MUSE
S5 ~ CONFUSED
S5 MUSE
EPISODE 41
S5 \~ CONFUSED
\~You slashed him with the sharpness of your words, you just incised a wound on me, Lucas!! You only tortured me with a love I couldn't achieve.\~
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BELLA POVS
Go, Ella!!
Crawl like anj1ng ...!
I no longer love you, get away from me!
You are no longer in my heart.
Why should I love the son of a pel4cur who corrupted my family??
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Why Bella?! Why Lucas?!
There are millions of men in this world? Why should he?!
Look at this money!!
I can give you everything! Just drop the kid!
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The nightmare that kept haunting me 4 years ago came back clear. Back to my mind. Scared me.
Dark, alone, pain, pain, pain. I'm scared!! I'm really scared!
I was afraid of rejection.
I'm afraid of losing.
I was afraid to experience that loneliness again.
“No!! Please no!! Just stop!! Stop!!”
“NO!!!” I screamed with all my might, rising up in my sleep that felt so long.
Sweats and tears wet my forehead, my breath was cut off, the corner of my eyes was so sore, my head was dizzy and light-headed.
“Ach!!” I was holding a bruise from the impact of the floor.
“Where am I?” I realized I wasn't in my house.
I rolled my eyes, looking at every corner of the room that looked so unfamiliar. Large bed, nightstand, a set of sofas, and an inner bathroom. I'm sure I'm in a hotel. My lyrics my body, white shirt and boxer pants, belong to a man?? Ah, my goodness!! What the hell's going on?
Last thing I remember was a fan barging in and trying to rape me. The last thing I remember is a vague shadow of a face ...
Lucas ...?
Oh, dearGod. What the hell is going on? Why would I shadow Lucas? Why am I here? What the hell happened to me?? What does that b4jat do?? I'm confused!
I need to get out of here!!
I immediately got up from the bed, trying to find something I could use as footwear and also enveloped my lower body. Nil!! There was nothing in the room, just a variety of men's tops.
How'this?? Oh, God, what should I do, I don't even have money, no cell phones, not even footwear.
Ouch!! My head hurts so much!!
No, I have to come back soon! I gotta get out of here! Nick!! Nick must be worried about me right now. Without heeding my pain I tried to stay up and walk towards the exit.
However, just a few steps away I felt my gaze fade, I fell back. Before I could hit the floor someone saved me, he caught my body.
“Ella!!” yells.
I blinked in shock, only Lucas always called me with that call. Suddenly I raised my face. Seeking his own existence. Looking for the existence of a man who once scratched the sweet and bitter taste of life in my life.
“Lucas.”
“Yes, Ella, it's me. It's me Lucas.”
Ughhhh!! My heart ached so much, every bone felt so soft, I again felt a pain that hit so hard to the top of my heart.
“Ella?! You okay?” Lucas took me up in bed. He's breaking me.
I didn't want to sleep, I sat down, hugged my knees. I don't know, I feel so weird right now.
How did Lucas find me?
How could Lucas be here?
What if he's looking for Aiden?
What if he tries to take it from me?!
All sorts of questions lurked in my mind. But I prefer to be quiet, waiting for him to speak first. I need to know what his purpose is.
“Ella, how are you?” tanyakanya.
His hand was about to touch my hand, but I pulled it back, tightening my knee.
Lucas's face stiffened, I don't care. I really don't want to see him right now, I'm afraid, afraid he's back to dumping me, afraid he's back to hurt me, afraid he's back to ruining my happiness, afraid he's going to take back my precious mine.
Lucas sighed violently, trying to regulate emotions. His handsome face did not change, his body was still as athletic, only a few new tattoos were seen filling the other side of his skin.
“I'm sorry, I'm guilty of you, Ella,”.
What did he say?? Pardon me?!! After everything that happened he apologized to me?!
I quickly wiped away the tears that were trying to melt. I can't look weak in front of him. I can't look pathetic.
“Ella, please, come back to me, I love you so much?” Lucas hugged me.
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I was silent, silent, my tongue was muddled, there were no words to describe how much my heart was disappointed in him.
“Please say something, Ella. Maki me if you need to, hit me, blow your anger!! You must have suffered so much all this time because of me.” Lucas took both of my hands and held them.
I don't know, I was hoping to hold that hand. Now, even receiving his touch I am not willing.
“What about our son, Ella? What's-her-name? She male or female?” Lucas asked shamelessly, making me even more fed up with his seemingly innocent behavior.
“I'm disgusted at you, Lucas!! I'm sick of you!! Let go of me, I want to go home,”.
“No, Ella. Your house is not here. I'll take you home, we'll live happily.”
“LEAVE ME!!” my yelling.
“Ella??! Is that how much you hate me?”
“Iya!! I hate you to the bone marrow!! Satisfied?! Understood!!”
I cried, finally unable to hold back tears because my chest felt so tight.
Where was he when we needed his love?
Where was he when we needed his protection?
Where was she when I had a hard time conceiving and giving birth?
I wandered on my own, to the doctor myself, withstanding the scorn of my own people, I gave birth to her without the support of my husband. Raised it with sweat and tears. Selling the body for a bite of rice and the cost of education is increasingly high. Where the hell is he??!
Now that he knew I had a child, he tried to make up with me. Trying to take Aiden from me?!! No!! I will never give Aiden to him. I'm not willing.
Lucas got up, he knelt down in front of me, making me want to not look at him. We sat, Lucas began to shed his tears. Why is she crying? Why is this cold man crying? Is he trying to attract my sympathies?
I cried, and to me the Lucas I knew was dead. My love for her I have buried deep, I throw deep into the depths of my dark and endless heart. It's impossible to love her again because I love Nick.
