MUSE
S4 ~ SENSES AND FLAVORS
S4 MUSE
EPISODE 19
S4 \~ SENSES AND FLAVORS
\~I was afraid of losing all these senses, because it was only through Kean's body that I could feel how real I felt about Ingrid.\~
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KEN POV
As in the psychiatrist room in general, there is a doctor's desk, there is a sofa lounge to tell stories, there is a mystical smell that is deliberately given to trickle the soul of the patient. This time the smell of levender, the smell is famous for peace, relax, and calm. The room was dominated by white and dark blue.
“Hallo, Keano.”
“Hallo, Doc.”
“Please sit! Let's hear your story,” take her.
“Iya.”
I followed him sitting down, leaning leisurely on the soft sofa. The sofa is made of soft velvet fabric, blue in color with glossy accents. There were several pillows to make me relax, I took one of them and slipped between my thigh and elbow arm.
“Pregnant?” tanyakanya.
“Iya, convenient.”
“Alright, can we start the consultation?”
“Can, Doc.”
I told him everything, from the moment papa died and how Ra was formed as another form of my personality. I really want to erase her existence. I want to go back to being Keano.
“Wah, your case is quite rare to meet, but that does not mean there is no. But you guys can talk to each other and also coordinate well, huh?”
“True, we even agreed to change turns at night.”
“How about, Ra? Does he know you want to get rid of him? Can he hear us now?”
“Entailah, if he fell asleep he can not hear, if he woke up he can hear it.”
“If he hears and cannot accept your decision how? Aren't you afraid he's rebelling?”
....
I was silent, unable to answer the psychiatrist's question.
“If he hurts you when his consciousness arises what will you do?”
I was back in silence, Ra had hurt Ingrid and I couldn't beat his resolve to get out and take over this body. While Ra could easily get in and out of this body. Is it true that Ra's determination is so strong to become Keano, or perhaps even Ra is the owner of Keano's body, and I am the fragmented piece of his soul?!
“I don't know, Doc.” I shook my head slowly.
“Alright, you have to answer my question, Ken. Because Ra could have rebelled and hurt you. You should think about the consequences too.”
“So next action?”
“We will try hypnotherapy to know your subconscious state. Who exactly are the two of you who have such a strong will? And what is the purpose of each of you?”
After hearing the doctor's explanation I suddenly limp. My heart was so scared, I didn't believe in myself, did I really not have the determination of Ra?
All I know is that Keano is a gentle person, he is diligent and likes to learn, he is indeed a little weak and lacking in PD, much different from Ra. Wouldn't it be if at first glance it was me.
But why is Ra freely going in and out and I'm not. Then, exactly who among the two of us is the original image of him?
I approached Inggrid who was asleep in the waiting chair. Too bad, he must be tired from waiting for me. I didn't even make anything in there. I can't answer the doctor's questions at all. I lack confidence in my current situation.
“Let's go home, girl!”
“Good.”
But suddenly, Ra swapped our consciousness. Goddamnit!!
RA POV
Along the way I continued to reflect on the condition of both of us. Does Inggrid really want to erase me? Right Ken and Ingrid want to remove me from Keano's body.
That afternoon when he saw her sparkling eyeballs so beautiful, and also her sweet face. I got too carried away until I wanted it so badly.
When I started to cling her body from behind there were many feelings that haunted me. I was so sad, scared, disappointed, and hurt.
I was afraid I could no longer see his face.
I was afraid I could no longer hear his voice.
I'm afraid I can't touch his hands anymore.
I'm afraid I can't taste her sweet lips anymore
I'm afraid I can't smell the intoxicating pheromones from her body anymore.
I was afraid of losing all these senses, because it was only through Kean's body that I could feel how real I felt about Ingrid.
“I want you, Ingrid.”
“I want you too, Ken.”
I even wanted him to call me Ken just to feel the pleasure of his lips and his warm embrace.
Do you really want me to go girl?!
— MUSE S4 —
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Mama came at an inopportune time, interrupting our struggle. But good, I don't seem to be licking my own spit. Though I often adore Ken not to touch Inggrid. To not ruin the future of Ingrid and Keano. But just because of the sweet kiss I wanted it so much. Want to have Inggrid in full. Maybe true said Ken, the charm of Inggrid is too difficult to resist.
