MUSE
BITTER LOVE'S

MUSE

EPISODE 20'S

BITTER LOVE'S

\~I don't want papa to insult Alex, I love him and I know Alex also loves me\~

The sound of heartbeats that are mutually disordered..

The sweet smell that came from his body..

The heat of the body temperature that touches each other..

Slow sigh..

The pain..

Slowly beat..

Many people say the first one will hurt. I was also afraid that it would hurt, but somehow I didn't want to stop it..

I re-embraced Alex's back, pulling my body to get close to him. The sweat coming out of his body was flowing through my body.

Unified..

Rhythmical..

Sough..

Strikes..

The pain..

Ordinary words yet made me truly live, making me really enjoy it.

“Lenna..” Alex whispered softly, my feelings were overflowing hearing him call my name.

“A.. Alex.”

“I was happy when you called my name.” Alex smiled and kissed my hand.

“Alex.” I repeated. I turned to the right, my eyes closed withstanding the heat and pain below.

“Sigh on Lenna, don't hold it.” Alex lifted my body, now I'm on top of him.

“I'm shy.” I threw my face away, my hand held onto Alex's shoulder, and the other hand closed my chest. I know Alex has seen it all, but still I'm embarrassed to show it like this.

“You are very beautiful Lenna.” Alex held me close, kissed my lips gently and moved slowly towards the neck.

“Ahg.” I can't hold it anymore.

—MUSE—

I was sneaking around when I got into the house, the clock was showing at 12pm, and I had no permission for Papa Mama to come home this late. The stupid thing I did with Alex went on for so long, it was suddenly night.

This time I felt guilty and afraid to go home. I'm afraid Papa and Mama know my stupidity and naivety. I'm afraid that they know I lost my virginity today.

“Huft.” I breathed a sigh of relief as I entered the room. I closed my bedroom door.

How'this? I made a mistake. Why am I sorry now?? I should have rejected it earlier.

“But it tastes so sweet.” I sat behind the door, covering my face with both palms.

I touched my neck and lips, still ringing clearly in my mind the taste and warmth of Alex's lips. I smiled remembering it, but again grimaced when I felt pain in my feminine area.

—MUSE—

The morning sun came into my room, and I had closed the curtains. Why can't you still come in?

“You're up.?” mom's voice resuscitated me.

“Mama?!”

“What time do you come home? Go where? Same who?” ask Mama, the question I was afraid of happened as well.

“Ih mama.. one-one donk tanyanya.” I went back inside the blanket.

“Jawab mama Lenna, Your papa was angry all night.”

“Lenna just went to campus. View the same Festival temen-tenen.” I lied, since when can I lie with this surf?

“Betul?”

“Iya, Mother. Then you guys used to rush me to find a lot of temen. Why am I going now when you guys are angry?” I threw the blanket over.

Sorry Lenna mama, Lenna does not want to be caught lying.

“OK Mama believes, but there is still Papa you have to make to believe.” Mama folded her hands on her chest.

“Iya, Ma, later Lenna clear to Papa.” I tried hard, but was very scared.

“OK, shower and get off breakfast. Girls are not awake at this hour yet.” Mom left my room.

“Oh shit!” I cursed to myself, why can I be so stupid!?

I rushed to take a shower, there was still a hint of blood on my panties. Regretting it is meaningless, my virginity is gone.

Now is not the time to be sorry, there I have to behave as usual and apologize to Papa.

“Again, Pa.”

“It's noon.” Papa closed the paper. His eyes are watching me.

“Lenna apologizes, Pa, last night no permission to Papa Mama when you come home at night.” I sit next to Papa.

“Where were you last night?”

“Ke art festival, Pa.”

“Whose name?”

“Friends.”

Papa was still staring intently at me, I held my breath. It feels like a man on trial and ready to be sentenced severely.

“You dating?”

“What?” I was shocked by Papa's question.

“You have a boyfriend?”

“Ngak pa.. nope.” I shook my head.

“Papa doesn't want anyone to hurt you Lenna. If there is a man who makes you cry Papa does not accept.”

“No, Pa, who else wants Lenna?” I brought back my genetic disorder.

“Lenna!” Mama says.

“Iya, Ma, sorry.” I bow my head.

“Papa also does not want you to be in touch with Alex.”

“Alex?”

“He won't be able to give you anything Lenna.”

“Why??? Because he's poor? Not from a rich family?”

“Papa don't like it!” snapped Papa, it seemed that Papa was angry because of my excessive reaction.

Sometimes I wonder about Papa, when he knows I was born like this. Is there a man who would accept my situation as it is?

“Lenna hates Papa!” I don't know why I'm angry, I defied Papa for the first time.

I don't want Papa to insult Alex, I love him and I know Alex loves me too.

I picked up the bag and ran out of the house, rushing into the car to go to campus.

“Today there is no college. But it feels lazy to be at home,” I thought.

“Where, Neng!?”

“Campus, Sir.”

I closed the car door and walked around the campus, stopping at a bench near the fountain. Spend time daydreaming and occasionally sighing.

“Why am I like this?” I looked at my face in the pool.

Am I angry with Papa just for hiding my lies? Or am I really mad at Papa because he forbade me from being in touch with Alex?

I finally gave up on the thoughts that kept floating through my mind.

“Am I going to Alex's place?”

Just separated last night but I already feel so missed by him. Thinking about the thing that happened yesterday made my body ripple in amusement.

I walked a few blocks from campus to get to Alex's apartment. 1405, I read the room number listed on the doorstep, making sure I didn't have the wrong room.

“Hmm..cock the door open a little?” I was surprised to see the door slightly open.

I pushed softly through Alex's room door, trying to peek inside. I wonder if Alex is inside.

“Alex.” I called her name slowly.

I was shocked, Alex was seen hugging and kissing a woman. His hands were coiled around Alex's shoulders, his long black hair slightly covering his face. Even though I can vaguely recognize her, she must be Amanda.

“Alex the.” Amanda noticed my presence.

Alex turned his face and looked at me. Our eyes met, my body frozen staring into his eyes. Just yesterday I felt like I was the luckiest woman in the world because she loved me. It turned out that this was all a dream, no normal man would love me for who I am.

My tears are melting slowly.

“Lenna.” Alex's voice rang out, resuscitating my frozen body.

I don't want to see it..

I don't want to hear it..

I don't want to know..

I turned and ran with all my might. My chest is very sick, very sick. I hate myself.I hate this feeling, I hate my stupidity.

“Lenna!” Alex's call sounded loud.

I hid behind a pillar, Alex looked for me and ran the other way.

Alex's screams while calling my name are still being heard.

I covered my ears.

I kept running until my legs hurt, until my heart felt like it was going to explode. I fell down on the sidewalk. Little gravel scratched my knee, red blood soaked my white skin.

Be ill..

Browbeat..

Tears are pouring down, I can't help it..

I was still silent and not moving.

My body is shaking violently.

Heart's broken..

I should've known Amanda was the only one she loved..

—MUSE—

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