“Let me go!! Please Lucas!! If you really love me, let me go!!” I hit his shoulder.
“Ella!! You know how I love you?!”
“Last I heard you say that there is no me in your heart,”. I still remember what he said at the Pallete Cafe.
“I lied Ella. I lied to have you leave me at that time.”
“Hahaha, what a funny thing you said, Lucas. Do you know, Lucas?!! At that time I was about to tell you that I was pregnant with your child!! But you rejected me, you rejected us!!” hysterical shouting.
“Ella!! Please.” Lucas got up and grabbed me.
“Release!! Release!!” I thrashed, but the hold was getting tighter.
“No, Ella. Don't walk away from me, you don't know how tormented I am every night without you. Without your presence.” Lucas is still sobbing.
“You're selfish, Lucas!! You're evil!” I flailed his chest.
“Back, Ella. Comeback me. I promise to love you with all my heart, didn't you say I was everything to you?? Didn't you ever say I was your only love.” Lucas kissed my forehead inside.
“No!! You removed it!! You slashed him with the sharpness of your words, you just incised a wound on me, Lucas!! You only torment me with love I can't achieve.”
“That was, Ella. Please!” Lucas made my face look at him. Our faces were both reddened by the overflow of emotions, equally chaotic due to the outpouring of tears.
“You're cruel!! You're selfish,” I'm sorry.
“Ella love me again!! I can't afford to lose you.”
There's no point in me arguing with him, I know his attitude. Right now I have to obey what he says, obey his wishes. Waiting for the right moment to get out of here.
“Alright, give me time to put my heart in order, Lucas. You know it's not easy,” I said lie.
“Good, Ella. I will wait for you, I will make you love me again,” Lucas replied, a smile immediately reflected on his handsome face.
“Thanks.”
“I'm supposed to thank you, Ella. Thank you for giving me a chance,” he said as he fused our foreheads.
Lucas wanted to get his face closer and kiss me, but I threw my face away. Evades. Lucas was silent for a moment, he turned his kiss on my forehead and hugged my body again.
I hope Nick doesn't do anything stupid. Don't look for me, Nick, Lucas is too dangerous for you. My heart is worried in my heart.
— MUSE S5 —
Tomorrow ...
After breakfast I went back to the hotel room. Trying to find a way to get out. Lucas always works from inside the hotel with his laptop, the morning hours are his rush hour.
Two of his men were always standing guard at the exit. They change shiffs three times a day. And what annoyed me most was the presence of Miller, a man my age so attached to Lucas, he reported all sorts of gestures to Lucas including myself.
“Shit!! How am I supposed to get out of here?!” I muttered while taking a shower.
I'm really stupid!! I should have followed what Nick said yesterday. His instincts are much better because of his fellow men.
Ah, I miss her smile and clumsy face. Candaku cheers myself.
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“Bella, I bought you some change of clothes and some footwear. Hopefully I didn't get it wrong looking for size.” Lucas came in with a few shopping bags.
“Thanks, Lucas,” I said, I pretended to accept the good. I also need clothes to get out of here, can't I run away in a hotel bathrobe?
“Same-sama, Ella. When are we gonna pick up Aiden?? You haven't even told me anything about him other than his name and date of birth.” Lucas sat on the edge of the bed, patting it next to him as a code for me to follow him to a seat.
“Emmp ... story after I change clothes only, can you come out?” my many.
“Just change here, have we more than just the same know.” god.
“Lucas!!”
“Alright, alright!! Ck, why can't you joke now?”
“I'm not the Bella you used to know, Lucas. I am no longer a naive and stupid little girl,”.
“For me you've always been a sweet little girl.” Lucas peeped at my cheek before he went out.
“Lucas!! Just wait!! Can you give me a cell phone?” many doubt.
“No.”
“Then take me out to eat?”
“No.”
“Lucas!!! Why so stingy,” my wrath.
“I don't want you to leave in front of me, Ella. I'm not willing.” Lucas then walked out.
I clucked bitterly, considering that there was not a single request I had to submit I had to flee in the usual way that I was not sure if it would work or not.
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“Where is Lucas, Mile?” my many.
“Master is in his room, Miss. Might be cleaning yourself.”
“I'm hungry, can you buy me a box of rice?? Please?” I'm trying to tell Miller, what else do I have besides the current charm?
“What do you want?”
“Mixed rice or roasted chicken rice, ah, satay is also delicious, or bakmi!! Geez I'm getting hungry.” Spoiled ganggekku.
“Alright, I'll buy you.” Miller turned around, telling the doorman not to fall asleep.
Ck, is he so stupid? Who is the man who does not fall for the charm of a Belaciaquin?? Will and Mark, they're the only ones who aren't fascinated with me.
“Hey, Gentlemen. Have you ever seen pole dancer?” I approached, opened the shirt and displayed a wacky chest that was only covered in a black bra.
“What kind of phone do you do??”
“I just want to dance to cheer you up, you guys must be tired all day standing.” I'm whistling my body sensually.
Huft, I was forced to let their mischievous eyes draw me. I'm sorry Nick, I had to do all this to get away to see you again.
“Nona!!” screeched them.
“Do you like?” I swerved hotter, showing my ability to dance.
It didn't take long and the two of them almost fought each other because they were aroused by my dance. One by one they couldn't stand it, and ran to the bathroom.
A banggo!! Men are indeed simple creatures, their brains are only filled with 5ex and also violence only.
I hurried to put my clothes back on, opened the door and closed it as slow as possible so Lucas wouldn't hear it.
I'm out!! I managed to get out of that room. Run as fast as possible!! Go as far as possible!! I pressed the elevator button violently, hoping that the door would open soon.
Please don't let him come to his senses and chase after me!!
— MUSE S5 —
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