“Inggrid, Mami heard you didn't go to college. Why?”
“Males, Mi. Ingrid's brain doesn't want to think anymore.”
“Do your Daddy and Mommy know you don't want to go to college?”
“Not yet, they don't know.”
“Tell them Ingrid, even if you have the right to determine your future. But parental consideration is important! Because what they think is always the best for you.”
“Indeed if you don't go to college what's your plan?” ask Mama.
“Apply Keano!! Hahaha,” laughs Inggrid happy.
...!
The water inside my mouth immediately gushed out.
“Hei!”
“Why?”
“Keano is still in college, so paying for college is still difficult. What else to support people's children?” my firmness.
“Oh, later on let Inggrid who lives Keano,” he said happy.
“Eh, crazy! Girls can't find work?”
“The Inggrid knows a lot!! You can't stand it anymore, either, Ken?”
“Tak stand what?” Mama furrowed her brows.
“Bikin ba—,” answer truncated.
“Girl!!” I immediately stepped on Inggrid's foot and gave him the code! Mama is in front of us. He wants to open his own disgrace?!! This is not a scavenger kid.
“AUCH!!!”
“Why Ingrid?”
“Bited by ants, Mi!”
Inggrid stared intently at me as he laid kamat kamit, protesting with my behavior that hurt his legs. But I had to, the end of this child want to talk to mama if we almost did it earlier. I'd be fired as his son if I got caught.
“Wash Ken's plate, mom's tired of taking a shower and taking a break. Cake order today a lot.” Mom stretched her hand up.
I pity to see him, he still works at the cafe even though he has his own cake shop. He worked so hard for Keano, to meet my college needs.
“Discover the plate!”
“You want me to help?”
“Bby.”
I put all the dirty dishes in the sink. Rubbing it with soap foam so that the fat and dirt immediately disappear. Inggrid stood beside me and rinsed the rest of his soap with clean water.
“Since when did you turn into, Ra?” inggrid asked, apparently he can recognize me.
“You want honest answer or lie?” askaku.
“Honest.”
I stopped my activities to look at his face. Will he be angry when I say that I have fucked him? Will he be disappointed to do it not with Ken but with me?
“Since we kissed in the park.”
“What?”
“Iya, I claimed to be, Ken, since earlier.” I continued doing my dishes.
“Why are you lying? Why did you become Ken?”
Inggrid was angry, it turned out to be true. He doesn't love me at all, in his heart and mind there's only Ken! Ken keep! And Ken again!
“Why?! Of course to reply you!” I'm getting angry, even until the moment when we're both mixing, you can still keep saying her name!
I actually did it on the basis of love and love. But the pain made me say the opposite.
“Reply what?!” Her pretty eyes widened.
“You want to get rid of me, don't you? You guys want to erase my existence!”
I was angry, I was jealous and angry!
All right, if that's what you want!
I'm not giving up on making you suffer with Ken.
“Then from that you vented it on me?” Inggrid started crying.
“Iya!! I want to have you for Ken to suffer! I want to ruin you so you know how bad Ken is!”
“How can you be this calm? How can you be ordinary after doing that to me? How could you lie so easily, Ra!!” Inggrid seems disappointed, why should he be disappointed? He doesn't even like me, does he?
Without saying anything, Inggrid ran to his bag and went outside.
“Sial!!” my sift.
It turns out to Inggrid I'm nothing more than a bully of his life and Ken's. Inggri and Ken did want to erase my existence. All right, I'll make you both feel my pain.
— MUSE S4 —
Basic Ra, why not just say if you like me? It's wrong, same Inggrid. Wkwkwkwkwk
I love her ama readerskuh. 😘🥰
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Noteds:
Hypnotherapy is a form of mind therapy with the use of hypnosis/hypnotics.The many benefits of hypnotherapy, because it works in the region of the subconscious mind, which controls 88% control over the function of the brain and body as a whole, while Hypnosis/Hypnosis is to bring a person to enter a state of relaxation in order to enter the subconscious mind, to then be given suggestions or re-introduction of the problem experienced.
(Source, doctor)