It looks ugly in front of women. Mami said, Papi is very strong and never cries, he always wins boxing matches.” Aiden comforted me, I giggled, why is it that the sick comfort? It should be a healthy one that is encouraging.

“You're so funny, son.” I rubbed his head, then kissed his forehead.

Aiden smiled warmly.

“Thank you, darling for coming to this world. Thank you for your blessing I can be a father.”

— MUSE S5 —

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Hiks. othot baperan.

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